Friday, March 31, 2006


Yesterday, fabulous Madonna fansite Drowned Madonna stated the 2006 world tour will be officially announced this Monday, at 9 EST. After all the rumours floating around the internet, of ourse this news needs to be taken with a bit of salt, but I have to say it does sound promising. I guess I'll be spending the entire day behind my computer desperately searching ICON and the fansites. Can't wait, seems as if this tour is finally coming about, which is bound to make this a fantastic summer to come!

Also, Drowned Madonna has published a provisional setlist, with some fantastic surprises: Live to Tell, Lucky Star, Like a Virgin, Ray of Light, Downed World and Paradise (Not For Me), along with loads of fabulous songs from her latest chart topping album Confessions on a Dance Floor, and of course crowd favourites like Music. The show will start off with Future Lovers, which will merse into Donna Summer's I Feel Love, followed by Get Together. The shows ending will be Music, Everybody, Lucky Star and Hung Up. Wow, what an incredible show this promises to be, I simply can't wait to get hold of my tickets, hopefully for as many shows as I can finanial manage!

That's it for today, everyone have a great weekend!

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Weight watcher

As od today, I decided I need to count calories so that I won't get fat. Getting fat and getting bald are my worst nightmares, and getting bald is something you can't really stop (not that I'm having this problem, I blessed with a father who isn't getting bald even in his sixties) so I decided to take on the other possible problem. The thing is, I think it's very fashionable to take weight seriously, so I guess I'm getting a bit anorexic just for the fun of it. Also, it's a nice subject on parties and drinks, and espcially during dinners or lunches!

So, even though 'm drinking liters of ice-tea for ages, from now on I do that to loose weight, since Lipton is low-cal. I wonder how long I can keep this charade going, but it's a nice change of habits. Truth is, I have absolutely no chance of getting fat, for whatever I eat or drink, nothing happens. As a gay guy though, you need to worry about these things, so I just comply with the stereotype. On the other hand, as a gay guy you're obligated to work out as well, and I so definitely won't do that.... what does that make me? A lousy homosexual I suppose.

Enough rambling about nothing, I don't get the hang of it today haha!

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Hung over on you

And so this is Wednesday and it's gonna be a loooooong day! I have to write a budget proposal for my manager, which is cool, but tricky, since I've never done that before. I guess it will take up the greater part of this day, but maybe that's a good thing, cause it will make time go by a bit faster hopefully.

Furthermore, I'm seeing P. tonight for drinks at my place, and looking forward to it! I cleaned my house a bity already yesterday, so there's not much work to do anymore tonight, except for buying the beer. I suppose I should just try and get him totally drunk and see what happens hahaha.

So yesterday Leendert was at my place for drinks, and we had a good time, except I got a little too drunk and had enormous difficulties getting out of bed this morning. For some strange reason I did manage to make it in time to work, but I gotta tell you: it wasn't easy! Now that I'm here, I'm hoping for tour dates big time, but not really counting on them anymore. Oh well, we'll see!

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

I'm (not) going to tell you a secret

You wouldn't even believe what I did last night.... so I'm not gonna tell you. Let's just say I had a very good hehe. Maybe some juicy facts will be released later on, but not just yet!

In the meantime, no Madonna tour dates have been announced yesterday, so I went home being pretty pissed off. I guess this was our (our meaning ICONers) own fault, since we kinda talked ourselves into the 'fact' that yesterday would ben dates announcement day, only because a couple of local newspapers published this. So much for reliability of News of the World, as if we even needed to doubt that.

Anyway, I guess the announcement could be any day now, so I'll just continue to log on to both ICON and 24/7, cause I don't want to miss this!

Well, my boss called in sick today, so I'm looking forward to a busy day! Cheers!

Monday, March 27, 2006

Bring it on

The most amazing thing happened this past weekend: I did not go out, not on friday, and not on saturday. On staurday evening I was planning to go to a party and then on to a club, but never made it out of my house. This is most unusual for me, since normally I can't even think of not going clubbing on weekends, but I just couldn't be bothered this time. Instead, I stayed at home and watched movies, which was actually a very pleasant (albeit a bit boring some might say) way to spend the evening.

Of course, I did do some things this weekend: on Saturday I went shopping and on Sunday I went swimming and had a drink with my Madonna partner in crime Annelies. We're all psyched up because of the supposed tour dates announcement which is rumoured to take place today. It's Monday for a while now here in Holland, but I guess we'll have to wait till it's daytime in Los Angeles. Grrr I can't wait any longer, I want those darm tour dates now! As soon as they're official, I'll post them here as well for your enjoyment. I sure as hell hope it's not going to be like last week, when we all thought the announcement would be made, but nothing happened. Oh well, just wait and see. Time goes by so slowly for those who wait....

