Monday, December 31, 2007

Reflections on 2007

So it's December 31st again, so, as a tradition, this is the moment for me to look back on this past year, and kinda decide on the good things and the bad things that have happened over these past 12 months. I always like doing this, so that a year later I can read it back, and sorta compare the stuff I wrote back then, with the current situation.

So, let's start with the good stuff. In January I started with my current job. I remember being a bit apprehensive... would I be doing alright? What if I downright sucked? Turns out: it's going really well. I like my job, I like my company, I like my co-workers! It's all great. Next week I'll be doing this for exactly a year, and I still like it as much, if not more, as I did one year ago.

The second most important thing I achieved in 2007, is quitting soking. On september 11th, I puffed away my very last cigarette. Since then, I haven't smoked again, not even one tiny puff. And to tell you the truth: I don't miss it, at all. I feel better, smell better, have a lot of spare money left. There's really just no advantages to smoking, so I'm really pleased, and really proud of myself for being able to quit. If I would have known it was this easy, I would have quit ages ago.

Of course, then there's the stuff you never really take the time to appreciate. I'm thinking of being healthy, having family and friends, living in a great city. You know, stuff you normally just take for granted, but really do deserve praise every now and then.

On the bad side: I still haven't been able to keep a relationship going. Earlier this year I sorta hooked up with E. again, except that hooking up isn't really the right word. We went out for three weeks and we kissed, but after that, it basically really ended between us. There are days when I just can't seem to cope wih it, and there are days when it's all just fine just the way it is. I guess it may take a while for it to really be okay, but I'm getting there.

As I cannot really come up with any more lows for this past year, I guess it's safe to say 2007 has been good to me. I sure hope 2008 will be even better!

Saturday, December 29, 2007

Getting better

For the first time in four days, thank God, I'm finally able to breathe through my nose again. Guess those multivitamins are paying off finally. I know I'm a bit of a whiner, but I get so annoyed when I catch a cold. Nothing's fun to do anymore, and it seems as if the weekend has no use at all, since all you are able to do, is stay in bed and feel sorry for yourself.

Well, none of that for me anymore. This afternoon I'm going shopping! Now that the Christmas insanity is behind us, I suppose it's finally possible to go downtown without being mobbed by thousands of people from out of town, flocking here to buy their Christmas presents. We're finally getting back to some degree of normality, whatever that means.

So, since my family doesn't do presents on Christmas (this may sound strange for foreign readers, but actually in the Netherlands it's only a custom since a couple of years, we've got ourselves a different celebration for giving, called Sinterklaas, on december 5), I've got loads of money left to spend, which is exactly what I'm planning on doing this afternoon!

When I'm done, tonight Leendert's coming over for a beer, which I'm sure will be a nice evening. It's good to know the weekend isn't completely ruined by my cold!

Friday, December 28, 2007

Please cure me

Since Christmas, I've been having a terrible cold, that seems to be getting worse. I've been sneezing like hell for three days now and I really really want it to stop. What makes matters worse is the fact my throat feels like a truck has run over it, so I try to talk as little as possible.

It's not as if I'm not trying to cure it. I bought myself multivitamins and fresh juice, but so far it doesn't seem to be helping that much. I sure hope I'll be back on track before New Years' Eve...

At least tonight there will be a great movie on telly: Love Actually. I've seen that one on New Years Daay 2004 at the cinema, so I guess it will be nice seeing it again! That, and the fact I ordered delicious Chinese takeaway, will hopefully give me some kind of Fridaynight feeling.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

The not so A-list

As Christmas dies out and New Year's Eve approaches, it's time for that very irrational way of looking back on the old year. I know that when it actually gets to December 31 everything will be different and I will look back on all the good things this year has given me, like my new job, and quiting smoking....

Right now I think I'm in this phase I'm in every year between Christmas and New Year, the phase where it feels as if I've acomplished nothing and just enter the new year as one big loser. Maybe it's true and maybe it isn't. I know not to take myself very seriously in this phase, so I don't.

It's a thing really, I know this from high school, it's what I do every year since I can remember. Don't listen to me, I get back to you with a new list, a GOOD list, with things actually acomplished!

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

So this is Christmas

Just got back home after two days at my parent's house, celebrating Christmas. I sure had a great time! Thuesday morning I arrived at around noon, so I was just in time for lunch, which actually meant stuffing myself with every sort of food there is. I guess that's the way Christmas is supposed to be, right? I sure know I'll be a lot heavier after these days, but I guess I can swim in off over the next couple of weeks.

Anyway, for dinner we went gourmetten (I'm sure there's an English word for this, but I don't know what it is...) which is like a family tradition. As usual, it was delicious and a lot of fun! After dinner, we watched some movies and played some games, so basically everything went the way a family holiday is supposed to go.

This morning I was still at my parent's house, so I took a really long bath. When I got out, my sister, her husband and their two children had already arrived. Again, a great day with lots of food and drinks.

All in all, I had a great Christmas! Can't wait for the next!

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Merry Christmas

A very Merry Christmas to everyone! I hope you all have a great celebration!

Monday, December 24, 2007

Spookingly quiet

It's weird going to work on the Monday squeezed in between the weekend and Christmas. When I left my house this morning, it was spookingly quiet in the streets, and the busy was almost empty as well. Then, when I arrived at work, there was practically no-one there as well. For a minute it left me pissed off, since I did make an effort dragging my ass over there. This feeling lasted only shortly, though, cause the good thing about being there with just a bunch of people, makes you kinda connected to each ther, which calls for a cozy day.

And a cozy day it was. Besides that, I did actually manage to get quite some work done. It's a good thing, too, because of course it's not a very good prospect to know that after Christmas, on Thursday and Friday, I would be extremely busy. As of yet I don't think the two days off will really affect the routine for the rest of the week.

So now I'm at home, with Sara coming over in a couple of hours. Tomorrow morning I'll leave for my parents in Leeuwarden, but tonight I'm just gonna stay in.

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Winter wonderland

It has been quite a busy weekend, exactly the way I like it. Friday after work I attented the goodbye function of a co-worker I've known for about 4 years. It was sad to see her go, but at least she ended it in style, with shitloads of wine!

Saturday I had to get up early, cause I was to visit my brother and his girlfriend, to see, for the first time, my new nephew. Travelling to Hilversum actually made me feel as if my relationship with Emiel had never ended. Just like in the old days, there were delays everywhere, so it too me over 4 hours to get there, instead of the two hours it's supposed to. Anyway, once I was there it was all forgotten, cause my nephew looked adorable.

