Sunday, December 31, 2006

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Confessions countdown

Only an hour and a half to go until the Confessions Tour broadcast will finally start in Holland! I'm so excited! I can't wait for it to begin. Time really does go by so slowly!
For everyone who will be watching it tonight: enjoy. It looks fantastic, channel Nederland 3 has just aired a trailer and I was flipping on it!

Tonight on tv

Just a quick reminder to the Dutchies, that the Confessions Tour, filmed live at London's Wembley Arena, will premier on Dutch tv this evening. Channel Nederland 3, at 22.oo hrs!
Of course, this will be the cut version, missing the Sorry remix, Drowned World, Paradise and Lucky Star, but regardless, it will be a hell of a show to watch. At least they didn't cut the crucifixation as they did in the United States. Remember: the full version of the show will be available on DVD in just under a month!

Enjoy!

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Drinks, drinks and even more drinks

Another day of vacation! Therefor yesterday I finally had the chance to go binging on a working day, and Leendert was perfect company for that! I wasn't even hung-over this morning (although I'm not sure whether that's a good or a bad sign hehe), so I decided to go swimming this afternoon with Chris. We had a good time, although the swimming pool was very crowded with screaming children, because of their Christmas vacation. Still, since I'm not very much of a sports guy, swimming is good exercise for me!

Tonight I'm going out with Bo, who is in Groningen because of the upcoming New Year's Eve. That's something I really like. Of course, now that Bo lives in Utrecht, I don't get to see him that often anymore, while we used to have drinks every week while he still lived up here in the north. And because we're both free tomorrow, there's no limit to the amount of beer we can consume, and if any of you know me in real life, you'll know that that's a good thing for me hehe.

Well, a couple of hours of sitcom watching are on their way, until I'm off to the pub. Cheers!

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Take that and party

When I woke up this morning I was in a bit of a bad mood because of my ex-boyfriend. Not that he did anything, but I had dreamt about him and when I woke up I suddenly realised that we had broken up, so I had a bit of a bad start because I missed him so much. When I'm in a bad mood, I become somewhat of a compulsive shopper, so I went to the record store and bought myself the new Take That DVD: The Ultimate Tour.

I just watched it and boy how much childhood sentiment can you get? I used to love Take That when I was in high school, but of course it wasn't something you flaunt as a guy, so I had to listen to them privately through my discman (it was the pre-iPod era). I wouldn't go as far as saying I was devastated when they split, but I did feel kinda sad about it. Imagine my happiness now that they have released a new album and just finished of a UK tour (of which the Manchester City Stadium show has been filmed for this DVD).

And now for the very good part: rumour has it they will do a European summer tour as well in 2007! After watching the DVD I'm definitely going to buy myself a ticket and finally see my childhood idols. Mark Owen looks just as handsome as ever, and they still sing pretty good, although of course the singing was never really what it was all about hehe. Still, I was surprised to still be able to sing along to every single tune on the DVD, even though some of them are more then 15 year old. Everything Changes but Take That! Yay!

Holiday memories

I'm back from a great Christmas with my parents! I went there on Sunday, to get a bit of a head start before any of my siblings would arrive, so I had some drinks with my parents, which was nice and all. We didn't do anything really, just had a couple of drinks and had a bit of a chat.

Monday of course it was Christmas day, so my sister, brother in law and nephew, and one of my two brothers (the other one was in Poland) came over. We had a very nice day, with all sorts of nibbles and a fabulous Christmas dinner. It was nice to see all of them again, and we had a great time chatting up on how all of us were doing.

Yesterday it was just me and my parents again for Boxing Day (although in Holland we call it 2nd Christmas Day) and I got a little too boozed up. Went back home at 10-ish, after which I had some drinks with Niels, which was nice as well.

All in all, I had a great time. Of cours, I missed E. every now and again, but generally I didn't feel too sad about it. I expected it to be a very bad experience, you know, thinking about him all the time, but it worked out just fine.

Hope all of you have had a fab Christmas as well!

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Merry X-mas

Wishing you all a very merry Christmas! Don't eat or drink too much, cause I sure will haha!
I'll be off to my parent's in just a few hours, meaning I won't be able to post until after Christmas, so have fun, be safe and see you soon!

Saturday, December 23, 2006

The joy of Christmas

My office's Christmas function was a blast yesterday! We drank just a little too much booze and generally had a very good time. Not only because it's Christmas very soon, meaning a week of vacation, but moreover because of my new job obviously. I got a lot of good wishes from co-workers and there was this terrible karaoke show which is of course totally humiliating, but nice to see haha.

After that, my friend Leendert came over for drinks, and we watched Madonna's classic movie Desperately Seeking Susan. Of course, by then I was completely drunk, but what better way is there to start of the weekend?

This morning I took a particular long shower and now my hangover has dissappeared completely, which is a good thing seeing I have to go to Zwolle in just a few hours for my date. I hope it's going to be a nice evening, but I'm sure it will!

Friday, December 22, 2006

A new job

As I'm writing this, I'm as thrilled as I can be: I've got a new job!!! I had my interview this morning, and just an hour and a half later I got the news that I was chosen from the candidates! I'll start on Monday january 8th, so that leaves me one week of vacation, and one week of wrapping up my current job.

It's a bit difficult to explain what I'll be doing, but what it comes down to, is that I'll be doing budgetting, reporting and billing for our entire business unit, which is Groningen, Enschede and Leeuwarden (three cities in the Netherlands, I live in Groningen). I'm totally excited about this, cause I really wanted to have this job and I didn't think I would get it so easy. I was kinda positive about the interview, but still, you just can't tell what the recruiters will think of it, can you?

Anyway, we're having a Christmas function in two hours, and of course I've got a lot to celebrate right now. Can't believe this good news is coming just in time for Christmas, after I felt kinda sad yesterday! It's a good day, today!

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Christmas blues

I'm a bit sad today, and there's not really a reason to it. I guess it's just because it's been a busy day at work and I'm so tired right now. I have a job interview tomorrow and I'm preparing for it, but in the end the thing I would most like to do right now is just go to bed.

It doesn't help the Christmas is coming upm in just a few days. It's not like I really care anymore, as I wrote a couple of days ago, but still it's a bit sad to realise that all my Christmas plans have been sort of thrown to pieces after E. broke up with me. We were supposed to go to Geldrop on Christmas Eve, to go to chrurch (which is not something I usually do, but I'm one of those hypocrites who like doing so at Christmas time), go visit my parents on Christmas Day, and his parents on Boxing Day.

Of course, none of that will happen now, and even though I'm not supposed to care, I do care. I'm going to spend two days at my parents house now, which is by all means fine, but it does mean yet another Christmas of being alone. It's become somewhat of a habit and I was so thrilled about being able to break it this year, but no such luck I guess. To tell you the truth, Christmas for me could just as well go by without a trace.

Casino Royale

As I mentioned yesterday, I wasn't exactly sure if I would like Daniel Craig as the new James Bond. Well, after seeing Casino Royale yesterday, I can definitely say I don't. I don't think he looks like Bond, he doesn't have his sense of humour, and there wasn't a gadget in sight. Furthermore, of course it's totally illogical that M. is already a woman, while this film portrays Bond's first year as a secret agent. And why isn't this movie set in the Cold War? After all, that was the time when Bond first started as a double 0. There is even a brief mention by M. where she whispers 'I miss the Cold War'. Uhm, hello, if there was any sense of chronology, she would have been right in the middle of the Cold War, and perhaps not even been born yet...

You may have guessed it: I, as a profound Bond fan, hated this movie. Such a shame to bring such a great franchise to a waste. Hopefully they will come to theit senses in the next one. This has happened before. Live and let die, the first Roger More movie, sucked ass big time, while afte the that the series was right back on track. So I am in good hope that the same will happen this time, although I really doubt it, since the reviews are quite raving and also I've heard from many people that they loved this movie.

Good thing was the popcorn tasted as good as ever, so I didn't exactly got bored, but still, I would have expected better.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Hanging around

I'm a happy camper today, cause I'm having an especially short day at work, leaving as early as 4-ish this afternoon. Of course, it's about time as well, since I'm working in maximum overdrive for like three weeks now. Thank God I'll be enjoying a week vacation next week, between Christmas and New Year! At first I was planning on going to London, but seeing that London will probably be even more expensive during the holiday season, I think I will delay my visit for a couple of weeks and go somewhere in january, when room rates will probably hit rock bottom, as far as rates in London go. So now I don't really have any plans at all, which is fine by me. Just hanging around a bit seems awfully enjoyable at the moment!

Tonight, me and Anneke will finally go see Casino Royale, the new Bond movie. For me, as a Bond fan, it's of course a disgrace that I haven't seen it yet even though it's out in theatres for a couple of weeks already, but I'm making it all up tonight! Can't wait to get my popcorn and enjoy the movie! I'm not sure though what to think of Daniel Craig, the new guy playing Bond. I was used to Pierce Brosnan (although of course Sean Connery is still the ultimate Bond), so I hope this new guy can live up to that. I'll give a full report on my opinion on the movie tomorrow!

For now, I'll be getting back to work. It's lunch time in 40 minutes and I'm hungry!

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Interviews and dates

I just got an email inviting me for the job interview I was hoping for! I applied a couple of days ago but wasn't sure if I was going to be invited, but as it happens, I am! Next Friday, at 11, it's my turn, so of course I'm already a bit nervous, although I'm sure there's really nothing to be worried about, since I know both of the people I'm having the interview with. Still, better wish me luck!

Furthermore, I'm having a date next Saturday, which is kinda exciting! I'm not going to write about it any more than just letting you know I'm looking forward to it!