What I do know, is that when they are announced, Annelies and I need to go and have a drink tonight, while watching a Madonna dvd. There's always a reason for a celebration, isn't there?

Then something else happened this weekend: M, a guy you may remember from a couple of months ago, texted me out of the blue to ask me how I'm doing. I totally didn't expect this, cause it wasn't exactly as if we parted as the best of friends. Anyway, I texted him back, and last night he even called me up, so we chatted for some time and now it seems we're gonna go for drinks sometime in the near future. Looking forward to that, cause I kinda like this guy.

Well, time to close off, and back to work!

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Being called off

So last night was supposed to be my date with G. but unfortunately he called me off so I went to a drink at my former fraternity, which was nice. I decided to go home for a while and then come back afterwards, but never really made it. So I just stayed on the couch watching my Madonna Re-Invention bootleg dvd and enjoyed myself big time with it.

I have to say I wasn't even that dissappointed being called off. After a week of hard work I was really tired and not really into it anyway, so this going to bed early thing really paid off and now I'm all happy and cheerfull!

Today I'm going shopping and tonight we're having a party, after which I'll go clubbing. The usual way to spend a Saturday for me, as my faithfull readers may all be aware of.

Anyway, time to hit the shower! Cheers!

Friday, March 24, 2006

Jump start

After I got off tired from work yesterday, me and my co-worker Ziena went for drinks in a great bar called Grote Griet, situated on the central square of Groningen. The good thing about this place is that you can get half a liter of beer for as little as 1.50 Euro, which is peanuts compared to prices in other pubs in Groningen, or basically Holland as a whole. Needless to say, this is always a crowded bar, which adds up to the fun.

After we had three of those units, we felt kinda peckish, so we went to an Italian restaurant to get some dinner, and after that we had one more beer. All in all, it was a great evening with lots of fun! Just what I needed after that long day.

Today is definitely not going to be a long day, since I'm leaving the office at 4-ish so I get a great jump start to the weekend. As you may recall, I'm having a date kinda thing with G. tonight, but I'm not nervous at all. In fact, I don't really know what to think of it. I guess I've been dating around a bit too much lately to actually let it get to me, so we'll just see what happens.

Fact is, I need to do loads of fun things this weekend, because chances are really big that the ticket sale for Madonna's concerts in the Amsterdam ArenA, on september 3 and 4, will go on sale on Saturday april 1st, meaning I'll have to spend a night in front of the ticket outlet, to make sure I actually get tickets. I did this for the Re-Invention World Tour 2004 as well, but that was in May, so a lot les cold than it is now. I need at least two sleeping bags in order not to freeze to death, but as soon as I have my tickets, it will all be so totally worth it!

The fun thing this time 'round is, that a lot of my friends that are usually not into Madona, are joining me for this tour. You know, usually it's just me and Annelies, but this year it turns into a group thing, and I just love showing other people how fabulous Madonna is. As I am absolutely certain She (mind the cap!) will not dissapoint me, I may even breed a new generation of fans here haha!

Have a great weekend everyone!

Thursday, March 23, 2006


So it's only 40 minutes left and my working day is over. I'm tired, but not in a bad mood. After work, I'm going for drinks with my co-worker Ziena, since we wanted to go and have a beer all afternoon but obviously couldn't leave since we had to be at work.

Tomorrow I get off as early as 4 PM, so I get a bit of a jump start to the weekend! Looking totally forward to that. Friday night will be my sorta kinda date with G. and then saturday night I'm having a party. Well, not throwing it, but attending it, which is a lot better since they only thing I need to do is show up, drink beer and have fun.

So, I'm just going to spend another half hour at work, and then I'll make a mad dash for the pub! Have a good evening everyone!

Record breaking

Yesterday was a record breaking day what it came to pageviews so let's break it again today! Only problem is I need to have something interesting to write in order to get people to visit my site, and it's not exactly as if I had a mind-fuck of a day. Basically, I went for just a couple of drinks (the operative word being 'just' yeah right!) with a couple of friends, and then went home and watched a DVD: The World is Not Enough, one of the more recent James Bond flicks. Doesn't make any interesting reading now does it?