After visiting them, I travelled along to Utrecht, to go and have drinks with my friend Arjen, which was a great way to spend the afternoon. Travelled back to Groningen (again, with delays, but not as horrible as it was the other way round) to spend the evening with Sara, which rounded up a great Saturday.

This morning I slept in, so now I'm just fucking about a bit. Because of the upcoming Christmas days, all the shops are open today, so I guess going shopping will be a nice way to end the weekend.

Tomorrow I have to go to work as usual, but then of course thuesday and wednesday will be Christmas Day and Boxing Day (allthough we call Boxing Day ' Second Christmas Day' in Holland) so it's gonna be an easy as pie week for me! Besides, it's cold outside, but at least there's a little bit of snow, so it's kind off a Winter Wonderland!

Thursday, December 20, 2007

My karaoke pictures


Remember how I wrote about doing karaoke at my office Cjristmas function last week? Well, here they are, the samefull evidence! Actually, I think the pictures are quite nice!

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Comfy on the couch

Because of the holidays coming up, everything needs to be done before a certain date this month. Well, actually, we've got this every month, the differnce is this month everything needs to be done a lot earlier. I kind of enjoy that, because it ensures me being busy all day long, which is always something I like.

Even better is, after work you get home kinda tired so nothing feels better than to lay on the couch or have friends over, especially when it's as cold as it is right now. So, having people over is exactly what I did. In about 5 minutes Leendert is gonna have a drink with me and do some catching up. It's a good way to end a quite hectic day!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

My own values

Because of an email I just received from one of my readers, I feel like setting the record straight. In these past few posts, where I was pretty pissed of on American politics, and, more in particular, the Christian Right, I might have given you the wrong idea. I do not, let me repeat that, do not hate Christians at all. I was raised a Christian myself, and as many of you may know, once raised that way, you never really lose it.

While I think it goes too far to say I'm a real believer, relegion is something that gets me thinking, which I think is one of the main goals of religion in the first place. While I may not have all the answers, it's good to take some time once in a while to think it all through, and sort of find your place in the universe. Each person needs to do this for themselves, and wether the outcome is God, Allah, JHWH or whichever entity you prefer, that's up to you.

This is exactly what brings me to the anger I expressed in these last posts. While I do not hate Christians, or Christianity an sich, I do hate the fact that may religious people (this doesn't just go for Christians, but for other believers as well, the point is these past posts have been about Christians so I'll stick to that subject) try to impose their believes upon the rest of the world. I want to be able to choose my values, my believes, and my way of thinking. I want to be able to express them, just like I think a Christian has the right to express his or hers values, believes, and way of thinking.

The difference is, I'm not trying to get someone else to think the same way, through brainwashing, or, worse, legislature. Just because I'm gay, that doesn't mean the whole world has to be, or even to be accepting. As long as it doesn't lead to any hate speech or hate crimes, I suppose a homophobe can do whatever he wants. Why then is it, that as soon as relegion mixes with politics, suddenly the entire population is pushed to take on the values and believes of that particular believe system?

The ironic thing is that in the United States the Christians got so much fuss about Muslims trying to impose their faith on others, while Christians in the United States are doing the exact same thing. Again, there's nothing wrong with believing in God or in Allah, but please keep the 'live and let live' idea in mind. I like to be able to make up my own mind.

Screw the Republicans

You would almost think I'm an American citizen, the amount of posts I'm using to write about the upcoming elections, but I guess it's just something I'm really interested in, so pardon me for doing so, but here's another one.

Today I'd like to talk a bit about Mike Huckabee, former Arkansas governor (as was Bill Clinton) Republican second tier (at this moment, but who knows what happens) hopefully for the White House. I suppose Kuckabee isn't as high profile outside of the United States as Clinton, Obama or Guliani, but I do think he's a force to be reckoned with. What seems to be the case? The entire Christian Right, lead by fuckers such as Don Wildmon and James Dobson is flocking together to support him as the Republican (what else when it comes to the Bible Belt) candidate.

There is something fundamentally wrong with this. Both American Family Association (AFA) and Focus on the Family (FotF) are tax exempt organisations. Now I may not be an expert on the subject, but as far as I know this status prevents them from taking on a political statement, let alone actually supporting a candidate. So how do they do it? Simple: Dobson only makes 'personal statements' that of course have nothing to do with his ministry, while AFA, through OneNewsNow, is very very selective when it comes to the news items they post. In order words: only news that's positive for Huckabee, or, even better, negative news about the other candidates or (God forbid) the Democrats.

Anyway, needless to say Huckabee is another homphobic, pro-life, conservative nutcase, but the scary thing of course is that those are exactly the kind of people who might have a chance of winning in the United States. For some reason the evangelists are a force to be reckoned with. Let's pray to God (how ironic is that) the Democrats will conquer, not just for the Americans, but for the entire world!

Models and mindfucks

To me, nothing's better than a good start to a new week. When a Monday goes disastrous, usually that' a sign it won't be much of a good week to come. Luckily enough, today everything went fine, so I guess it's gonna work out nicely the next couple of days.

At work, it was just a usual day, nothing really special. Sometimes it's good to have a usual day, sort of to get you going. That's exactly how I felt today, so I was glad nothing surprising or stressful happened, and I could just do my job.

After work, I went home for dinner, and then into the freezing cold (we're not really used to extreme weather in Holland) to Ziena's place. The finale of Holland's Next Top Model was on, so of course we needed to watch that. I'm glad to say that even though my favourite (Kassandra) didn't win, at least it wasn't that stupid bitch Carmen either. Really, how little brain cells can a person have?

Anyway, while watching the show, we were playing Trivial Pursuit as well, and I won big time, so of course I was in a good mood. Now I'm back home, so it's bed time for me. Sorry for not having anything really interesting to write, I'll make it up to you tomorrow!

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Christian Right are insane!

Does anyone of you know who Norman Podhoretz is? The answer will probably be 'no', even though Podhoretz is a pretty influential neo-con, being quite involved in several American administrations, perhaps most notably the Reagan admin. A couple of years ago, he got rewarded with some big medal, handed out to him by George W. Bush (how much of an honour can that be???), so it's safe to say he's kind of a big shot.

So why am I writing all this? Well, I just read an article about this guy, and to me it proved once again the Christian Right is insane. This guy wants to bomb Iran as soon as possible, thinks gay marriage is a farce and actually thinks Bush is a great president.... How fucked up is that? Have the Americans found out some fancy new brainwash technique or something?