Anyway, back to work for me. It's another busy day, although I'm glad to announce that the trainees are doing a lot better today and don't ask so many questions anymore as they did yesterday. Let's hope it stays this way, so that I will have a bit of time for my normal work as well!

Cheers!

Monday, December 18, 2006

Virtual insanity

I'm on the verge of going insane. I've been training a bunch of new people at work for the entire morning, and as it seemed they were catching up pretty quickly, but now that they're actually doing the work, they just keep coming up with questions, preventing me from any other work. As I'm writing this, I'm taking a bit of a break to cool down, cause I really feel like swearing at them, which is of course not a very good thing to do.

I just can't wait to get home tonight and do absolutely nothing. I just want to hang around on the couch and watch a movie, while drinking wine and eating junkfood. I know, I'm a bad person hehe. Hopefully I can get one of my friends to join me, cause there's nothing I hate more than spending the evening on my own after a stressful day. Thank God this is just a temporary group, and all will go back to normal pretty soon!

By the way, thanks to gay.nl, this weblog has experienced an explosive increase of pageviews, up to 131, more than three times the amount of views than the previous record.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Enjoy it while it lasts

So I just put my profile back on on gay.nl, the place where I met my ex-boyfriend. As you may recall, E. and I decided at the time that we were both going to delete our accounts, since it feels a bit odd to go around chatting with strangers when you've got a boyfriend. But that 7 months ago now, and since we broke up a couple of weeks ago there was no reason to not be on that site anymore, so I created a new account.

You wouldn't believe how many messages you get when you're fresh in. My arm is actually hurting from RSI by answering all of them. It's quite funny, cause I remember from the last time that it only lasts about one evening, after which you just get a couple of messages per week. Anyway, enjoy it while it lasts, as they say.

Friday, December 15, 2006

Kicking in

I'm so happy that the weekend has finally kicked in. It has been an extremely busy and stressful week, so I really feel like I deserve to have these two days off! Next Monday I have to train a group of 15 new agents, so as you can imagine that will be a busy time as well.

The mysterious good looking co-worker hasn't been at the office for the entire week. I hope he didn't get himself fired or something. Anyway, without him being there, it spared me the embarassment I was expecting, but of course that can still happen next week. I do intend to get motherfucking drunk at our Christmas function next Friday, so I hope I won't make a fool out of myself haha.

All in the past

I'm at home right now and I think I'm more insightful to myself than I've ever been. I realise so much right now how I've been such a goddamn fool for so long. I have been an asshole thinking to myself that me and Emiel (yes, I realise this is the first time I ever mention his real name on my site, but frankly, I don't give a fuck) would ever get back together again. I realise now don't ever WANT us to get back together again. It's over, it's done, it's been ancient history.

Really, I'm through with it. I don't exactly know why, since I haven't talked to him today, but it's just fine with me, I don't want to take it anymore, I don't want to be with him anymore, I just don't want to have anything to do with him anymore. I'm just so over it. I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself, feeling hurt over a guy who obviously cannot even take care of himself, much less take care of me or even just be undrstanding of me. Why in the hell should I feel even remotely sorry for how he's feeling? So what if he feels like shit, it's just not my problem anymore.

So, even though this post may sound very angry, I'm actually not. I'm just through with it. I'm not angry, sad, desperate or anything. I'm just through. Through, and too tired to actually have an opinion on all of this. Let's just look back on all of this as a good time I've shared with someone who has been very important to me, but let's face it: it's all in the past.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Copy paste

I'm so not into to working today (for reasons I do'n't want to post here) and I just can't wait till I get off in a couple of hours. It's hot in here, I'm tired and I just want to go home now. I feel like a secretary right now, since I've been busy copying stuff all afternoon, which is not my favourite pastime by all means.

Yesterday I got an email from E.'s brother, stating that he would pay him a visit that evening, so I'm wondering how it went. I don't have a new email yet, so I'm kinda curious to find out!

Well, that's it for now. A short post, but I've got loads of more copying to do...

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

I just don't give a fuck anymore

Yesterday evening I called E. up to ask him how it's going. I hadn't talked to him in a week so I figured it would be nice just to check things out. We didn't have a very long conversation, and quite frankly, on my part we didn't need to. It was just basically exchanging some (sincere or not, I don't know) inquiries and that was about it. I guess it didn't take us more than three minutes.

Before I called him, I feared it might make me sad again, but quite surprisingly it didn't. It actually felt quite good to realise that I'm not the one having all these problems, but he is. I mean, sure, at first I felt pretty lousy about us breaking up, but time really does heal pretty easy, and now I don't really give a fuck anymore for the most part. It's only very rarely at night that I feel just a bit sad, but that's about it. He on the other hand is having so much stuff on his mind, that I should be basically grateful not to be involved in all that anymore.

So, weird as it may sound, I'm pretty much quite relieved not to be part of all thee problems and the depressions anymore, and I just learned that I can move on pretty easy, much different than from my last long relationship, where I spend an enourmous amount of time recovering. I was so fucking afraid that all that would happen again this time round, but it miraculously didn't.

So, maybe I'll call him again in a week, maybe I don't. Frankly my dear, I just don't give a fuck anymore.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Job opening

Again it's a busy day at work, but again I don't mind because the day goes all the more faster when you've got loads of things to do. It's almost eleven already and it feels like I've just arrived. No complaints here!

Furthermore, there's another job opening coming up, on a position I would really like to have, so I have to go and write a good application letter tonight, in hopes they'll choose me! Wish me luck! I'm pretty lousy in writing these kind of letters, so I'm going to need it!

That's it for now, I'm dying for a cigarette!

Monday, December 11, 2006

Embarrasment update

Well, haven't seen him, so I guess I delayed that embarassment! Stupid to think of course, cause I will be in that weird situation one of these days anyway, but still, it's always a good thing to have a couple of days of 'normal' working (whatever that means) before it's time to be the silly one.

I went home after work pretty early, about 4-ish, cause I was kinda fed up with it, but now the problem is I don't have anything to do tonight and feel terribly bored, but because of it being a Monday I cannot go out or anything, because it's just plain stupid to be doing that on a Monday. So now I'm watching sitcom's on the couch and actually feel quite happy about it, even though I would much rather have some people coming over for a drink. Maybe this is a good day to go to bed early and get a good night sleep so that I'm nice and fresh tomorrow morning.

Still haven't heard anything from my ex-boyfriend, which I still suppose is a good thing. When we got into this big final fight last week (even though are relationship was over for about two weeks at the time), I wasn't quite sure if I wanted him to call me or if I wanted the opposite. I guess I'm still not completely sure, but I do think it's for the better this way. At least I'm pretty easy nowadays in not calling him, which I think is a big step up from my former relationship with R., who I wanted to call every second of the day. Is this maturity? After all, I am 26 haha!

Anyway, I thought I would be feeling pretty lousy, and even though I'm not completely happy because of my boring evening, I have to admit it has nothing to do with E., so maybe I am getting over him easier than I thought! If there is still anything to get over, that is. I've been making a list of things not going very well in our past relationship, and to my big shock it was quite a long list. Of course, there were also a lot of good things going on, but looking back on it, I guess it just wasn't the perfect relationship I made it up to be in my head. I hate to say it, but maybe we just didn't fit well, and it was time to move on. I'm still not sure, but I do know I'm feeling a lot better than I did a week ago.

Humiliation

Just as I expected yesterday, it's a busy day again at work, for which I'm kinda grateful, since it makes the day go by so fast! I'm falling over myself trying to get everything done, and so far I've been pretty succesful, so let's hope I'll be able to keep it this way!

I haven't seen the co-worker I mentioned a couple of days ago yet, which I suppose is a good thing, cause it would be very embarassing running into him after our little disaster last week. I cannot believe I actually had the nerve to have Ziena give him my phone number, cause obviously it was to be expected he would't call. I mean honestly, would I? I don't think so.

Anyway, sometimes he starts working in the afternoon so there's still a chance it will all be a quite humiliating situation. If that's the case, I'll keep you posted!

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Happy unwrapping

I'm back in Groningen after a fun afternoon celebrating my mother's birthday. I started off on a bad manner, because as of today all the train departure times have changed, and of course I wasn't aware of this, leaving me waiting at the station for almost an hour. Oh well, of course I'm very used to this because of all the delays I've had travelling to my ex-boyfriend in Breda, but still, it can really piss me off.

Anyway, once there, in Leeuwarden, I had a good time! I'm tired now and I've got a busy day ahead of me, so I'll be off! Cheers!

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Birthday shopping

It's a nice sunny Saturday here in Holland, albeit a bit chilly. I have to go shopping this afternoon for my mother's birthday. It was actually last thursday, but we're celebrating it tomorrow, so I have to get a present. It won't be a problem cause I already know what I'm buying here (but can't post it here in case she reads it beforehand, which would spoil the surprise).

Then afterwards, tonight I'll probably be going out with Niels, although I haven't heard from him yet, but we had this sorta kinda agreement we would go clubbing tonight so I guess that will work out. I can't make it too late obviously, cause I don't want to shop up at my mother's birthday totally hungover haha.

Haven't heard from the co-worker yet, although I did wake up by a call of an unknown phone number this morning, but I was too late to answer it. Oh well, we'll see.

Friday, December 08, 2006

I'm entitled to it

It's weird, and I might and up actually deleting this blog entry, but the strangest thing happened: I actually like a co-worker very much. I don't know his name, don't actually know anything about him, except that for some reason he really appeals to me.

My co-wotker and fag hag to the max Ziena tackled him this evening and gave him my phone number, so let's just see what happens.