Oh the bright side, rumours about Madonna's alleged stop in Holland for her 2006 world tour are growing bigger and bigger. Yesterday, Dutch radio station Veronica confirmed a show in the Amsterdam ArenA on september 3, which sounds plausible, seeing that ept. 3 and 4 have been flying around all over the web for some time now. I hve to admit I don't really like the ArenA, after seeing U2 there lastyear on their Vertigo Tour, but I guess everything's better than that dreadful Gelredome Stadium wheer I saw Re-Invention two years ago. Besides, I'm going to Paris as well, and the Palais D' Omnisports de Bercy Paris is one of the ebst venues I've ever been, so I'll get my fair share of this show.

Anyway, time to get some work done, I'll post again later today!


Wednesday, March 22, 2006

The things we do

As I expected yesterday, I'm feeling a lot better now! Had a great evening last night having drinks with my friend Sjeed and then went home for a good night sleep. Now I'm back at work and feeling all happy and cheerfull, for no particular reason other than the fact that today I get off at 5-ish again, which i so much better than 6 PM. That one little hour can make a whole lot of difference!

In addition, last night some newspaper from Montreal published a story stating that the Madonna 2006 tour dates will finally be officialy announced this coming Monday, so now I'm just anxiously waiting and making sure I don't use my credit card for anything other this month, so that I can keep my credit limit safe for tickets! It's a fun, but stressful time, cause getting Madonna tickets is always a bit of a hassle, as so many people want them at the same time. Last time, during the Re-Invention World Tour 2004, I got my tickets for Paris through some fucking scalper, charging me double face value for lousy tickets (thank God all this was cleared up at the venue, so that we were still front row), and got my Anhem tickets by spending a night in front of the ticket office. It was a fun night, but awfully cold, and that was May. Now, the tickets for this year's tour will go on sale in April, so I guess it's gonna be a hell of a lot colder. The things we do....

So, before I close off, I just need to mention I'm having a date next Friday with my co-worker. Well, I don't know if you can actually call it a date, but it sounds nice, doesn't it?

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Please release me from my life

Ok so this is my third post today, making this a new high (or low, depending on you point of view) in my blogging history. The thing is, I'm so totally not into working today anymore. I've done loads of things today, and now it's 5 PM and I'm supposed to go home now, but instead I have to stay here for yet another hour, and I'm just feeling a bit empry from working. I'm seeing loads of co-workers grabbing their belongings and going home, and I'm just so fucking jealous...

I know I know, I'm being dramatic to the bone, but it's just that I'm tired and don't want to be here anymore. Later today I'm going over to my friend Sjeed for drinks, so at least I've got soemthing to look forward to.

Maybe I started of on the wrong foot this morning. I was dreaming for some reason that it was friday, so imagine my dissapointment to waking up on a thuesday. So I decided to just get a lot of work done to make the day pass by a bit more quickly, but it didn't really work, so now I've got the feeling I've been stuck in the office for ages. Oh well, tomorrow's a new day, and thankfully I'll get off at 5-ish again tomorrow, so I shouldn't be complaining so much.

Did anyone notice by the way how I like to use the phrase 'ish' since a couple of days? I'm reading the book Glmorama by the writer of American Psycho currently, and besides for being a great read, it also uses this 'ish'-phrase all the time, which for some reason I think is uber-hip-ish. Always aiming to be a faithfull copycat, I'm trying to use it as many times as possible. How pathetic can a guy get haha.

Oh, and then another thing, soemthing a bit silly: this guy I made out with while I was in London (faithfull readers will remember this) got his 1000th pageview today, and promised to give sexual favours to the person who was that exact 1000th visitor. As you may have guessed, that was me, which is a bit embarassing cause as it happens only today I found he has this pageview-tracker on his site (just like I do), so he can easily tell the visitor was me (except when he knows more people from Groningen,the Netherlands, which I highly doubt) so I'm wondering wether or not I will receive those favours haha! Guess not...

Enough ranting for one day. Hope all of you had a better day than I did, and I promise to be posting something a lot more cheerfull tomorrow!

Good going, stranger

Today I'm having someone using Wanadoo (a Dutch internet service provider) visiting my website about 4 times an hour. Although I'm very flattered by this interest. I'm curious to know why someone visits me so much? At least, if it's the same person all the time, cause obviously there are loads of people in Holland (and elsewhere) using Wanadoo.

Don't be firgtened now if you are that person, although I'm sure it's possible in some way, I dont have a clue, nor interest, in tracking you down, so the only thing I know is the provider, but I have to admit I'm curious why someone would visit my site that much. Maybe a secret admirer hehe.

Anyway, if you're reading this, which I'm sure you are, please leave me a message (anonymous, if you insist).