These past couple of months, because of the upcoming elections, I've been reading quite a lot about the Republicans, especially the Bible Belt where the so-called Christian Right originates. These people are honoustly insane. I think it has something to do with inbreed in those incest states, but they seriously act as if they're retarded. Just listening to their stupid accent proves to me there is no place as bad to live as America. Land of the free? My ass! All they want to do is impose their religious believes on the rest of the population, and they don't give a fuck how they do it.

I've never been to the United States, so, granted, all I know is what I read or see on television, but I guess the ignorance a lot of Americans show in just 2 minute interviews, makes me fear the worst. I would really love to go to the States on holiday one time, but to live there? Never!

Trivial pursuit

Ziena's birthday has been great! I used up the enitre Saturday afternoon to go buy her a present, which I eventually did by getting her Trivial Pursuit, the board game with all the questions that make everyone look incredibly ignorant and therefor is so much fun! Anyay, I'm glad I got er the gae, cause obviously I really like playing it myself as well, so hopefully she'll indulge me tomorrow after swimming!

Got there at about 9, only to find out I was actually running a little late, since all the other guests were already there. I got to meet her boyfriend's parents, which was nice! The rest of the guest list stayed up until about 1 at night, so afterwards it was just Ziena, Harm Jan and I. We decided to go out for a drink and some clubbing. After surviving the Arctic feeling cold, we ended up in a place called Tramps, where we had a nice beer. After that, it was up to The Golden Arm (the local gay club) which was fun, albeit not very crowded.

Went home at about 3, so I felt pretty good today, and enjoyed a very nice afternoon at my parents. As usual, a great weekend!

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Happy birthday Ziena!

Happy birthday to my best friend in the whole world Ziena, who turns 25 today! I have to go birthday shopping, cause tonight we'll be celebrating the occasion!

Singing bee

Ysterday it was time for the annual Christmas function at work, and boy did I have fun! As usual there was karaoke, so of course I was deseperate to get uo on stage, but Ziena didn't want to. So, when a pop quiz came along, I pushed her on stage, so she hates my guts now haha. Actually, I think she already forgave me!

Anyway, Co-worker Ciska and I performed Wannabe, which is of course the collest Spice Girls song ever, and I think we were pretty much a hit, according to the way people in the audience were cheering. It was totally cool!

And speaking of karaoke, my office mate Harm Jan and both filled in the application form to be a contestant on Singing Bee, which is like Pop Idol but without the talent. All you have to do is know the words, you don't need to have a great singing voice! I really hope we'll get ourselves into the screentest!

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Same old, same old

The movie was great, uplifting, loveable... and now I'm in a terrible mood for not having a boyfriend. Fuck, I almost forgot how shitty it is to be alone in December, with all the holidays coming up. As I wrote before, Alles Is Liefde is like a Dutch version of Love Actually, and come to think of it, a couple of years ago, when that movie came out, it got me in a bad mood as well, for the same reasons.

It seems as if everyone has a boy- or girlfriend in December, except for me. And you know what the stupidest thing is? It's the same every fucking year. It doesn't matter how long whichever relationship lasts throughout the year, but it's sure enough to end right in time before the holiday season, ensuring I'll spend both Christmas days at my parents, and New Year's Eve with friends.

Of course, there's nothing wrong with celebrating the holidays like that, except I'm sick of watching them all kiss each other every year at twelve, while I'm just hovering about a bit. Damn, I really really really do need a boyfriend...

All is full of love

Yesterday evening indeed Ziena and I went swimming, which is always the time to talk (and espcially gossip) ourselves through the past day. There is some gossip going on at the moment, you wouldn't believe it, but unfortunately there's no way in hell I would be able to post it here, in case the people involved would read this. Anyway, it always makes for nice evenings.


After swimming, as usual, we went to Ziena's place to watch a movie. This time it was Bram Stoker's Dracula, mostly because of Ziena's obsession with Keanu Reeves. Well, actually I think he's pretty hot myself, but that's our little secret okay? Anyway, it's a nice movie, even though I've watched it like tons of times. At least one horror movie that doesn't scare the shit out of me!


Tonight I'm going to the cinema with Anneke, to watch the Dutch movie Alles is Liefde (it could be translated as 'All is full of love') . For people from outside of Holland who will probably never see this movie: think of it as a Dutch version of Love Actually and you sorta get it. I think it will be a nice evening, this movie has broken box office records here in Holland so it can't be all crap, right? Besides, of course it's nice spending the evening with Anneke, so of course we also go for a drink to catch up!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Planning ahead

In just two days the weekend kicks in already. Incredible how fast a week can go by when you're busy! This weekend has potential of being great! Friday I'm having a Christmas function at work, so I think it's going to be really nice rasising a glass with my co-workers on the year past and the one to come.

Saturday I'm going to Hilversum to get a first look of my new nephew! He was born last week, so it's about time I get to see him. While I'm in Hilversum, there's nothing wrong with doing a little shopping, so that's exactly what I'm planning to do! I've got a good reason too, since I have to go buy a birthday present for Ziena.

Which brings me to Saturday night, which I will be spending at Ziena's house celebrating her birthday with her friends, family and her boyfriend. Sunday I'm planning on going to Leeuwarden to visit my parents, so that will round up a nice weekend.

But let's not plan ahead too far, there's two days to go. In just half an hour Ziena and I are going swimming (you'd think I'd gone straight and Ziena's my girlfriend judging by my posts, but don't worry, that's not the case) and watch a movie afterwards, probably Bram Stoker's Dracula, starring Keanu Reeves and stealing bitch Winona Ryder haha.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

3 months, and counting

Can you believe this? It's actually been three months since I puffed away my last cigarette! Since then, I haven't even taken one drag, so I think it's safe to say I'm officially smoke-free. Even better: if it wasn't because of other people noticing, I wouldn't have even thought about it today, so this special moment would have past without notice.

During these past three months I definitely started feeling better, heathier. As you know I exercise quite a lot nowadays, and I sure enough can feel I get more breath and can be more active without feeling exhausted. You can notice the first differences almost immediately, but after a couple of months it actually feels as if you've never been an addict.

Not a day goes by without me being happy not to be a smoker anymore. For instance, as I'm writing this blog entry, it's raining outside. Imagine I'd run out of cigarettes just a minute ago. The former addict in me would have insisted going on a 15 minute walk to the gas station to buy a new package, no matter what fucked up weather it would be. In contrast, imagine me sitting all warm and cosy in my house, with a nice glass of ice tea, listening to the rain outside. Need I say more?