I don't even feel sorry for y ex-boyfriend. Let's remember he's the one who ended it all. I don't really know if this is going on with my life, but if it is, I'm entirely entitled to it.

Getting there

I feel a lot less negative than I've done for these past weeks. I had a long conversation with E. on the phone last Thuesday, and it sorta opened my eyes. It is not me who needs to feel sorry for myself, it's him. Not because he lost me, but simply because he has made such a mess out of his life.

It's too early to say I'm happy to go along without him, but I do have to say that, looking from another perspective at all this, maybe it's for the better that we've split up. I don't feel like being his shrink kinda person anymore. I owe him nothing of that type, since he has broken up with me, and quite frankly, I don't want to do it anymore.

It still takes a bit of getting used to, but the most important thing is: I'm getting there!

Thursday, December 07, 2006

I'm not Dead

Yesterday evening David, Remco, Anneke and I went to Amsterdam to see P!nk's I'm Not Dead Tour at the Heineken Music Hall in Amsterdam. Originally Dirk was supposed to come along, but unfortunatally he had to go to class which he couldn't skip, so David replaced him.

Boy, did we have a good time. The pre-show, a German band called Lili, was already very cool, and after a half hour wait, the houselights went down and along came P!nk. She delivered new songs from her album I'm Not Dead, switched off with older hit singles such as Just Like A Pill, Get The Party Started and Trouble. The soundsystem at the HMH is fantastic, so even though we weren't near the front, we had a great sound, and because the concert hall isn't all that large (about 8000 capacity) we also had a good view of the action on the stage. Action there was, with P!nk flying accross the air, lying on a motorbike and changing clothes about every two or three songs.

The setlist was as follows:

Intro
1. Cuz I Can
2. Trouble
3. Just Like a Pill
4. Who Knew
5. Im Not Dead
6. Lady Marmalade
7. Stupid Girls
8. There You Go
9. God is a DJ
10. Fingers
11. Family Portrait
12. Bob Marley's Redemption Song
13. The one that got away
14. Dear Mr. President
15. What's Up
Intro
16. U and Ur Hand
17. 18 Wheeler
18. Don't Let Me Get Me
19. Leave Me Alone (I'm Lonely)
Encore
20. Nobody Knows
21. Get the Party Started / Sweet Dreams

All in all, we had a great night!

Monday, December 04, 2006

A very bad dream

Another bad day. I'm so trying not to think about my ex boyfriend, but I just can't help myself. It doesn't help that I've had such a long stressful day at work as well. Being tired gives you even more of a reason to feel incredibly sad, which is exactly how I'm feeling right now.

Also, I'm afraid. I'm so scared that this may take me such a long time to get over. After my former boyfriend R. dumped me, it took me such an incredible long time to get over him. Even now I still can't just talk normal to him. Giving the fact that I've loved (and still love) E. more than I ever loved R., I'm so patrified that it will be even harder this time.

Especially because this time it seems so illogical that it's all over. I didn't see it coming at all, and just got bombed by the news that I was no longer E.'s boyfriend. I didn't have any time to adjust to the idea of things getting harder, because I didn't see any signs. It was just over, and that was that.

Am I so stupid that I didn't see any signs, or was this really something I couldn't see coming? I don't know, but I do know that I feel as if my life has just fallen completely apart. I wish I could skip those goddamned fucked up holiday season coming up, cause I could not feel any further from festivity. I just wish I could turn back the clock and undo all this mess, like it was all just a very bad dream.

Not my kinda job

By some miraculous act of God, I wasn't even too hung-over on Saturday, after the Friday night party. SO I went shopping with Sjeed and Dinne for birthday presents for Remco and David, who were celebrating that evening.

After dinner I went to their party, which was very nice. I stayed until about 1-ish, after I which I went clubbing in the local gaybar Golden Arm, with Leendert. It was a fun evening, although maybe I should have had one beer less than I did haha.

Sunday I went to my parents, and also had dinner there. After dinner, I tried to call E., which was perhaps not the wisest idea, but I just couldn't help myself. He didn't answer the phone though, because he was in a restaurant having dinner with his brother. I did get a couple of text messages though, and we agreed to call each other tonight. You could say it's a dumb thing to do, because I will only make myself unhappy, but the thing is that I'll do it anyway, even though I'm perfectly aware of the side effects. I'm just not very good in being someone's ex-boyfriend.

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Sunday bloody sunday

I know it seems like I'm whining all day long, but I can't help myself. I'm pretty sad at the moment. Not only does the weekend seem even more hard than I expected, without E., but now also my parents have cancelled their visit tomorrow, meaning I've got nothing to do on Sunday.

For the past half year I've spend the Sunday with E., and, in the event of me going to Breda, riding the train home late in the afternoon. I don't know what to do with a Sunday without those two things.

I've send E. a e-mail card but he's not responding. Well actually, he hasn't read it yet, because I haven't recieved a delivery confirmation yet. I'm wondering if he's just not at his computer, or that he just deleted the message without reading it at all.

Drink the pain away

In total compliance with how I'm feeling lately, I got fully loaded yesterday and drank more booze than I guess I ever did before. I remember everything up until a certain point, after which it was a blur, except for the fact that I was crying like a baby. I don't know, I guess I made a complete fool of myself, but I really do think I needed this. Drink the pain away they call it, but of course it doesn't help whatsoever, so now I'm feeling just as miserable as I did since the beginning of all this shit.

I just miss E. so much, I can't handle it anymore. As I wrote before, this is the first weekend without him, and I don't have a clue how to handle it. All I can think of is how much I want to be with him, how much I love him and how much I miss him. There's nothing in this world I want more than just getting back together, even though I know it's just a futile thought.

Friday, December 01, 2006

It's all an illusion

You know what? I just don't give a fuck about anything anymore. I'm sitting here in my room thinking back on all the good times E. and I have had together, and now that it's all over, I just don't care about anything anymore. It's so fucked up that someone who has been the most important part of your life for such a long time just suddenly disappears and leaves you with nothing.

Nothing. That's the only word to describe how I'm feeling right now. Maybe 'empty' is another good example. I thought I was the luckiest guy on the planet to have such a fantastic boyfriend who I loved with all my heart, and I seriously believed that this time it would be for real and that we would stay together. What a goddamned fool am I to believe in such a stupid fantasy. Of course it had to end, it always does doesn't it? No matter how much you love someone, no matter how much you do everything you can to make it work, it never does.

I may sound bitter right now, but this is simply how I'm feeling because of experience. This has been the third time I actually really loved someone, and it has ended again. Makes me wonder: why bother? Why start off with someone when you basically expect it to end every moment, leaving you in a deep depression. Wouldn't I be better off just not getting involved with anyone anymore? It sure as hell would save me a lot of grief.

No need for weekend

In about ten minutes my weekend begins. I don't even really care about it, cause this is to be the first weekend without E. Sure. there are parties enough, but I have to say I kinda grew out of the party mood. Me and E. usually just stayed in on Saturday night, and I kinda lost my hunger for clubbing. Well, anway, we'll see what happens...

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Cover story

The cover artwork for Madonna's upcoming Confessions Tour, live from London DVD has been released! The DVD will be released here in the Netherlands on friday january 17, the rest of Europe on january 22th, and the United States on january 23. Time goes by... so slowly!

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

The story so far

As promised, I decided to write a little bit about my breakup with E, which officially happened last week. I wasn't able to write about it earlier, because I didn't have a clue how to put down what I'm feeling right now.

E. called me to tell me he felt depressed and was having serious doubts about having a relationship at all (as opposed to having a relationship with me, basically all this has nothing to do with me). I tried my best to convince him to give it a go, but it was futile, resulting in us splitting apart. After that, we called a couple of times, and then last Saturday I decided to go to Breda so that we could at least have a chance to talk about it face to face.

I arrived, and basically we just cried for two days straight, so early afternoon on Sunday I drove back to Groningen. There was just nothing left to talk about, and we we're only making ourselves even less happy by talking about it all the time.

Last Monday and Thuesday we called again, and those talks were basically just about his feelings. You know, I can really go a long way with this, but in the end yesterday I decided that it would be masochistic to go on with this, since I'm feeling miserable as well, and I'm just not in the position to help him, while I'm a mess myself.

So, I asked him to stop contacting me at all, because the only thing it does when he calls, is that it gives me hope, which is just not a smart thing to do right now.

Now that all this has happened, I feel so totally unhappy. I obviously still love him so much, cause to me nothing has changed regarding my feelings for him. I don't think there's anything worse than loving someone and having that love unanswered, while you still remember vividly how happy you've been together. I'm mostly crying and feeling so sad, and I try so very much not to think about it, but I just can't help myself.

Fucked up mess

I haven't been writing for a while, since I really needed to let all this breakup shit sink in a bit. I was just reading all my previous posts about what a great time E. and I have had together, and it just feels like too much to understand it's all over now. I'll probably write about it in a couple of days, but I'm just not capable right now.

So please, just bear with me as I'm dealing with this fucked up mess, and heck back later.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Wish me luck

I'm just about to get on my way to Breda, to see my -unfortunate to say- ex-boyfriend and have a talk about all that's happened in the past couple of days. Don't have a clue on what's going to happen, but I kinda expect myself to feel even more miserable when I get home, as far as that's possible.

Wish me luck!

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Monday, November 20, 2006

Get into the groove


Promo trailers for the Confessions Tour broadcast are starting to appear. Looks like a fabolous recording of this amazing show!

Friday, November 17, 2006

Put yourself in my place

Anneke and I went for a nice drink in town yesterday, seeing that we handn't done that in a long time. Usually we go to the movies and have a drink, but we rarely just go for drinks. Had a fun evening with her!