Scary night

Fuck it, all of Monday has passed and no tour dates were announced. I guess we kinda talked ourselves into it on the ICON message boards, and now we're all so dissapointed they're not announced yet. Word has it it will be sometime this week or next week, but I refuse to believe any rumours now and will just wait for the official dates to be released.

Furthermore, I gave G. a call yesterday asking him if he wanted to go for a drink, but unfortunately he was busy studying, so I ended up doing something I actually feel a bit embarassed for:

I watched Scary Movie...

Oh my God, this has to be without a doubt the dumpest, most useless and worst flick ever made. I can't believe I actually watched it until the end, but I have to admit I did. Sometimes it's good to watch something just to be annoyed by it I guess. Anyway, I ordered some Chinese (food that is, not a male prostitute) and drank a nice cold beer, so in the end it wasn't such a bad evening, but still, I urge each and everyone of you to not ever ever ever go and see this sad excuse for a movie.

Well, don't have any more news today, maybe I'll post again later this afternoon, pending on wether or not I'm seeing G. again (I don't think he's at work yet, maybe he's having a day off?).


Monday, March 20, 2006

An intimate evening

Last night I went to this fantastic concert by singer/songwriter Heather Nova in de concert hall called Oosterpoort here in my hometown Groningen. Even though I only have one album of her, I have to say I was totally blown away by the show. Heather was joined on stage (as the show was called 'An Intimate Evening) by a violin player and a pianist, and proved, in true Tori Amos fashion, that you don't need to have a drummer on board to deliver a beautiful performance. So thanks Remco, for this great evening!

So what else did I do this weekend? Friday night Hanneke and Thijs came over for some drinks, which was nice. Saturday afternoon we had our traditional weekend drink with a bunch of friends, and saturday evening I had a birthday party. The fun thing was, my friend Jules aske if he could come to Groningen and go out. I hadn't seen him for about a year so I was thrilled by this. He picked me up at the birthday party at 12-ish (since he had to drive over all the way from Tilburg, which is in the south of the Netherlands, while I live in the north) after which we went to my house to drop off the car, and then went clubbing.

The thing is, when I'm going out with Jules, I usually don't drink beer, but crazy mixtures like whiskey-coke and stuff like that, so needless to say I was totally pissed in half an hour haha. The good thing was, I ran into a co-worker who I never talk to at work, and we ended up making out the better part of the evening. I sorta had a weirdish pick-up line, elaborating over the fact that we always ignore each other at the office. With such a line, things can go either way, but they ended up going in the right direction hehehe.

So yesterday afternoon I went swimming, and fell asleep on my couch, thinking it would turn out to be a completely wasted sunday, but fortunately the Heather Nova concert made it all up! Now it's time to get some work done, and wait impatiently for the Madonna 2006 tour dates that are rumoured to be announced today officially!

Friday, March 17, 2006

Have a nice gay

By the time I went to bed last night, I felt so awfully good about myself for not letting X. spent the night and basically calling off the entire date. Here's the deal: I could have had sex big time last night, all night, but didn't. X. is a very very very goodlooking fellow, but I simply don't want to have sex just for the sex anymore. Instead, I'm still on my never ending quest for a decent boyfriend, who I'm sure is on that very same lookout for me. Having one night stands in between, would only get in the way, so I decided to go live practically like a nun. Of course, knowing me this could all change even over the next weekend, but as of yet I'm feeling pretty good about myself.

Still, all this got me thinking about a very present border between two types of gay guys: there are those who are looking for a rlationship, like me (I'd like to call them the straight gays) and thee are those who are only interested in with whom they're going to shag up that night. I mean, you only have to take one quick peeps in a random gay bar to pick them out right away. They're the ones scanning the room in search of fresh meat, and if they aren't just a bit cute, they're also the ones still in the bar when the lights go up, deperately attempting to grab hold of somone, anyone.

I have to say that I cannot wash my hands in innocense in this matter, but overal I've been a very good boy compared to many many other gay guys. I mean, even some of my best friends are giant slutbags compared to yours truly. I've had my fair share of one night stands, but in the end it's not that bad. Besides, as I've decided some time ago to not live like that anymore, I think I'm doing pretty well.

So, my nice, faithful, fantastic loving caring always-want-to-be-with-you boyfriend to-be, where are you?

Thursday, March 16, 2006


Incredible how fast this week is passing by. It's already thursday and I still got the feeling the weekend is just over. I've been doing nothing but fun things this week (well, obviously I had to go to work as well, but aside from that). Mondaynight I went to see Brokeback Mountain, thuesday my new Confessions on a Dance Floor t-shirt arrived so Annelies and I had to celebrate with wine and Madonna DVDs and yesterday I went for a drink with some friends.