When you're reading this as a smoker, I can wholeheartedly recommend quiting. It may seem like an intolerable sacrifice, but really: it ain't that hard! You'll love yourself for it afterwards.

Monday, December 10, 2007

Tickets and parties

It has been a very active, and really great weekend! Friday night, after work, there was a party at my former student's club Cleopatra (because it exists for 22 years now). There were many people I hadn't seen in quite a while, including my ex-boyfriend R., with whom I had a beer. It was a nice party, albeit one withjust a little bit too much booze haha.

Saturday morning of course I had to get up early to buy my Kylie Minogue KYLIEX2008 Tour tickets at Ahoy Rotterdam, so when that paid off I was really thrilled. To celebrate I also bought myself the brand new double DVD White Diamond - ShowGirl Homecoming live in Melbourne (also by Kylie of course). Great set, and I really can't wait to go and see Kylie again! The last time was ShowGirl in Rotterdam, so it's about time!

After acquiring my tickets, I went out for lunch with Ziena and Harm Jan (Ziena's boyfriend). I'm a big sucker for going out for lunch, so of course this was a pleasant way to start off the afternoon. After lunch, I went shopping, so before I knew it it was about dinner time.

After dinner, my good friend Bo came over for a drink. He lives in Utrecht nowadays so it's always a pleasure seeing him again whenever he's in Groningen or I'm in Utrecht. We had a couple of drinks and then went to a birthday party. My friends Remco and David are celebrating their birthday together every year, and this year was no exception. Nice party, talked to loads of people, really enjoyed myself!

Sunday afternoon I went to Leeuwarden to go visit my parents. It was my mother's birthday last Friday, so we went to celebrate on Sunday. Besides my parents, also my sister, her husband, and their two children were present. Went back home after dinner and enjoyed a quiet evening doing nothing, which was a good thing after all the frenziness!

Saturday, December 08, 2007

I've got my tickets!

I'm just too thrilled! I've got my tickets (general admission, floor) for KYLIEX2008 at Ahoy Rotterdam, june 23! To celebrate I also bought the new White Diamond/ShowGirl Homecoming DVD! This is a Kylie-tastic weekend!

Friday, December 07, 2007

Once, twice, three times a baby

I got uncle for the third time! My brother's girlfriend has given birth to my new nephew! Of course, I haven't seen him yet, but I'm sure he looks the same as every baby does, which is generally quite good. So, now I've got a nephew of 2.5, a niece of 0.5 and a nephew of 1 day. This is gonna cost me so much money in birthday presents hahaha!

Anyway, since my brother lives two hours away from me and this Sunday I need to go to my mother's birthday party, I don't think it will be before next weekend to go visit, but then again, how much can a baby change in one week?

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Here comes the steamboat

Today it's Sinterklaas in Holland, which is a local folklore foreigners will probably not know. Think of it as a Dutch version of Sanata Claus, except Sinterklaas is more fun, less commercial, and celebrated on Dec. 5. Late November Sinterklaas arrives in Holland by means of a steamboat, traditionally on a large scale in some city for the televized event, and then on a somewhat more intimate scale in every city in the country. From that point on, there are festivities leading to the big night on dec. 5.

Of course, all of this is mainly intended for children, but I guess I can talk for a lot of Dutchies when I say I still get nostalic from the whole thing, and I really like it all. Traditionally Sinterklaas comes to visit my office every year, so I had a chance to go on a photo with him. Of course I know it's just someone who's dressed up, but I guess it's like Disneyland: you know it's just a person in a big mouse-costume, but at that moment you could swear it's the real Mickey.

Seeing I don't have any children or little brothers or sisters, I won't be celebrating it tonight, but the fun upfront was good enough for me! Santa Clause eat your heart out!

Monday, December 03, 2007

The return of the Spice Girls


Yesterday was opening night of The Return Of The Spice Girls Tour 2007-2008 at the General Motors Place Arena in Vancouver, Canada. I had a chance to buy tickets for the show in Cologne, but didn't, because of transportation issues. After seeing pictures like the one at the top of this post, I feel really stupid not going. The show seems awesome!

Standard but lovely

The weekend has been very nice but went by, as usual, way too soon. Friday after work I went home for some sitcom watching. At about ten I went into town for some drinks. Turned out to be a great evening, perfect way to start off the weekend.

Saturday I went to get my hair cut, and then went back into town for some shopping and a drink with Dirk. Then at night Martijn came over, and I went to sleep at about two in the morning (without Martijn obviously, in case it would sound that way).

Sunday I went, as I usually do, to Leeuwarden to visit my parents. Another great day! All in all, a pretty standard, but lovely weekend!

Friday, November 30, 2007

All play and no work

So the weekend has finally kicked off! Today was actually a pretty good day at work. I was expecting things to be left undone, and of course some where, but they were just minor details. As a whole, we pretty much get things done, which is a very good way to start off the weekend. I left kinda early, since I've been working overtime for several days this week, and now I'm extremely happy I've got two days of not thinking about work ahead of me!

Tomorrow morning I'm gonna get my hair cut. Call me a faggot, but going to the hairdresser is always something I'm looking forward to. There's nothing I hate more than my hair looking silly. Well actually, usually it only looks silly in my own opinion, with everyone else riduling me because I'm constantly whining about it. No matter, after tomorrow I'll be a happy camper again when it comes to my hair.

For the rest of the weekend, I plan on doing just things I like, and no stress or forced upon me activities at all. I hope you'll all have a great weekend as well. No excuse me while I go get a well deserved glass of wine! Cheers!

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Not very good company

It's already Thursday, which means the weekend is approaching at alarming speed. Although I'm looking forward to the weekend, fact is it's still very busy at work, so I hope I will be able to get everything done. Good thing I'm getting a lot of help from colleages, so I don't need to feel like I'm the only one being busy.

Tonight I was supposed to go see a movie with Anneke (called Alles Is Liefde, somewhat of a Dutch version of Love Actually) but I'm just too tired for it, so I cancelled this morning. On the one hand, that's a real shame, cause Anneke and I don't see each other enough, so going to the movies together would be very nice. On the other hand, I don't think I would be very good company, so postponing until a somewhat less frantic period probably is for the best.

So what I'm planning to do is watch just a couple of sitcoms, take a long hot shower, and go to bed early. Just one day left, and then there's time to actually relax and do fun stuff with friends. For now, the most important thing is to get enough sleep.