Today is basically a very very very long day at work. I don't really have any big things to do (since I've worked so hard this week) so now I'm just fucking about a bit, waiting for it to be 6-ish. To add insult to injury, it's very warm in hear, which easily luls me to sleep. I have to take care not to end up sleeping on my desk.

I can't wait for the weekend to begin!

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Rock the vote

Yesterday evening, my former fraternity Cleopatra organised a political debate, because of the elections next week. Since I don't have a clue what to vote yet, I decided to go, and I have to say it was quite interesting. Usually I'm not really into spending my evening with serious matters, as I'm being serious enough at work all day long, but this was a nice exception.

The real interesting part of the evening actually came after the debate. My ex boyfriend was host of the evening, and as some of you may know we haven't really said a word to each other for like the past three years. I was kind of fed up with that, so yesterday I decided to give it a shot and sorta try to bury the hatchet. This turned out to be quite a good idea, as we chatted for at least 15 minutes, which is an absolute first.

Funny, isn't it, how you can develop a relationship into a not-on-speaking-terms situation? I'm not interested at all in becoming friends with him, but I don't want the awkward situation we were in, either. Maybe this will open up for us to at least greet each other on those spare moments we accidentally end up in the same room. I'd like that!

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Jumping like crazy

In The Netherlands ’Jump’ is JUMPING like crazy in the TOP 40! Last week it entered the charts at 24 and this week jumps to the top 10 at number 6!!This way Madonna becomes the most succesfull artist in the top 40 beating the likes of The Rollings Stones, Michael Jackson and The Beatles:

1. Madonna, 466 weeks, 11.539 points
2. Rolling Stones, 442 weeks, 11.515 points
3. Beatles, 312 weeks, 9.222 points
4. Golden Earring, 365 weeks, 9.001 points
5. Michael Jackson, 336 weeks, 8.305 points

Monday, November 13, 2006

Watch the beer

As I'm writing this, I'm in a fucking bad mood because of my job. You would not believe how busy this week is already, and it's only Monday morning. I'm not afraid of working hard, but there are limits, and I've already reached mine as early as 10.30 in the morning. It doesn't help that it seems as if everyone in the company is constantly asking me things, as if I've got nothing better to do. That's why I decided to take somewhat of a break to write this post.

The weekend has been great. Friday afternoon, after work, I took the train to Breda and did not suffer any delays for a change, so I got to my boyfriend's house pretty smoothly. We drank a beer or two and then went to bed, since we were both really tired. I slept like a rose and woke up rather fresh and happy the next morning.

On Saturday, we went shopping, which, in our case, basically means going into a store or two and then head for a bar to get some drinks. I bought myself the new Madonna single, Jump (with the ace b-side History). Having a beer turned out to be having loads of beer, so we got home feeling just a bit tipsy, but never mind, that's what the weekend is for, isn't it? We went to the video store to rent some dvds (Phileine Zegt Sorry -a Dutch movie-, United 93 and Poseidon). Some friends of my boyfriend came over for a drink, after which we went to bed to watch the movies.

Sunday we did basically nothing, except for hanging out a bit. I like spending my Sunday just fucking about a bit, and excellent way to end the weekend. Unfortunately, the weekend didn't end all that way, with huge delays in the railway system, so I got home rather late and feeling pissed off big time. Thank God my boyfriend took me to Utrecht by car, so that kind of made up for another two hours of waiting on trains.

When I got back to Groningen, I was in such a bad mood I decided not to go home instantly, but have a beer with Leendert instead, which was nice. All in all, except for the fucked up train ride, it was a great weekend! Cheers!

Friday, November 10, 2006

Relax

Just an hour and a half left before the weekend begins! I can't wait to go home, grab my things and take the train to Breda. It's been only a couple of days since I've last seen my boyfriend, but it seems a lot longer, so I'm very happy to be teaming up with him again tonight! I don't even really care for the long train ride. I just take my book and my Madonna cd's and everything will be fine, knowing that I'm heading to him!

I'm hoping for a very relaxed weekend as planned. I don't care for clubbing or going out this weekend, so I guess that will work out just fine.

I'll see you again on Monday. In the meantime: have a great weekend!

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Working 9 to 5

It has been extremely hectic all week at work, up to the point where I'm getting fed up with it. It seems as if I can't get anything done properly because of all kinds of extra duties coming in between. And as if it wasn't enough, people are asking me stupid questions they could be answering themselves just as easy all day long. I can't wait for the weekend to begin, I can tell you that much!

To compensate, I'm doing fun things in the evenings this week. On Monday I had Michael coming over to watch Madonna dvds, on Thuesday I had a beer with Leendert, and yesterday evening I had dinner with my sister and my brother in law. Of course, my little nephew was there as well, and he's really turning into a big guy, even though he's only a year and a half. He's just adorable!

Tomorrow, after work, I'll take the train and travel to Breda to spend the weekend with my boyfriend. He has bought himself an extra dvd player so that we can watch movies in bed as well now. It promises to be another relaxed weekend without clubbing or anything. I like that, after a hectic week there's nothing better than staying indoors and just relax.

Back to work for me, the more I do, the sooner this week will be over. Cheers!

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Couch potato

It's 3-ish as I'm writing this, which means I get off work in just about an hour! I love it when I get off early, cause the weather is fine and I'm looking forward to having a nice cold beer with some friends. Then, afterwards, tonight Leendert is coming over to have some fun, watch a movie or something.

I'm very much into watching movies these days. This passed weekend I was having this marathon with my boyfriend, but also during weekdays I like spending my evenings on the couch with a stack of dvds. The videostore must really like me now hehe.

Anyway, not a lot has happened today, so I'm going for a ciggy break.

Take care of yourselves... amd each other!

Monday, November 06, 2006

Planning ahead

My boyfriend and decided yesterday that we're going to spend New Years Eve in Antwerpen this year, which wil be my first time celebrating it outside of Holland. Sounds pretty cool! I love the city cause it seems to have a much more relaxed atmosphere than most Dutch cities (although that might be just a tourist point of view), so celebrating a big time like New Years Eve will most likely be a blast!

The only thing of course is, that being in a foreign country also means my cell phone will be in a foreign country, therefor creating huge bills if I am to wish everyone a happy new year. I guess I will have to do that upfront and then switch off my phone while I'm there. Anyway, it's two months to go, so no use worrying about that already.

At the moment, I'm pretty busy at work, doing loads of reports for the management team. I always enjoy doing that on Monday, as it makes the time go by a lot faster than it does on other days. I wouldn't have believed myself a couple of years ago, but I actually do enjoy drawing up reports very much. It's good to be the first one in the company to see how we're doing!

After work, I'm having a quick bite to eat and then I have to clean up a bit, cause Michael is coming over to watch my Fresno bootleg DVD of Madonna's Confessions Tour. Amazing how I can still find people willing to watch it with me! Anyway, I guess it will be a nice evening!

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Cold outside

It has been a great weekend! We barely left the house, but spend most of our time watching a marathon of DVDs together, which is a very cosy thing to do when it's cold outside! I like watching movies, and the days of going out every weekend are behind me, so I had a blast!

Now I'm back in Groningen, quite early, because my boyfriend had to study. It's okay though, getting here a bit early leaves me time to clean up my house and get a bit of sorted out before another week of working starts.

I hope all of you had a good weekend as well!

Friday, November 03, 2006

I can't wait...

... for the weekend to begin!

In just a few hours, I'm on my way to Breda to spend another, no doubt funfilled weekend with my boyfriend! I simply can't wait to see him again, since I've been missing him this entire week.
Yesterday we were together for 5 months, so of course this calls for a celebration, which we intend to have by watching a marathon of movies and cuddling up together.

Remember when I wrote I didn't like the fall? I have to amend on that, since the good thing about the fall is, that you have to stick close together in order to keep warm. I like that thought!

I wish you all a great weekend! Cheers!

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Behold... for the time is near





The image above are from the trailer for Madonna's Confessions Tour, Live from Wembley Arena London broadcast on USA network NBC, on november 22. The trailer was first seen yesterday, and the anticipation is building to a maximum!

One song

I'm published again on MadonnaTribe, one of the biggest Madonna fansites in the world! This time it's part of their new 'One Song' department, where fans can tell other fans why a certain Madonna song is so special to them.

Check it out at:
http://www.madonnatribe.com/news/modules.php?name=News&file=article&sid=3031

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Pass it on

The rules for this particular game are as follows:Remove the blog in the top spot from the following list and bump everyone up one place. Then add your blog to the bottom slot
1. Annush
2. Vince
3. Spider
4. Jetboy
5. http://totallytheo.blogspot.com

Then you get to select five people to pass the love on to so they can do this game:
1. www.rijntje.nl
2. www.milankaitu.nl
3. www.boomhut.nl
4. www.pepijnboonstra.tk
5. http://zomaarik.web-log.nl

Here we go…

What were you doing 10 years ago?
Probably partying, and trying to get through school, which worked out pretty well!

What were you doing 1 year ago?
Listening to Hung Up all the time.

Five snacks you enjoy:
1. Popcorn
2. Crisps
3. Olives
4. Cheese
5. Crackers

Five things you would do if you were a millionaire:
1. Buy a big house with a pool for me and my boyfriend.
2. Take a big vacation with my boyfriend.
3. Buy off my students loan.
4. Give my family part of it
5. Live life to the max!

Name five bad habits:
1. Smoking like a chimney
2. Biting my nails.
3. Getting way too drunk now and then.
4. Being bitchy once in a while
5. Spending too much money on things I don't really need.