Aside from that, rumour has it the Confessions World Tour dates will be officialy announced next monday, with on on-sale dat of march 25. I hope these dates are true, cause I really really really need my tickets and dance around with them. Haha, I'm so pathetic! Until then, I'm parading around in my new Confessions shirt and feeling quite the man.

Today's going to be a long day at work. 4 days a week I get off at 5 PM, but on thursday it's 6 PM for me. It doesn't matter though, cause I'm planning on doing nothing tonight, except hanging around on my couch, so it's no problem, maybe even a blessing, if I come home awfully tired.

Anyway, time to get some work done. I hope you all have a great day!

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

As if...

I guess I'll never really understand this dating stuff... Yesterday I told X. I didn't want him to stay over at my place after our date next thursday, because I didn't really felt it being appropriate for him to spend the night with me on the same night we effectively meet for the first time. I didn't think this was such a weird suggestion, cause I'm sick of having one night stands, and really just want to get to know someone before I sleep with him.

Well, think again! After I mentioned this, suddenly the date was off and his phone was switched off. I left him a message on his voice mail telling him what I thought about this (i.e. pathetic) but haven't heard from him. I guess this was supposed to be his long awaited sex date after all, so I'm very glad I told him this.

This of course leaves me to the question: why do people do this? Was he planning on staying one night and then disappearing on me? I don't know, I guess I'm not very cut out for dating, since dates seem to blow up in my face all the time. I used to think that I just wasn't such a good dater, but the events of yesterday lead me to believe that maybe this has nothing to do with me, but all the more with the fact that this sex-obsessed world just isn't my thing. I mean, I know I talk about sex all the time, but as I wrote before, I just don't think it's that much of a deal to just go and get it on with someone you don't even know. Obviously, as I discover more and more, this is not a very common thought in gay-land, so I guess this leaves me out on many guys that I could actually like, if it weren't that they're only interested in fucking around.

To tell you the truth, all this cannot even make me sad anymore. I guess I just exepted the fact as it is, and I refuse to let it bother me. Instead, my resolution for 2006 is to find nice suitable boyfriend. There must be someone out there right?

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Thoughts on Brokeback Mountain

Still feeling impressed over Brokeback Mountain, I went to bed yesterday and just kept thinking about this movie. I know how this sounds really stereotypish, you know, being a gay guy and all, but I couldn't really help myself. I'm so totally not an activist, unlike some of my friends, but sometimes it just sort of gets to you when you see that there still is basically no acceptance in large parts of the world, and basically in large parts in our own so civilised Western society.

I've never really had any violent experience over being gay, but I do get threatened once every while out on the street. It never really goes any further than name-calling, but still, I wouldn't even think of walking hand in hand with my at present non-excisting boyfriend. It used to be that in Amsterdam there wasn't a problem doing so, you know, being gay capital of Europe, but now people seem to get beaten up all the time and no-one really even looks up anymore.

I remember a couple of years ago, when I was still with R., we we're riding home after a party, and for some reason felt like it was totally ridiculous not to be able to walk hand in hand. I mean, basically I'm not bothering anyone, as long as you don't turn it in to some vulgar street seen. But let's face it, when two heterosexuals are making out like monkeys in public, I feel like puking just as well. I don't get bothered though with just some loving showings of affection. So why do (some) straight people get exactly that when it's two guys instead of what they consider the standard?

Sometimes I think it's just because they want to pick someone to trash or beat up, but maybe it goes a lot deeper than that. Maybe these people actually feel threatened by the fact that other people can be happy in a lifestyle that does not match theirs. Maybe they're afraid of theit own feelings and project that on others. Admittedly, this is not a concept I made up myself, but I do believe there could be some truth in it. After all, I've got a bunch of male (straight) friends, who don't seem to have a problem with me being gay at all. And why should they, they know I don't have any feelings for them above friendship, so they have no need to feel threatened by it. I think it can be very different if you don't have any gay friends at all, leading you to have a distorted view on the concept, which can easily lead up to conflict.

Thoughts, anyone?

Monday, March 13, 2006

Land of the free

Just got back from the cinema watching Brokeback Mountain, in which I probably was the very last gay guy on the planet doing so. I have to say, I'm totally blown away by this picture, and not even so much by the story itself. As I was walking home, I was thinking to myself that things like this actually still hapoen in the good old US of A.