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Kylie X Tour

Kylie Minogue has just announced her 2008 world tour (called KYLIEX2008) in support of her fantastic new Kylie X album. Best news of all is, on june 23 2008 she will play a date at Ahoy Rotterdam, so for the first time since the 2005 ShowGirl Greatest Hits Tour I finally get to see her again. I can't wait!

These are the announced dates so far, be sure to expect more:

Tue 06-05 Paris, Bercy
Wed 07-05 Antwerp, Sportpaleis
Fri 09-05 Stuttgart, Schleyerhalle
Sat 10-05 Frankfurt, Festhalle
Mon 12-05 Prague, Sazka
Wed 14-05 Vienna, Stadthalle
Thu 15-05 Budapest, Sports Arena
Tue 27-05 Cologne, Arena
Thu 29-05 Munich, Olympiahalle
Sat 07-06 Hamburg, Colorline Arena
Sun 08-06 Copenhagen, Forum
Tue 10-06 Oslo, Spektrum
Wed 11-06 Stockholm, Globe
Fri 13-06 Helsinki, Hartwall Arena
Sun 22-06 Berlin, Velodrom
Mon 23-06 Rotterdam, Ahoy
Thu 26-06 Belfast, Odyssey Arena
Fri 27-06 Belfast, Odyssey Arena
Sat 05-07 Glasgow, S.E.C.C. (0870 040 4000)
Sun 06-07 Glasgow, S.E.C.C.
Mon 14-07 Manchester, M.E.N. Arena (0844 847 8000)
Tue 15-07 Manchester, M.E.N. Arena
Sat 26-07 London, 02 Arena (0844 856 0202)
Sun 27-07 London, 02 Arena [1]

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Freedom of speech

It's pretty sad I'm actually trying to respond to a trashy newspaper like De Telegraaf, but still... Let me tell you what happened. We've got a newspaper in Holland, desperately trying to be like the British tabloids, but at the same time trying to be somewhat of a respectable broadsheet. Obviously, you can't have it both ways, so as a result this rag is useless in any aspect.

So, you may ask, why am I still reading it? I don't, actually. What I like to do, is go to the online version at http://www.telegraaf.nl and read the user's comments. For all their trying to become a tabloid did attract the right public to get some hilarious responds. If this was America, Telegraaf readers would be ignorant rednecks. It's a shame most of you will probably not be able to read the hilarious responds, but for the ones who do speak Dutch: go check it out. There may be people with only one braincell after all.

What this have to do with my experience tonight? Well, from time to time I like to post a comment myself, which is mostly when there's just a blatant mistake (happens all the time at this wortless excuse for a newspaper) which is most of the times a result of a word for word translation of an article earlier published in The Sun or the Daily Mirror, two of Britain's most idiotic tabloids.

Well, it turned out tonight that while it's perfectly okay for these (dare I call them that way) 'journalists' to write whatever bullshit they please, but it's not possible to actually try and set the record straight. Every comment I try to post to correct mistakes has been rejected so far, even though I don't violate any of their silly little rules. Mind you, one of the rules is 'no personal attacts' which is something the mojaority of the readers does. Of course, this is because that's exactly the kind of readers they like to attract.

Anyway, I'd say freedom of speech my ass at De Telegraaf. Why don't you just go fuck yourself?

The never ending story

I can't say I'm a particular good mood right now. It's been another busy day at work and I'm really tired, but I don't want to waste the evening on going to bed all too early. Good thing listening to my Kylie X album is cheering me up just a little bit.

You know, there's nothing wrong with having a busy day at work. Actually, it can be quite fulfillingfrom time to time. However, when you're stressing all day and nothing actually seems to be getting done, it's a whole different story. For every task I'm performing at the moment, there are two or three new ones waiting in my inbox. At the end of the day, when I go home, it feels as if I didn't progress just one bit, even though I've been busy like hell.

Of course, this shouldn't really be a reason for complaining. After all,I knew upfront this would be three quite frantic weeks, and I'm already halway through it, so I suppose it can only get better.

Enough of my whining, I'm going to watch a movie (The Talented Mister Ripley, to be exact, to get off on Matt Damon and of course Jude Law haha). Cheers!

Monday, November 26, 2007

A rush hour start

Well this has been a busy start of the week! I can't recall relaxing for even a minute today, so the day flew by really. After such a great weekend, I guess it was a bit difficult getting back into it, especially considering the enourmous amount of work waiting for me. I don't think it will get any better the rest of this week, so I'd better prepare myself for s stressfull week.

Another strange thing today, was that it was Rik's last day at work. Of course we had our official goodbye dinner last Friday, but still it's a bit weird to actually say goodbye at the office. Of course, Ziena, Rik and I will still be seeing each other for drinks, but I do have to say it's somewhat strange to not be workmates anymore. Usually we went for lunch, the three of us, so that's reduced to two from now on.

So, it's time for me to go swimming. It's extremely cold outside so I can't say I'm all too thrilled about having to leave the house, but I guess I just don't have a choice.

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Too much fun to handle

I can't believe how fast this weekend went by! Actually, I can't even remember a weekend more fun than this one in a long time! Going out, shopping, spending way too much money, all the things I like to do on a weekend, I've done. I just got back from having dinner at my parents house, and I need to go to bed in a short while, since obviously tomorrow I need to go back to work.

I like weekends like this you know, just having fun and doing generally nothing. I sometimes wish every day could be like this, although of course I would be bored to death in just two or three days if that were actually the case. I guess I need a vacation?

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Out there on the dance floor

Third post in one day, I must be in a really good mood! In fact: I am! This has been a great weekend so far! The dinnerparty yesterday was so much fun, and today I've been listening to my fantastic new Kylie X album all day long, so I'm quite happy. Right now I'm getting ready for a night on the town. First, there's this function with the rest of the old members of Cleopatra, which is kinda nice. After that, Ziena and I are going clubbing, and that's the part I'm really looking forward to!

It's been ages (well, about a month) since I went clubbing. Now that Holland has a truly fabulous Top40, clubbing should be extremely great! I can't wait to get out there on that dance floor! So, let me get ready, and I'm off.

For everyone else who's going out tonight: have a great time!