Five things you like doing:
1. Being with my boyfriend, no matter what we're doing.
2. Listening too/watching Madonna.
3. Clubbing.
4. Watching TV.
5. Going on holiday.

Five favorite toys:
1. Cell phone.
2. iPod.
3. Discman.
4. Remote for TV.
5. Lego

OK so now it's your turn. Don't forget to add your URL to the bototom of the first list and bump of the highest one. Let me know if you passed this on!

Live with Regis and Kelly

Madonna is in New York right now, promoting her new book The English Roses: Too Good to be True and her upcoming Confessions Tour, Live from Wembley Arena London. She's doing several talk show appearances, such as Live with Regis and Kelly. This gorgeous picture was taken backstage.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

't Is the season

Summer is definitely over... Starting this week, there's a chilly wind blowing over Holland, and it's raining all the time, reminding us painfully that fall has kicked in big time. I don't know about you, but I don't like the fall. I always say that it all looks beautiful (you know, falling leaves and stuff) up front, but then I always forget how cold it can get. It's not as if I'm launching straight into a winter depression, but I can't say I'm all too thrilled about it, either.

So now I'm looking forward to winter, with it's cozy snow and ice, which is of course ridiculous, because I know that once the snow and ice have arrived, I'll hate it and curse on it. Maybe I'm not good with any season except spring, since during the summer I'm complaining about the heat constantly. Guess I'm just difficult to please hehe.

Monday, October 30, 2006

A night in Rotterdam

Saturday evening, my boyfriend and I decided to go clubbing in Rotterdam. We took the train, so that we didn't need to assign a designated driver. Of course, the thing about going by train is, is that you're stuck for the night and have to take the earliest train the next morning, which is at 6.50. Besides that, we switched over to winter time, so there was even an hour more to spend. Can you imagine how tired we were when we finally got back the next morning?

It was worth it though, cause we had a brilliant night. Went to this really nice bar called Kameleon first. It was decorated in this sort of jungle theme and very large discoballs. We had a couple of drinks there, and then went to Gay Palace, which has to be the largest gay club in the Netherlands... absolutely huge! A lot of fun though, very crowded place, and some good music (a lot of Madonna!)

Needless to say, we spend most of Sunday in bed, after which I had to take the train back to Groningen.

Friday, October 27, 2006

The Devil Wears Prada

As I mentioned Wednesday, I went to the movies with Anneke. We were really looking forward to seeing The Devil Wears Prada, and as it turned out, it was worth every penny! What a great movie! I can urge you all to go and see this one, cause without a doubt you'll be laughing your ass off! Merel Streep really deserves to win an Oscar for her role of the bitchy editor in chief of Runway magazine (which is of course a huge 'fuck you' towards Anna Wintour from Vogue Magazine). SHe plays her role really believable and actually made me like her character, despite (or maybe because) of her bad behaviour.

Sounds like I'm sharing box office grosses with all the praise I'm doing here, but it's just so that very rarely I see a movie that I'm instantly totally enthousiastic about, and this is one of them. Can't wait for the DVD!

So, get your lazy ass up from behind your computer, and go to the cinema. I promise you'll have fun!

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Freedom of speech

A happy happy day! Dutch tv station Vara announced it will broadcast Madonna's Confessions Tour, live from Wembley Arena London, in its entirety this December! After the news of NBC cowardly backing out because of those fuckers from American Family Association, I'm very happy to be proven once again that in Holland there is indeed freedom of speech! And, moreover, of course I can't wait to see the show professionally filmed!

That's all for later, cause tonight Anneke and I are going to the movies. We're seeing The Devil Wears Prada, which is of course the ultimate chick flick, and therefor perfect for us! I'll give a review tomorrow!

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Come what may

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I'm loving you more and more
Listen to my heart
Can you hear it sing
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change
Winter to spring
But I love you
Until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect pace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain to high
No river to wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Monday, October 23, 2006

Suddenly monday

Me and my boyfriend had a great weekend! He showed up in his new car, whcih I have to say is absolutely gorgeous! We went to the store to buy him a new cell phone that fits in his carkit, after which we drove to Leeuwarden to visit my parents. My parents are really fond of him, so we had a lovely afternoon.

When we got back to Groningen, we had some drinks at my place, and then we went clubbing. Got totally drunk but had a blast, and after all, it was a weekend so never mind. Got into a big fight with the cab driver on the way home, because wherever he wanted to take us, it wasn't home.... I can't believe every nitwit in town can become a cabby without having any clue on the street layout of a city. I mean, it's not as if Groningen is a metropole, so how difficult can it be?

Anyway, I decided to get out of the car without paying, which meant E. and I had to walk home even further. Fortunately we went for a quick snack on the way home, and then went to bed quite exhausted.

Sunday morning of course we watched our favourite cartoon Totally Spies, but this time not on telly, but on a DVD I bought E. as a present.

All in all, a lovely weekend!

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Cleaning

Yesterday evening I went for a drink with my great co-worker Ziena, which was an awfull lot of fun! I was smart enough to go home early, so that I could get up early as well today, to do some cleaning before my boyfriend arrives.

He just called me, and will be here at about 1 in his new car, so I've got something to look forward to! After he arrives, we'll go to Leeuwarden to visit my parents, which is of course nice as well!

So, I'll keep this post real short, and get back to my cleaning! My weekend will be great, I hope yours will be as well!

Friday, October 20, 2006

Land of the free?

NBC decided to be a fucking coward and give in to the ridiculous boycots from the American Family Association to censor Madonna's Confessions Tour broadcast.
Please take the time to go to http://www.nbc.com/Footer/Contact_Us/ and send the following e-mail:

Dear NBC,
I hereby wish to express my regrets for not airing Madonna's Confessions Tour in its entirety. By cutting out scenes, such as the crucifixation during Live To Tell, you give in to censorship placed upon you through narrow-minded organisations such as the American Family Association.Living in the Netherlands, I'm very gratefull that such a thing could never happen here. Protest groups have tried to ban the scene from the two Confessions shows in the Amsterdam Arena, without succes. I'm sad to see that in the United States, the supposedly 'land of the free', there turns out to be no such thing as freedom of speech.I urge you kindly to reconsider your decision.
With kind regards,

Dude,where's my car

I'm so happy it's Friday again! It's been an extremely busy week at work, and we expect to have an equally hectic time next week, so the weekend will be more than welcome! My boyfriend isn't coming over until tomorrow, so I'm planning on having a nice relaxed evening on my own tonight.

The reason why my boyfriend isn't coming over til Saturday, is that he's picking up his new car as we speak, so he's not going to make it tonight. That's okay though, we'll make up for it tomorrow. I'm anxious to see him again, cause I really miss him, but the thought of seeing him tomorrow makes that more than okay!

Meanwhile, I'm -again- working my ass of today. It seems as if all of our customers need to get in touch with us at the same time, so as you can imagine it's quite a hectic mood over here. Oh well, it will be 6 before we know it!

So, I want to wish everyone a great weekend, and see you guys soon!

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Pidgeon landing

Yesterday the most ridiculous thing happened to me: as I was walking home after work, a pidgeon landed on top of my head! It wasn't like it was crashing into me as pidgeons do all the time, no, it actually landed... Isn't that bizar? I hate pidgeons anyway because there are way too many here in Groningen, but something like this has never happened to me before. Of course, this event made me the laughing stock among my friends, but that's okay, I know it's quite a funny story.

After the pidgeon incident I went for a drink with Arjen and Roel, to celebrate Arjen's new job at Sogeti. Their office is actually across the road from my office, so we're practically neighbours now!

That's it for now. Cheers!

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

The Me and E. Tour

My boyfriend called me up extatically yesterday, because he has bought himself a new car! Later that day he send me some pictures that looked really really cool! We're going touring in it this weekend, which I'm sure will be great!

I can't wait for the weekend anyway, I really want to see him again! Ít doesn't even really matter what we'll be doing, cause I know upfront it will be great!

Anyway, it's a busy day at work, so I'll keep this post short. Cheers!

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Life without a phone

Disaster struck big time this past weekend. Saturday late in the afternoon, for no apparant reason my cell phone decided it wouldn't function anymore, leaving me with no link to the outside world. I don't about you, but for a gay guy, living without his cell phone is like living without cheesy Top 40 music, in other words: impossible.

So what I did was, yesterday, after two whole days without a phone, I went to the Orange store to get it either fixed or replaced, but no such luck just yet. It turns out I can hand it in so it can be send to the Motorola factory where they can try and fix it. This will leave me without a phone for up to two weeks, which is of course utterly unacceptable. I don't know why the fuck I'm paying for insurance cause this is definitely not the kind of treatment I expected.

Seeing as I don't have a choice though, I went to my friend Dirk, who has two phones, to borrow one of his and put my sim card in it. This will keep me going until Friday, when I can borrow another phone from my boyfriend. I really feel handicapped right now. A lot of my phone memory wasn't on the sim, but on the device itself, so I lost about half of all my friend's phone numbers, not to mention pictures I took of the Madonna concerts.

At least now that I have this other phone, I can be reached, but I will probably not recognise every number, so don't be surprised if I don't know who you are!

Friday, October 13, 2006

Sleepy

Woosh, I was so terribly exhausted yesterday I didn't really do anything anymore at night. I was supposed to go to this party, but when I got home after work, I just couldn't drag myself outside anymore, so I ordered Chinese and crawled up on the couch, watching some telly. Went to bed early as well, but not of course before I spend some time on the phone with my boyfriend, who I will see again tonight (can't wait for that!!!).