I don't know if you've all actually seen the movie, but in short, it's about two cowboys living in the state of Wyoming. They look after sheep at a place called Brokeback Mountain and develop a love relationship for each other. Of course, in a Bible Bilt state like Wyoming, this is an absolute no-no, so they have to hide their love from the world, and both of them get married and have children, and try to make a respectable life for themselves. As you may have guessed, all this doesn't work out, and the two guys keep seeing each other in absolute secrecy, under the alibi of fishing trips. At the end of the movie, one of the guys get murdered for being gay, but his death is proclaimed as a car accident.

Now, doesn't all this sound all too familiar? Isn't Wyoming that very state where Matthew Shepard was killed a couple of years ago for being gay? I can remember this wasn't even considered a hate crime, even though the suspects downright admitted to having him killed because of his sexuality. It scares me to know that in a country like the United States, where supposedly there is free speech, and a choice in how you want to live, these things still happen on quite a regular basis. A movie like this sort of keeps the discussion alive, and I can only applaud that, but still, it made me a bit sad this evening...

Time flies

Four days to go, and counting... Me and X are finally going on a date come thursday, marking the first time we'll actually meet in the flesh. I'm pretty excited about all this, cause I've been pushing for this date for some time now, and now that I finally managed to pull this off, I'm even a bit nervous. You know, talking on the phone and e-mailing each other is one thing, but actually meeting and needing to avoid ackward silences is quite another. In addition to that, there's no need for having fabulous hair when you're on the phone, but there is definitely while on a date.

So, I still have four days to become gorgeous, which is not sufficient time to say the least, but we'll see what we can do. I did get a new haircut not so very long ago, so that's not a big issue. Well actually, my hair's always an issue, but at least it could be worse right now. Furthermore, I was told this weekend that I seem to have wonderful eyes, so that's something to focus on I suppose. Ah well, maybe I shouldn't be such a cunt and just go with it...

I forgot to mention, by the way, I think it's fucked up the weekend went by so damn quick... It seems like it was friday afternoon only yesterday, and I skipped the entire weekend. Time flies when you're having fun, so it seems. I went for drinks with friends on both friday and saturday afternoon. Then saturday evening a friend of mine came over for some wine, after which we went clubbing. Yesterday I visited my parents and watched Mona Lisa Smile, starring Julia Roberts. As I mentioned before, I think Julie is a horrible actress, but I quite like the storyline of this particular movie, so I enjoyed myself nonetheless.

Now I'm back at working, but I do have something to look forward to. I'm going to be the last gay guy on the planet to go see Brokeback Mountain. Tonight at 8.30 PM, Anneke and I are finally going to see it. I'm curious what all the fuss was about. To me it seems a bit of a hype created by Scripture-thumping idiot's from the American Bible Belt. The funny thing is they probably didn't realise that all of their protesting has done the movie more good than harm, since it really caused a publicity boost all the way to the Academy Awards (better known as the Oscars). Even though Brokeback Mountain didn't win Best Movie, (Crash did, which i a very good choice I might ad), it did win a couple of other Oscars. Anyway, I'll be the judge tonight.

Friday, March 10, 2006

Version 2.0

I just checked my webstats and luckily enough no-one has read my site between 1 AM last night and 7 AM this morning. After a great party last night (including a female stripper, and I actually liked it, imagine that!), I felt like posting, which led to a completely deranged story called 'Am I insane', rambling about on all things love, relationships and so on. Thankfully, this will not live on in history, as I had the chance to delete it this morning before anyone even saw it. Of course, this was only after I read my own fucked up writings myself...

Anyway, as I said, it was a nice party last night, brought to us by my former fraternity (that's not really the way to call it in Holland, but I can't think of a more suitable name). It was a shame I had to get up early this morning to go to work, cause I sure enough would have like to stay longer. Free booze and that infamous stripper always make my day (or night). She even took some people up on stage with her, and I thank God from the bottom of my heart she didn't pick me haha. What to do when there's a naked girl lapdancing on top of you? Uhm... become gay straight away? Too late for me haha!

So as it happens, this week turned by pretty fast, which obviously has to do with the fact that I've been ill most of the week, and now it's almost weekend just like that. No clue yet on what I'm gonna do this weekend, but I'm sure I'm gonna have fun!

I hope all of you lot have a great weekend as well, Cheers!

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Rock the vote

I'm very sorry for not posting for a couple of days. The thing is, I've been ill, as I've posted before, and it got a bit worse leaving me with basically nothing except lying on my couch or in bed. Thankfully, I'm feeling a lot better right now so I'm back at work and ready to start posting on a regular basis again. I can only hope my regular fanbase (all two of them) haven't forgotten about me and will still delight their lives with my stories (puke!).