Kylie X, the review

The album's out, and I'm loving it! Kylie is definitely back with her new album X, in my opinion even better than Fever, which was up until now my favourite of her ten albums. As you know, along with Madonna, Kylie is my favourite artist, and after hearing she had been diagnosed with cancer I was really afraid we would never hear anything from her again. Thank God she recovered, and her hot new album is fantastic. What follows is a song by song review:

2Hearts
Of course you all know this one already, since it's the leader single. A nice new direction for Kylie. At first it took me a bit of getting used to, but now that I've listened to it over and over again, it already feels like a Kylie classic.

Like a Drug
Up tempo, sensual, Kylie in what she does best: pure pop. This one could easily become one of the singles, since I think radio will give it plenty of airplay.

In My Arms
From the producer who also did In Your Eyes on the Fever album, and it shows. This one says #1 hit single all through the song. Absolutely fantastic, a no sitting down song. The chorus is more than likely to settle in your head.

Speakerphone
Lots of vocoders, making it sound a bit like a Madonna song from her Music/American Life era. And I say that as a good thing. Probably not going to be a single, but a lovely album track all together.

Sensitized
Up tempo, happy, sexy, groovy. What more can I say?

Heart Beat Rock
Mid tempo, it reminds me of the Body Language album, but then better. Body Language was a somewhat half hearted crossover style album, designed to crack the American market. This one's the real deal, and will probably be a lot more succesfull in doing so.

The One
OMG this is it, the signature song of the album. If pop music would have a themesong, this would be it. Try and sit stil while listening to this song. I bet you couldn't do it. Nice catchy chorus as well!

No More Rain
I think this is the definitive post-cancer song. It just bursts with positivity and a will to enjoy life and take it as it comes. I guess this one would make a good song to listen to when you're feeling sorry for yourself, while you should be gratefull for everything you've got.

All I See
Sounds very American, very Britney (I actually still like Britney so this can be taken as a compliment). Has got a nice break in it, one of those breaks that make a dance floor stop for a second before getting back into it full stop.

Stars
Does the fun ever stop? Another classic Kylie tune. It seems as if basically every track on this album can become a single. I would really enjoy hearing this one somewhere on some crowded dance floor, or, even better, front row in a stadium during Kylie's upcoming world tour!

Wow
This one really reminds me of the Kylie of the 80s. Songs like Hand on my Heart and I should be so lucky come to mind. I think this one will quickly become a fan favourite for concerts, as it really fits being sung live.
Nu-di-ty
If I would name one downer on this otherwise perfect record, it would be this song. I'm not saying it sucks, it's just I don't think it really fits in well with the rest of the songs.
Cosmic
Another post cancer song. This one an emotional balld. What a perfect way to end this album.
I know this is a totally biased review, but I wanted to share it with you guys anyway, perhaps as an endorsement to go running to the record store and get yourself a copy! Happy listening!

Say goodbye

Dinner was great yesterday! It was a goodbye dinner for co-worker Rik, who has his last day with us this Monday, so it wasn't a happy occasion, but then again, I know I'll get to see Rik for drinks so this was not the end of a friendship. Anyway, it was nice seeing everyone again in a nice informal setting.

After dinner, we went to Buckshot Cafe for some drinks. This is not a place I go to often, but it was kinda nice. There's this dance floor upstairs with some nice lounge kinda music. I'm usually not very into lounge music, since I'm more of a Top40-person, but I guess this was feasable.

So, now I'm getting ready to go shopping, cause of course I need to go and buy Kylie's new album X. I'll give you guys a full review this afternoon!

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Dial a Theo

As of today I've got a new phone number. Of course, I'm not going to be so stupid to write it down here on my weblog, so if you know me personally (which probably means you still have my old number), send me a text message on the old one so that I can give you my new one.

By the way, along with the new number came a really cool new Samsung slide phone. I turned really hatefull on my Motorola RZR so I'm quite happy I've got a new one now! Let's hope I won't destroy this one as quickly as I've fone with each and every previous one. Then again, trashing it makes up for a good reason to go and buy myself a new and even cooler one.

Anyway, let me know if you need my new number, and when I feel like it, you'll probably get it hehe!

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Erase and unwind

Before this week started, I was kind of worried about how stressful it would all be with me being the only one in the office. With vacations and child's leave I suddenly found myself being alone for about three weeks, which was something I wasn't exactly looking forward to. However, now that a few days have passed, it isn't that bad. Of course, next week, when the month ends, it will all be a lot busier, but as of yet it'a all doable, which is good for making a head start.

Going to bed early and not really doing anything at night helps, too. Tonight of course I'm going swimming, as I did Monday, but after that it's just gonna be me, a bowl of popcorn and some more episodes of Will and Grace, or even a nice Madonna concert dvd. I can't believe how it took me just one year to actually look forward to doing nothing and staying in. A few months ago this was like my worst nightmare but now it's just fine.

The only exceotion to the rule is the weekend. On a Friday night I can kinda live with it doing nothing, but on a Saturday I just need to go out and do something, anything. Good thing I'm having a party this weekend!

Anyway, Ziena will be waiting if I don't hurry up now and drag myself to the swimming pool! Cheers!

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

10.000 pageviews

Thanks to my readers and casual vistors for getting me 10.000 pageviews! It took a while, but it still looks nice (although, when you're reading this, you'll be my 10.000-and-something pageview, which is a lot less spectacular).

Two years ago, in august 2005, I started Totally Theo because first of all I got kinda sick of my old blog, and second of all, the old one was in Dutch while I was busy getting to know people from all over the world through the Madonna fanclub and of course all the waiting in line during the Drowned World, Re-Invention and Confessions Tours. So, I decided to start myself a new blog and publish it in English so that everyone would be able to read it.

These past two years knew some highs and lows, but pageview wise as content wise. I remember the peaks right after the Dutch stop of the Confessions Tour in Amsterdam, as well as the day I signed up for www.gay.nl/teejoo1980 , getting more pageviews from both sides. In addition to that, it's weird sometimes reading back the highs when I got into a relationship with Emiel, and the lows when it all ended.

To me, this place is like a diary, but one I really need to look out what I'm writing, since the whole world can read along. But that's kinda what makes it a nice thing to do every day, knowing that there are real people out there interested enough to actually take the time and read what I wrote.

Thank you all for visiting, keep returning, and on the next 10.000!

Monday, November 19, 2007

Dolls and dolls

The weekend has been great! Friday night, after work, I went for a few drinks with some friends, and got pretty hammered, the way a Friday is supposed to be hehe. Saturday oddly enough I barely felt sick, so I went shopping. Bought myself season 5 of Will and Grace, which is pretty cool, because it has the episode Dolls and Dolls, featuring Madonna, on it. Talking about getting the best of both worlds!