I'm not really sure why I was so tired yesterday. Okay, I did have two long days at work, but it's not like it's real physical demanding work. Most of the day I'm sitting behind a computer and that's it. Maybe I was just tired in my head or something, I don't know. Financial-wise of course it's a good thing to be very tired during the evening, cause when you're staying at home, you're not spending any money right?

When I woke up this morning, I wasn't tired at all anymore, so I guess my very good night's sleep has cured that. I'm at the office now, leaving at five-ish to go to Breda, for another great weekend with my boyfriend. Wish you all a great weekend as well!

Cheers!

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Me and Madonna's manager



This great picture of me and Guy Oseary, who is Madonna's manager, was taken on september 3, in the Amsterdam ArenA, right before Madonna's Confessions Tour show.

Theo vs. Ziena

My co-worker and friend Ziena came over yesterday, to watch a horror movie, as we do every once in a while. I choose Freddy vs. Jason and was looking forward to seeing this one. We started off just fine and we're actually impressed by the movie, it wasn't terrifying, but scary enough in some places.

Then, about halfway in the movie, the DVD got jammed and we couldn't watch the ending. Damn, I always hate it when that happens, especially when the videostore has already closed so that there is no chance of getting a replacement. So, we had to check IMDB to find out how the story ends, which is of course a lot less fun than actually watching it.

Still, we had a fun night, drank a glass of wine and had some good chats, so regardless of the movie fucking up, I enjoyed myself!

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Ditch day

There's a long day ahead of me at work today, and I'm not really into it, especially since I already know that tomorrow will be an equally draining day. It's not like I'm tired or anything, cause I went to bed quite early yesterday, but it's just a general feeling of not really getting the hang of it. I'm already looking forward til six-ish very much, so that I can go home and enjoy a relaxed evening.

Yesterday, my friend Niels ditched me (or, to be exact, he forgot about our hanging out together) so suddenly I didn't have anything to do. It didn't matter though, cause it was Thuesday night, which is the evening Grey's Anatomy and Gilmore Girls are on Dutch television, and they happen to be two of my favourite shows, so I had a fun evening even though I was alone.

Went to bed at about 12 and had a very good night sleep, so I woke up fresh and shiny this morning. Now I'm at work, and I want to go home haha. I'm such a whiner...

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Exciting day

My boyfriend's going to his new school today for the first time, and I'm really anxious to hear how it went! I'm really proud of him for going and taking so much care in preparing himself! He's been busy since last Sunday for just the first class, and I can understand perfectly why he makes such a big deal out of it! In just about an hour I can call him to ask him all about it and I just can't wait! I'm absolutely sure he will do more than fine but it's just very exciting to hear it from himself!

Meanwhile, my day has just been fine, albeit a bit busy. I'm generally not very happy about days consisting of just meetings all day long, but today it wasn't very bad at all. Tomorrow I'm planning on having a meeting with my manager (if she can find the time, I haven't asked her yet), so let's see what will happen then.

All in all, an exciting day!

Monday, October 09, 2006

Staying in

Allow me to take a moment to talk about my fabulous weekend! Friday night, after a particulary long day at work, I took the train to Breda and made it, for a change, very quickly there, as far as you can talk about quickly when you're travelling across the country. My boyfriend came to pick me up from the station and we had a nice beer at home, while watching a very funny Dutch movie called Loenatik (sic).

Saturday my in-laws came to pick us up and took us for lunch in this fancy hotel/restaurant in a forrest near Breda, which was great. I really like my in-laws (both his parents and his brother) so it's always a nice happening when we go out to eat. The weather was fine, albeit a bit chilly, so we had to lunch indoors, but that's fine.

Saturday evening, my boyfriend's best friend and his girlfriend came over, so we had to play the perfect hosts, which, in my humble opinion, we did very well. We had lots of nice things to eat and to drink, and I think they really enjoyed it. I know I did! After they left, we watched The Perfect Storm, starring George Clooney and Mark Wahlberg on DVD. Of course, E. fell asleep, but that's okay, since it gave me the opportunity to think about how happy I am. You know, just 5 months ago, my usual Saturday evening existed of clubbing all night long, and being quite pathetic, looking back on it. Nowadays, I'm a lot more comfortable with just staying in, have some people coming over, or just spend the evening on the couch, just the two of us. I felt, and feel, so lucky to have him as my boyfriend, and to be able to do these kind of things!

On Sunday, we woke up and my boyfriend made us a terrific breakfast, with a huge omelet. Yummy! We spend the day watching television and just basically enjoying each other's company, making me feel a bit sad having to leave late in the afternoon. Still, even before I got back to Groningen, I had him on the phone already, knowing that another great weekend has passed. I can't wait for next Friday, when I see him again!

Friday, October 06, 2006

I like it this way

I'm a very happy camper, cause tonight I will finally see my boyfriend again. It's been a week since we've seen each other, and I can't wait to get to Breda after work. Of course, it's going to be an awfull long train ride, but that doesn't matter that much, since I will be able to listen to some music and read some books in the meantime. And of course, when I get there, I will have forgotten all about it, being happy to see E. again!

We don't have any big plans for this weekend, which is a good thing for me, seeing that I'm kind of budgetting this month. Tonight we're just going to watch a movie, and tomorrow some friends of his come over.

It's funny to see that before I met E., I was constantly clubbing on weekends (as you can see by checking back in the archives of this blog), while currently I very rarely club, and when I do, it's with E. Lately, I much rather prefer doing something fun at home, having a drink, inviting some friends over, or having a dinner party. Does this mean I'm getting old, or is it just that clubbing is much less fun when you're not in the business of flirting anymore? Maybe it's a combination of both, but anyway, I like it this way!

Raising Malawi



Don't you just love these two pictures of Madonna in the African country Malawi? She's there to help the children who were orphaned because of the extremely high AIDS numbers in Malawi. I love it when she's doing things like these!

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Even more screenshots

WIth a little help from http://www.madonnatribe.com, here are some more fantastic screenshots from the new Madonna video 'Jump'. Enjoy!

Get ready to jump


The new Madonna video, Jump, premiered yesterday, and she looks better than ever!

I feel love

Yesterday evening my boyfriend called me (as we do every day), and suddenly it struck me just how much I love him. I realise that I tell him I love him all the time, but you know, sometimes it just happens so that you just can't stop feeling this overwhelming sense of love. I felt (and still feel) the happiest man on the planet, knowing that I've got the best boyfriend there is. How lucky am I to have someone so fabulous to love me, and to be able to be with this great great great person!

I guess it's a matter of taking the time to just stop and evaluate things every once in a while, and while I was making up the balance, it was so obvious this balance definitely scales down in the right direction, namely, towards him! So, just to keep this post short and sweet:

I Love My Boy Friend Very Very Very Much!!!!

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Dear diary

As I wrote yesterday, I left work as early as 3, so I had a nice afternoon off. I went for a drink with my friend Annelies, with Sjeed and Roel joining us. Then, after dinner, I went to Annelies her house to watch Madonna DVD's, so it was a great evening as well.
Unfortunately, I'm always the one who has to leave early, because obviously I need to be at work the next morning. Never mind though, as it was still a great day.

Now that I'm at work, I'm happy to say that it's not nearly as hectic as it was on Monday and the start of Thuesday, so I'm doing my things at a more leisurely pace. I'm getting off work at 5 this afternoon, so there's a bit of an evening to be enjoyed, which I'm planning on doing with my friend Leendert.

Also, only two days left until I see my boyfriend again! I'm really missing him big time, so I can't wait to get to see him again. Sleeping alone has become a bit, I don't know, strange. I'm so used to having him wake up next to me in the morning, that I'm actually a bit sad on those days when he's not around. Lucky for me, just two nights without him!

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Shopping sprea

Because of it being so hectic at work yesterday, I decided to start an hour early today, resulting in me leaving as early as 3 this afternoon, so I'm having half a day off. I've decided to go shopping this afternoon. Well, window shopping would be a better description, since I'm not actually planning on buying something, as I still feel the enormous amounts of money I've spend on Madonna's Confessions Tour. Still, it's of course always better than being at work, so I'll have fun no matter what.

It's amazing just how busy it actually was yesterday. It seemed like all of our customers had gone crazy all of a sudden. We barely managed to get all the work done, but in the end, we did, so we can be pretty proud of ourselves!

Back to work for me, seeing that I'm not around here much longer today!

Monday, October 02, 2006

The good life

It has been yet another great weekend for me and my boyfriend. On Friday evening he arrived, and we went straight to Marijn and Roel's graduation party, which proved to be a big hit. It was very crowded (in a good way) and there was loads of free beer, so that's always a garantee for a good evening.

Then on Saturday in the afternoon, we went for drinks with my co-worker Ziena and her boyfriend, which turned out to be a dinner party as well, ending with a movie at Ziena's place. The movie, Boogeyman, turned out to be not scary at all, but still, it was a very fun day.

Of course, on Sunday morning we had to watch Totally Spies on Jetix TV, a regular every weekend. Although it's a cartoon made for kids in their early teens, for some reason we're both very hooked on it, so that's always a good way to round up the weekend.

When my boyfriend left, I went for drinks at the Irish Pub with a couple of friends, after which I went home, watched some television, and went to bed early. All in all, a great weekend!

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Picture of me and Madonna



Look at this wonderfull picture of me and Madonna, taken during Get Together in Paris, as part of the Confessions Tour, in the Palais d'Omnisports Arena on august 30!

Friday, September 29, 2006

Have fun

I'm very happy that it's finally Friday, and the weekend will kick in in just a few hours. It has been a busy week at work, not exceptionally busy, but still I'm pretty tired right now and the thought of having two days of all play and no work, is very welcome!