So anyway, what have I been up to. As some of you might know I had a job interview on thuesday, which I no doubt screwed up big time because of me being ill. Yesterday I spent home most of the day, except I went out to dinner with some friends to a rather posh mexican restaurant, which was, if you ask me, totaly overpriced. Still, it was a fun evening and a good test to see if I was up to leaving the house already. As it turned out, I was up to it, so that's why I'm back in the sadle at work now.

Another thing I, as well as 57 percent of the inhabitants of Groningen did, was vote for the local politicians that are going to rule our city for the next four years. For those in the know (that would be the Dutch readers, and the Groningers in particular: I voted the Stadspartij. I'm not really fond of local parties, but I did this thing called Stemwijzer where you have to fill out a form and then yóu get to see which party comes closest to your answers. I totaly rely on this system, since I'm not really into reading all the different programs. Anyway, Stemwijzer told me to vote Stadspartij which I did without a oubt. They only got two places in the board, but I guess that's pretty good for a local party, seeing that the other well known one here in Groningen, called Student en Stad, only made one, actually losing a place since the last elections.

I have to admit I don't really care too much for elections, but I do feel strongly about voting, as it is my firm believe that a person doesn't have the right to complain about (local or national) government when that peron didn't even take the very simple opportunity to make that little vote. After all, all it takes is to push one button, so it's like two minutes and you're done for the next 4 years. So for everyone who didn't vote: boo!

Well, back to work for me. Make sure to keep checking back, since I will update daily again from now on (sometimes, in the event of total boredomness, even several times a day).


Monday, March 06, 2006

Feeling fucked-up

As I already wrote down here yesterday, I'm having a terrible cold at the moment, that looks like it might turn into an all-out flu. Needless to say, this couldn't have happened at a less convenient time, since I'm having a job interview tomorrow and I look like total shit. I'm thinking about calling in sick today and leaving work early, so that I can spend the rest of the day in bed, but I'm not sure yet. It probably is the best thing today, since I can't stop sneezing and my head aches like hell, and I'm probably spreading germs all over my co-workers, causing them all to call in sick somewhere this upcoming week. On the other hand, it might come off strange to leave work early today and then have a job interview tomorrow. That being said, it's pretty obvious (you just have to look at me) that I'm ill, so I might as well just leave.

Decisions decisions... One thing's for sure: I have to eat loads of fruit and vegetables tonight, even though I despise fruit. Kiwi's are said to be healthy as hell, but I really have to force 'em through my throat. Still, maybe that's a small price to pay to start feeling well soon.

Anyway, I'll continue feeling sorry for myself and wish you all a good day.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Cold war

So yesterday I was really looking forward to going out, but didn't, now that I'm coming down with this fucked up cold, effectively keeping me to my bed all night, and not in a good way. I've got this annoying headache and I can't stop sneezing all day, but today I have to leave my house to go to my sister's birthday. I hope I can keep up today.

I guess after her nirthday party, I'm going to hitch a ride with my parents and go visit their place, so that they can take care of poor ill me. Eat your vegetables, as they say!

For everyone who's not feeling sick, but just as well for those who do: have a nice day!

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Saturday morning

Yesterday evening could only be described as party night, which was well deserved after this long week of working. I went to Dirk's place, who through a birthday bash and enjoyed myself big time. Best thing is: there's not a hangover in sight, so I've just spend a quiet saturday morning on my couch, watching the Top 40 on television and generally doing nothing.

All that's about to change in just an hour, cause I'm having lunch with one of my co-workers, and then I have to go shopping for a birthday gift for my sister. I'm going to buy her baby clothes for my little nephew, since I don't know anything else to buy her. Since he grows like hell, new clothes are always welcome I suppose.

Besides this, I don't think I have any smashing news today, so it's back to my couch for me.

Have a good saturday!

Friday, March 03, 2006

Looking forward

As some of you may probably know already, I've been on the lookout for a new job for a couple of weeks now. It's not as if my current job isn't good enough anymore, but you know, I've been working here for over 5 years now, so I guess it's time to spread my wings and find something new. Little did I know I didn't have to look very far for something new, since I got a call a couple of weeks ago from a headhunting agency, offering me an interview at another office in the same branch I'm working in now.