Saturday night Leendert came over, so after a bit of a chat we decided to watch some episodes. Well, turned out the 'some episodes' means almost the entire dvd box hehe. We spend so much time on it there wasn't any use going out anymore, which was fine, because I didn't feel like going out anyway.

Yesterday I went to Leeuwarden to visit my parents, which was nice as well. All in all, a good weekend!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Ode to Cleopatra

After a nice evening with Leendert, I decided to take a look back at my days with Cleopatra ASG, my students club here in Groningen. It may seem now as if there's very little bonding between me and them left (a few friends of mine are still members, so right now there's still somewhat of a thing going on, but it will only be like one or two years before that's gone as well), but actualy, there's a lot to be very happy with, and even gratefull for. So see this as my ode to Cleopatra.

First of all, Cleopatra is the place I got most of my friends from. The funny thing is, these friends are divided into people that became friends instantly when I joined myself, and people who came along later on the road. Regardless, many of them hold a dear place in my hard, and are, or have been, very important to me. I can't imagine going through my days of being a student without them. Even more, I can't imagine living the way I live right now without them. I'm not going to name any names, but you know who you are when you're reading this and you're still in my life.

Second: I got to learn things like working in a team. You have to understand, at Cleopatra there's a lot of team work going on. You either are already used to it, or it just gets on you while doing it. Cleopatra is a cool club where nobody has to be sorta out of the group. With just a little effort, you can always fit in. I personally don't really need to have a lot of effort to fit in, but I really do like the fact that it's a place where everyone can join the club.

Third: I got to meet my ex-boyfriend Roel at Cleopatra. Of course, it may be sad he's my ex-boyfriend instead of my current boyfriend, but nonetheless. It was the first time I actually got to spend time in a full-time relationship. I guess, even though it didn't really wotk out, I learned a lot from it. I don't see Roel anymore on a regular basis, but the time I've spend with him has been invaluable to me, and I will always cherish it.

Finally: there's just a feeling of great fun to know there's always a place you can fall back to, where you can just have a beer, where everybody knows your name (how Cheers is that?). I'm way too old now, but I'll always cherish the times when I was really a part of that!

Who are you?

Now I'm curious: this afternoon, while I was at the office, someone made about twenty pageviews on my site, so probably he or she read the entire archive in one afternoon. Of course, readers like this make me very happy, cause they are the ones that make it worth it to write every day faithfully. The only downside to it is, I can only see the provider they used, and (usually) from what city, but that's about it.

So, mysterious visitor, using Academie Kabel from Groningen, the Netherlands: please let me know who you are, so that I can praise you!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Monster computer

For some reason unknown to me, my computer decided to become extremely slow tonight, which is a bad thing since I was trying to get some important things done. After a restart things didn't exactly clean up, so now I'm a bit scared the whole thing will break down in a while. I know shit about computers so there's really nothing I can do about it myself. That's the fucked up thing about computers I guess... unless you are a real geek, most of us don't come any further than switching it on and off, and that's about it. Whenever something goes wrong, I need to get someone to take care of it for me.

So, at least I got done what I wanted to do. Some of you may now the online job site Monsterboard (I think it's an international thing, but don't sue me if I'm wrong). I had my resume on it before, but after I changed something, the lay out got completely fucked up, making it look so silly I thought it better to take it offline completely. After that, I kinda forgot about it, until I got some automatically generated email from them. It got my mind back on this site, so I rearranged my resume and put it back online. You never know what you're gonna get out of it.

Because of the computer problems, it took me over an hour to get things done, which would normally take, I guess, about ten minutes or so. Totally absurd of course, but once you get started you need to finish, for otherwise you could end up with parts of the resume up, and parts lost somewhere, which would look stupid. So, I'm glad things finally worked, and I sure hope my computer won't crash....

As long as you see me creating new posts here, you'll know I'll be fine hehe!

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Life on the high streets

Good thing I spend (of course) the entire day at the office, and nowhere near any shops or malls, cause I was in a serious compulsive buying mood this afternoon. I get that every once in a while, this urge to just go and buy random stuff, regardless of what they are. Well okay, mostly it's clothing, albums and DVDs, but almost always things I don't really need. I'm not even a big fan of shopping, I just like buying stuff.

I once saw an episode of Oprah on this very subject, and I could recognize myself in the guests completely. As it turns out, to some (most probably I'm one of them), buying stuff can work like a drug, and can really become something you grow mentally addicted to. Also, apparantly it doesn't really matter what it is you're buying, as long if it's something you don't need as a bare necessity. Check!

Another thing that goes with it, is that people are doing it to cheer themselves up, like what some people do with food or sex. It makes sense, yesterday evening I was feeling sorta depressed (as I wrote down here) so maybe that didn't completely wear of today?

Of course, there's a big difference between spending way too much, or just buying some fun stuff. Although I really like buying stuff, I almost never go and spend outrageous amounts of money. Usually it's just one album or DVD and I'm happy. Shopping can really cheer a guy up!

Monday, November 12, 2007

No lesson from the past

This evening I've been busy reading throught the archives of this site, which, I know now, wasn't the smartest thing to do. Being the compulsive feeling sorry for myself guy that I am, of course I went straight to june through december last year, which was, as you may recall, the time my ex boyfriend E. and I were together. Not a very good idea, I can tell you so much.

I've been doing this before, and you would have thought I'd learn something from it, but no no no, I just go and do it again, so now I'm feeling all sad and sorry for myself. The thing is, all the lovely, and not so lovely, memories are right here in my head, so I don't ever need to be afraid I'll forget about them, but actually reading me writing about it as it happened, is quite a different thing.

Reading stuff about our vacation, about our first date, about the first time he said he loved me... it's all just a bit surreal reading it back. Likewise, it's really strange reading back the stuff I wrote when we broke up. Back then I figured later on I could use it to feel good about myself later on, knowing it would be way past me. The thing is, it's almost a year ago now, and it's anything but way past me. Does that sound pathetic or what? I really wish I could say differently, but I can't. There's simply not a day passing by without me missing him for at least one moment.

My friend Ziena correctly tells me I should forget all about him, and he's bad news for me. I know she's right, but there's such a big difference between knowing someone's right and acting upon it. If there would be like a switch or something in my head I could turn off, I would probably do so immediately. In the meantime, I guess I just gonna have to deal with it, and accept the fact there's another holiday season coming up with me being alone.

Makeover time!