I wish you all a good weekend, and talk to you soon!

Thursday, September 28, 2006

In the pocket

Tomorrow my friends Roel en Marijn are celibrating their graduation in Groningen, so of course my boyfriend and I will attend. It's going to be fun to see Marijn again, after many months of her being in Milton Keynes (in the UK), and of course it's great for Roel as well to have his diploma firmly in the pocket. I like parties like this, since it's a great way of showing off your boyfriend, and besides that, people you don't see every day anymore, will be there, which is of course always a good thing. I have to go shopping for gifts, but I don't think that will be any problem.

Besides that, I don't really know what we're going to do this weekend. On Saturday, we're going to have drinks with my co-worker Ziena and her boyfriend, but for Saturday evening we don't really have plans yet. Oh well, I think it will be a great weekend no matter what we'll do!

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Theo and crew love H&M


This wonderfull Madonna and Crew Love H&M shirt was given to shop workers of H&M, and will be mine in just a few days!!!

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Favourite things

Today I'm not really into writing a long blog entry, so I decided to do something else: I'm doing a very Oprah-ish 'Theo's favourite things', making top 5 lists in different categories. Since I'm interested in how my readers feel about my choices, please leave me a message to tell me yours, and make this a sort of message board kinda post! Okay, so here goes:

Favourite artists
1 Madonna
2 Kylie Minogue
3 Robbie Williams
4 Tori Amos
5 Kelly Clarkson

Favourite movies
1 Moulin Rouge
2 Titanic
3 Scream
4 Coyote Ugly
5 Evita

Favourite male actors
1 Ewan McGregor
2 Orlando Bloom
3 Adam Garcia
4 Leonardo DiCaprio
5 Ben Affleck

Favourite female actors
1 Nicole Kidman
2 Julia Roberts
3 Cameron Diaz
4 Neve Campbell
5 Angelina Jolie
Favourite Madonna songs
1 Get Together
2 Vogue
3 Hung Up
4 You Thrill Me
5 Like a Prayer
Favourite non-Madonna songs
1 Better The Devil You Know - Kylie Mingue
2 Because of You - Kelly Clarkson
3 Feel - Robbie Williams
4 My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne
5 Come What May - Nicole Kidman & Ewan McGregor
Favourite TV show
1 Sex and the City
2 Will and Grace
3 Desperate Housewifes
4 Grey's Anatomy
5 Gilmore Girls

Okay, so now it's your turn!

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Long days

Only one night before I see my boyfriend again! Yay!!!! We're having a dinner party because of his father's birthday tomorrow, so I'll leave work at 3-ish in order to get there in time. Dinner parties with his family are always great, so I can't wait.

In the meantime, tonight I'm attending a concert by my co-worker's band, which I guess will be nice. I'm usually not very into small bands, but of course, when you know someone who's in it, it's a different story. Besides, my co-worker Ziena is going as well, so I'm sure it will be a nice evening!

Of course, all that won't be until tonight, and there's still a lot of work to do before that. I'm having a very busy week this week, which is not exactly my favourite thing to do, cause I get off work really tired every evening. Normally I'm working until 5, but because I need to go to Brabant early tomorrow, I'm working until 6 back to back this week. I'm glad things will return to normal next week, cause I tend to be kind of gutted at night because of this. I know it's only an hour in difference, but that one little hour seemingly makes the day a lot longer.

Anyway, enough complaining, back to work!

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Welcome to sunny Holland

It's a beautifull day in Holland today, and my mood is a happy one accordingly! Yesterday evening I had a fun night with my co-worker Ziena! We watched Final Destination 3 at my place, which wasn't such a great movie, but had a good laugh nonetheless. Today I woke up in a good mood already, and none of that changed at work, even though it's quite a busy day. I'm having fun with my co-workers and the clock is ticking the time away like hell, so it will be 6 before I know it.

All of this happiness, of course,is not just because of the sun, but mostly due to the existance of my fantastic boyfriend E., who I love so very much. When I get off at six, the first thing I will do is give him a call, cause I really feel like hearing his voice.

Then tonight, my friend Sjeed is coming over, so no doubt that will be another fun evening. I hope all of you are having a good day as well! Cheers!

The new look

This new Madonna picture was taken in Tokyo yesterday. Could this be the new look for the upcoming Jump video? I hope so, she looks fabulous!

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

The end is near

Today marks the day of the final Confessions Tour show, in Tokyo,Japan. I can't believe how fast everything went.... I can still remember so vividly when the tour was announced, so it's hard to realise it will all be over in just a few more hours. Thank God I've seen this wonderful show 4 times, and of course there are bootlegs for now, and an official DVD, filmed at Wembley Arena London in just a couple of months (unless they pull of the same trick as they did with Get Up Lisbon, the Re-Invention Tour live from Portugal, which never surfaced).

I wish I could be there tonight in the Tokyo Dome, but of course the show is sold out and besides, I wouldn't be able to make it there in time. I have only been to general admission shows, so it would be kind of cool to see the show in a seated arena once. Maybe next tour I'll attend a show in London (where there's seating) as well as a couple of shows in Europe (where it's general admission). My boyfriend is looking forward to it already hehe!

One thing Madonna showed us during these fantastic four months: she still is the unmatched Queen of Pop!

I just trust it

How can you be sure, that's the big question. How can you be sure that this is actually the one. How can you be sure that you want to spend the rest of your life with this person. How can you be sure that you will never leave each other,

Well, I can tell you: you can never be sure. I got to think about this when someone asked me today, how I could be so sure that I'm actually planning on buying a house with my boyfriend. The big deal is: I'm not certain, but that's just why I trust it. You can never know when you're ready to start a life with someone, you can only think so for a full 100 per cent. And let me tell you: that's just what I do.

My boyfriend, or anyones boy or girlfriend can cheat the hell out of me for as for as I know, but you just gotta trust that the one you want to live with is trustworthy. How else am I supposed to trust him with my bills, my bank account and all my other stuff? You need to have that certain amount of 'I just know' before you can take it one step further.

Well, I know for sure, I know I love my boyfriend for so many reasons, I know I'll love him no matter what, that I can go on with this! I just hope others will feel the same.

Friday, September 15, 2006

Thank God it's Friday

Friday morning and I'm not tired anymore. In fact, I can't wait for the weekend, even though it turns out it will be a bit different from what I expected. My boyfriend is having a BBQ from work tomorrow, and he has to help in organising it, so it won't be much use for me to go to Breda tonight. Instead, we'll meet up in Amsterdam on Sunday, where we'll be attending my brother's birthday party. So I guess this means I won't be having any nights with him this weekend, which is a bit of a shame, but does provide an unexpected opportunity to go and visit my parents, which is exactly what I'll be doing.

I don't get to see my parents very often anymore, since I'm away every weekend and working all week. The only times I see hem is when my boyfriend and I visit them together, so I guess it will be nice seeing them alone again finally. Still, I know I'll miss my boyfriend very much this weekend, so I'm glad we do get to see each other on Sunday.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

I'm so tired

You would not believe how fucking tired I am as I'm writing this.... I don't really know why, but I could easily fall asleep sitting in front of my computer and not waking up before well into tomorrow morning.

I had quite a busy day at work, but I guess not so busy to justify this, maybe I'm catching on a flew or something. I don't know. One thing I do know is that I really need to go to bed and hope to be better tomorrow morning.

So I guess you'll forgive me for keeping this post short. I'll see you guys tomorrow!

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Five years after 9/11

Yesterday marked the 5th anniversary of the 9/11 tragedy in 2001. Even though I don't live in the United States, in Holland the media were full of the news as well. Nearly every TV station broadcasted a movie or documentary about the events, and the Dutch newspapers were all over it as well. It seems so odd to me that it's already five years ago. I remember so very well what I was doing when the news broke, that it doesn't seem so long ago. When the first plane hit the tower, I was in class. A friend of mine called me on my cell phone after which I hurried to a bar to watch CNN, just in time to see the second plane crashing. I remember thinking this would be the beginning of World War 3 and being so scared of a nuclear conflict. Of course, none of that happened, but I do think it's safe to say the world hasn't exactly become a safer place to live.

What I find really strange, is how many people seem to be firm believers of the conspiracy theories nowadays. Of course, I have to admit all this really came in handy for the Bush administration, but to think that the US government actually killed 2800 of its own people to justify wars in Afghanistan and Iraq? I just don't buy into that. Still, I heard on the news yesterday that only 40 percent of the American people still believe in the 'official' story, and many more seem to be getting doubts about what really happened that day.

Whatever you may or may not believe, I do think it's good to have a bit of a moment each year to think about the death of all those people, and to just remember what a horrible thing has happened only five years ago.

Monday, September 11, 2006

Not getting it

After three weeks of holiday, I am now back at the office and not really into it yet. I'm trying to get my act together, but I'm very slow in everything I'm doing, and I just can't wait to get off and go home. Fortunately, this will happen at 4 instead of 5 o'clock, so at least that's something to look forward to. Still, it's good to see my co-workers again, I did kinda miss them, and they were all very enthousiastic about my amazing Madonna experience this past three weeks.

Furthermore, I have not yet started unpacking, so my living- as well as my bedroom, are in a state of chaos, to which compared Hiroshima would be tidy and clean. I wasn't into cleaning it up yesterday when I got home, so there's a job waiting for me after work. Oh well, after I've finished, I'm getting someone to come over and watch a Confessions Tour bootleg DVD, as a sort of reward.

Time to try and get some work done, so I'll keep this post short and sweet!

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Home sweet home?