After that, there was a bit of silence for two weeks or something like that, and then last wednesday suddenly they called me to ask me if I could go for an interview on march 14th. Obviously, I said yes, cause this sound like a promising job, as Teamleader for a company I cannot name here. Today, they called me again. It seems things have speeded up and I don't even have to go for the first interview with Human Resource Management, but can go straight up to the manager next week! Now that's something I like!

Obviously, I really want to go to this interview, so I just asked for the afternoon off on thuesday, since that would appear to be the most convenient time to get interviewed. I'll get word this afternoon if it's okay to leave early on thuesday, so that I can call the agency to say that I can make it.

Needless to say, immediately I started getting nervous. For some strange reason I can really psych myself up in the days leading up to an event like this, and then stay relatively calm during the actual interview. Right now I'm thinking about a thousand things I should do beforehand, like get my suit to the drycleaner, spelling out the company's website from A to Z and practicing the conversation itself. It's a very good thing it's weekend, and weekend has just become an even more festive time!

Awkward moments

Right, so I decided I need to work on my phone skills (can you believe that?!). Yesterday evening, after my very fun dinner with the temps from work, I promised X. I would give him a call. Maybe that wasn't such a good idea, because though I enjoy hearing his voice very much, I'm just a lousy person on the telephone when it comes to people I might be interested in. If only, I always choose that wonderfull service called texting, so that you can become quite intimate, without the hessel of painfull silences.

So anyway, I did call him, and managed to keep the conversation going for about five minutes. I then told X. I had to go to sleep, which was basically true, since I was already in bed, but still it came off like some sort of lame excuse. The problem with this excuse was, that I felt like texting him as usual, but couldn't, since I had to go to sleep. Who said gay guys aren't emotional fuck-withs?

Later that night I was thinking about how stupid it is to work where I work, and not liking to cal people. So I decided that next time he calls me or I call him, I'm making a list of things that are nice to talk about, to avoid the awkward moments. I realise perfectly well this sounds pretty pathetic, but I don't seem to have a choice. Good thing is I'm having a party tonight from Dirk, who turned 27 this week. Have a good weekend everyone!

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Short and sweet

Well well, just spend another evening, and this morning as well for that matter, texting to the as of yet undisclosed person. Let's just call him X, for convenience sake. X seems to be a pretty nice guy, and we've been on the phone and texting for some time now, so I guess it's pretty much time to go on a date or something. He just asked me what would be my perfect date, so I answered it would involve dinner and a movie, and not staying over for the first night. He seemed to like that, so who knows what might happen!

Anyway, this post is going to be short and sweet, cause I've got to go back to work. Have a good day, and I promise there's going to be a longer post tomorrow, so be sure to check back then!

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Go with the flow

Don't you just love it when someone is texting you all evening and calls you on top of that, while you're already sleeping just a bit? Well, I do, at least as long as it's a nice person, and just that is what happened yesterday night. I was having a drink with some friends and the texting started (well actually it started of just a bit while I was still at work, but that doesn't count) and it continued when I returned to my house, while I was watching TV, while I was getting ready to go to bed, and while I was actually in bed. In addition, the messages were getting better and better as the evening progressed, so I didn't mind just one bit and texted back being a good boy. The funny thing is, usually I'm expecting things of someone when I do such a thing, but now I don't. I mean, it would be nice if this was actually to turn into something, but I wouldn't be heartbroken if it didn't. That thing with M. is still fresh in my memory and I'm not exactly looking forward to a rerun of that, so I just go with it and enjoy what's going on. In fact, I think I'm going to sent him a text message right now, and see if he responds.

Funny though, not to expect anything of someone, seeing that it is so totally not me. Usually I turn completely neurotic as soon as I faintly have a suspician of liking someone, and start this sort of promotional tour for myself, to prove that other person that I'm completely right for him. It could very well be that I'm more in love with the thought of being in love, than I actually am with whatever person I am with at a certain time. It makes perfect sense, knowing the fact that I'm in love non stop, but not necesseraly with the same person all the time. So why not go with the flow one time and see how that goes. If he likes me, then fine and we'll see what happens. If he doesn't, and it's just an 'I'm so horny and I want to do you right now' thing, well, then fine too. Not to say that I'm actually giving in to that last options (I could be though, I've been a slutbag before), but it's a nice feeling to not really give a damn for a change. All options are open!

One final word on tis of course is that I do not want to be pinned down on what I just wrote, cause being the emotional fucked up rollercoaster that I am, everything could change even over the course of an hour, so if I get back to all of you tomorrow, with a completely different story, then I'm not accountable for any of my previous postings hehehe.

Have a good day, love to you all!
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