Since about half an hour I'm back in Groningen, cause my vacation is over as of tomorrow. I just arrived and I miss my boyfriend already. It's so easy to get used to being around each other all the time, that it really takes some adjustment to get back to normal life. One thing's for sure, we have to start looking for a place to live (and a job for me) in Breda real soon!

So now I'm back and I'm feeling a bit lost. Work doesn't start until tomorrow so I don't really have anything to do right now. I'm fucking about a bit and watching some meaningless television. All of these sounds a bit dramatic, I realise that very well, but I just can't help missing him. I've been there for three weeks straight (with a couple of days of to see all the Madonna Confessions Tour shows in Hannover, Paris and Amsterdam) so I'm totally used to being around him now. Oh well, when work starts tomorrow, I'm sure I will feel better.

So, I'm going to grab a nice cold beer and get together with Annelies tonight, so that will help to keep my mind off things. Cheers everyone!

Friday, September 08, 2006

Dinner time

Tonight my boyfriend and I will go and have dinner with Bo and Annejet, in Bo's house in Utrecht, which is something I'm looking forward to very much, since I've been a bit of a bad friend and haven't visited his house yet, even though he lives there for quite some time now. I've spend the entire morning cleaning up E's house so that we're both free tomorrow to do fun stuff, instead of the usual cleaning up on Saturday. I wasn't a clean up person before, but now that I'm with E (who is obsessed with cleaning, but in a good way) I'm turning around a bit.

So now I'm in Breda's public library to check my email and relax a bit, before heading back to E's house, cause he will be off from work rather early today, so that we can head to Utrecht soon! I hate the fact that in juts two days, I have to head back to Groningen, since my holidays are over. I've gotten very used to waking up next to my boyfriend each morning, so I guess it will take a bit of adjusting now that we're going back to our weekend relationship. We really need to start living together soon, cause I want him to be around every day!

Anyway, I wish you all a great weekend! Cheers!

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Doing nothing

As you will probably know, I'm still in Breda with my boyfriend, but the end of my vacation is coming closer in an alarming rapid speed. So we decided we should go and do something fun tonight, which will be drinking something on a terrace in town, cause all of a sudden it seems as if summer is back with a vengeance here in Holland, with beuatifull weather and high temperatures.

For the rest, I'm still doing basically nothing, which is pretty good for a change, and a good way to relax after the frantic weeks of sleeping in front of venues and stadiums. I will be back in Groningen starting next Sunday, so I hope to see everyone again soon, and for the people who don't live there or who I haven't seen in real life yet: Cheers!

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Back to basics

With all the tour madness behind me now, life is turning back to normal. I'm still having a couple of days off from work, so I'm still living with my boyfriend in Breda, who warmly took care of me while I was totally exhausted after those last two shows in Amsterdam. I'm still not doing perfectly well physically (especially my arms are still hurting) but I'm getting there, thanks to his kind help!

I have to say it's kinda nice to get back into a normal routine. Sleeping in a bed instead of a stadium parking lot is a good improvement, since I started feeling like a homeless person these past couple of weeks. Even better is sleeping next to my boyfriend, who, as a matter of fact, is my boyfriend for over three months now already. Oh how time flies when everything's going well. I still love him as much as I did in the first couple of weeks, or actually, I love him even more. I really start to believe that this could be for the rest of my life, or so I hope. We went watching for a home last week on the internet, and I have to say there are quite some places in Breda that I would really love to live with him in.

So to keep things short: everything's going fabulous and I'm still one of the happiest persons in the world. I hope all my readers are doing good as well!

Cheers!

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

The final shows

Saturday afternoon we arrived at about 3-ish, to start waiting in line for the first of two Amsterdam ArenA Confessions Tour shows, which was to take place on Sunday. This time, it wasn't just e and Annelies, but also Sjeed, Bo and Mariska. My boyfriend drove me to the ArenA, and we were happy to find out that the adjacent bar was open, so we could get some beers and get the fun started.

The night went by pretty easy, so when we woke up, we found there was already quite a line waiting behind us. Fortunately enough, most of them were fun people, so it was a good day, especially when the SGP and Schreeuw om Leven people came on the scene, who we tried to boo off (no such luck I suppose, these are pretty persistant people).

At 6-ish the doors opened, and we ran as fast as we can to get up front. As it happened, I turned out to be the very first person to enter the Golden Circle, so I had a perfect choice on what position at the catwalk I wanted to have. I ended up at the left side, about 4 meters from the central stage, which is by now already my favourite place to watch the show.

The show itself, as always, was absolutely perfect. I was seen on the big screens (and broadcasted on television as it appears), I took a picture with Madonna's manager Guy Oseary (a lovely guy), and cought a balloon once again. Madonna was in a very good mood so the show was one big happy party!

After the show, we were so tired and worn up, that Annelies and I decided not to go back in line right away. We made a bed in the car, only to find out that we weren't allowed to sleep in the parking garage, so we had to find an alternative place to sleep. Luckily enough we found one, so we had, as far as sleeping in a car goes, a good night sleep. When we woke up, we decided we didn't want to be in line at all this day, since we've seen the show from front row three times already, so we went to the city center of Amsterdam to have lunch and do some shopping. When we got back, there was already a huge line, so we went to the bar and had some beers.

When we entered the ArenA at about 8, we managed to get some pretty good spots in the middle of the stadium, which meant that we finally had some room to dance. When you're front row, you can watch the show at its very best, but the crowd is pushing so hard that there isn't any room to dance., so it was kind of refreshing to finally see the satdium as a big dance floor, the way Madonna wants it.

Madonna was in a good mood again, so we had a fantastic final night of Confessions. The tour is off to Prague, Moscow, Osaka and finally Tokyo now, so it's over for me. I can only say that these past three weeks have been the best ever, even better than Re-Invention. I will always cherish my memories of this fantastic show, and I've got my two balloons, y t-shirt and my tour jacket to account for that.

Annelies, Bo, Sjeed, Mariska, Nathalie, Ellen, David, Izzy, Robert and Shirley (and whoever I might have left out in the rush): Thanks for a fantastic time, but above all: Madonna, thank you for yet another wonderfull tour. I can't wait for the next!

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Madonna in Paris

I just got back from my second Confessions Tour show in the palais Omnisport Paris (Bercy) and it was even better than the previous one in Hannover. As with every Madonna tour, the Paris crowd is the absolute top notch! Despite all the pushing, shoving and waiting in line for what seems to be forever, you just can't top them!
We succesfully boo-ed off the NRJ Radio Mastermix, by singing 'time goes by so slowy' all through their setlst, after which the Queen finaly came on stage. The crowd went absolutely wild and Madonna seemed to be in a top mood, despite having several technical difficultie all through the show. Her speeches were about the same as they were during the first two shows in Bercy, only this time she carwaled around on the catwalk, making us scream 'We want peace, fuck George Bush'.
And then the big thing happened: during Let It Will Be, Madonna touched my hand!!! oh my God...'I was hoping for the entire evening for this to happen, since I had a perfect location at the beginning of the central catwalk, right near the main stage, and she did! As you can imagine, I'm one happy camper right now!
Anyway, he show was perfect, and I can't wait for next Sunday and Monday, when Confessions will hit the Amsterdam ArenA!

Friday, August 25, 2006

Two weeks off

The first week of my three week holiday went by alarmingly fast, not in the least because of the fantastic Madonna Confessions Tour concert last Thuesday, in the AWD Arena in Hannover. Fortunately, I'm looking forward to a great weekend, since E. is coming over tonight. We're probably just going to watch a movie, but just being with him makes me happy as it is. Tomorrow we're going to visit my parents in Leeuwarden, which I also hope will be a great day. After that, we're going to Breda where I will spend two weeks in between shows in Paris and Amsterdam. So all in all, it's going to be a nice time coming up!

The fact that I won't be at home, specifically around my own computer, could also mean I won't be posting that much during this next couple of two weeks, so please bare with me as I will be coming back to update you all on how it went. Two weeks non stop with my boyfriend sounds like a great deal of fun, so I guess there will be a lot to update about after that.

For now, I wish you all a great weekend, and hope to see you soon!

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Winter coat



Here's a fantastic picture of Madonna wearing her famous winter coat for the very first time on stage, thuesday night in Hannover, during Drowned World. I was one of the lucky fans to be front row during this amazing show, and I'm still so fucking excited about it!

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Madonna in Hannover

I just got back from my first of 4 Confession shows in Hannover, Germany, and I can only describe the show as UNBELIEVABLE. I thought nothing could ever top Re-Invention, but boy did she top it! From the moment the giant discoball opened and revealed our Queen, it was a non stop rush and I just couldn't stop dancing!
After waiting for 24 hours in line, my friend Annelies and I made a mad dash inside the AWD Arena (which is, by the way, a gigantic stadium) and made it to front row at the corner of the central catwalk and the center stage. A great place to see the show, since the end of the catwalk prevents you from seeing the main stage, as it is much higher than it was during the North American leg of the tour. From our position, we were able to see everything very clearly.
Madonna almost fell during Jump, so we were a little worried this might affect her mood that night, but fortunately it didn't. She was in great spirit all night long, and quite talkative. She said 'Mijne Dames und Herren, thank you for coming to our show' before Jump, and asked us to say 'Fuck you' and 'Fuck George Bush' between Let it Will Be and Drowned World.
After the fantastic La Isla Bonita (during which Cloud smiled at me, he's gorgeous!!!), she told us to shake things up, after which the breathtaking final of Lucky Star and Hung Up started. During Hung Up, I was able to catch a balloon, so imagine my happiness!
All in all, it was a fantastic show, and I can't wait for Paris and Amsterdam (both shows!)
 
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