Every once in a while I change the lay out of Totally Theo, cause after a while it gets quite boring to have the same looking site all the time. Today I changed it to its current lay out and I'm quite pleased with it. Let me know what you think by using the submit button at the bottom of this post!

Speaking of which, tonight is an ideal evening for things like this. It's raining cats and dogs outside so I'm quite happy to stay in and just fuck about a bit. Watching some DVD's, doing some computer stuff, it's a nice way to spend the evening after a long day at work.

The rest of the week I guess will be quite normal, doing a bit of swimming and maybe some shopping. I guess I'm a little boring this week (but don't let it stand in the way of checking back here anyway).

Sunday, November 11, 2007

2 Months of no smoking

Okay so I was trying to make somewhat of a memorial to celebrate my exact two months on being a non smoker, but my computer is being somewhat of an asshole and for some reason I can't seem to upload any pictures, so I guess this is it.

Anyway, if I may say so myself: I'm really really really proud! Two months of non-smoking? I could have never even imagined it, but it worked!

God hates fags (yeah whatever...)

A couple of minutes ago I send an email to the stupid fuckers of the Westboro Baptist Church. Surely you know them because of their idiotic website www.godhatesfags.com , which is a hoot. They are the ones picketing funerals of homosexuals and soldiers, believing God has doomed America in particular and the world in general.

Once every while I send them emails, mainly because of the hilarious responses you get from them. Usually they consist of cursing and swearing at me, which, I guess, is not the Christian thing to do, but what the hell. The funny thing is there's just no way of reasoning with these guys, because they're absolutely insane, but the make for real good comedy. I can't believe someone could actually get offended by them, since they're so retarted you cannot really take them seriously. Well okay, I guess having them around at a funeral shouting offensive insults would piss me off too, but just by their pamflets and their website, they're just plain funny!

As soon as I get a response, I'll post it here, so stay tuned and check back. In the meantime, check out their ridiculous website. I especially like the sermons and the answers to other people's letters!

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Groningen vs. Amsterdam

It's pretty shitty many of my friends have moved out of Groningen recently to persue jobs somewhere around Amsterdam or Utrecht. Of course there's still plenty of chances seeing them during weekends, but still it's not the same. I miss being able to call someone any time of the day to meet up and have a drink somewhere. Nowadays things need to be planned well in advance and then still something could come up.

It made me think about leaving Groningen as well, to be at least a bit closer to where the action is, but then again, I really like my city and I don't really want to leave. I see Amsterdam as a great day trip, but not really as a place where I want to live. Mind you, if I do want to move to one of the big cities, I would pick London instead of Amsterdam any day.

The good thing about Groningen is, that it's quite a diverse city, you know with the University being situated here, but still it's not so huge you could drown in it. It's sorta like a warm blanket to roll in. You can go out in Groningen any time knowing you will bump into people you know, something I guess is a fat chance in Amsterdam.

Anyway, no matter how good this may sound, fact is I don't have any plans for tonight, while I do want to have plans, so that's a bit fucked up.

Friday, November 09, 2007

A quiet weekend

OMG I'm so happy it's finally weekend! I guess the weekend is always something to look forward to, but this past week has been so busy I guess this makes it all the more better. After work I went for a quick drink with a couple of friends of mine at this really nice bar called Marleen. I didn't stay too long, cause usually on Friday's when I come right from the office, I tend to get temporarly tired real soon.

So, I was actually planning on staying on my own tonight, just watching some movies on the couch, but now Sara is coming over, which is fine, cause I could use some company to celebrate the weekend! For the rest, I don't really have any plans yet. Usually I see that as a bad thing, but this weekend, I guess it's a good thing I can do whatever I want to.

So, South Park starts in a couple of minutes, so I'm heading back to my couch!

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Catching up

Things are starting to get back to normal at work, so today hasn't been as ridiculously busy as the first part of the week. I actually had time to do the things I was hired for, so that's a big improvement! Also, this afternoon the weather was fine (as opposed to right now) so Ziena and I could finally take a walk again after lunch, something we haven't done in two weeks.

After work, I had a shopping date with Anneke, but the weather was already so bad that shopping wasn't exactly the most desirable thing to do. So instead we opted for having a drink and some barfood at the News Cafe, which is one of my favourite hangouts here in Groningen. It was nice catching up with here, since I've barely seen her since she had a baby. For the most part, I have myself to blame for not seeing her enough, so I definitely need to make some arrangements so that I call her more often. Anyway, I had a nice evening, and of course we had loads of catching up to do.

So now Pretty Woman is on telly, and although I despise Julia Roberts, I must admit I do like this movie very much, so it's back to the couch for me!

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Melting

A couple of weeks ago I decided to share some self-written lyrics here with you guys (you can check it in the archive on the right of this page, just click on August 2007 and then scroll all the way down). Because of the positive reactions I got over my 'stage-fright' just a bit, so I decided to give it another go. Please let me know what you think by using the reaction button at the bottom of this post, even if you hate it.

Melting
I remember the first time
I heard the music play
The world just stopped turning
I could have died that very day
You found me, and took me home
In your heart I'll always roam
It's all a dream

chorus:
One kiss, one touch
One smile and I'm melting away
One word, one blink
This could be such a wonderful day

Waking up with you
Looking into your eyes
Is more I ever dreamt of
You're the dream that lives inside
This is more than I knew I could feel
Tell me please is this love for real
Don't ever go

repeat chorus

In this world of illusions
Our love seems to stand tall
No matter how deep
With you I don't need to fear
I don't care if I fall

repeat chorus

I don't care if I fall
I don't care if I fall
With you I don't care if I fall

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Urban swimming

Two times a week Ziena and I go swimming for an hour after work, which is always very refreshing. Today it was more of a lifesafer, since my day couldn't have gone worse. Well, actually, of course it could have, I could have gotten fires or killed or whatever, but still. It's been a very long day at work, interesting, but long. I never go into office details to maintain somewhat anoniminity, but let's just say sometimes everyone wants the opposite thing of what the others want, and they all want you to solve their problem for them. That pretty much sums up my day.

So, I was very happy Ziena and I cancelled our swimming date yesterday in favour of getting a drink downtown, and rescheduled for today (and tomorrow, to keep up with two times a week). Ziena and I use our swimming time (which we, for some reason, call Urban Swimming), for gossiping and complaining about basically everything, which is the perfect way to sound off after a hard day.

The only bad thing is, I was kinda hoping this swimming (we're doing it regurlarly for about 10 weeks now) would give me somewhat of a sixpack or at least a little bit bigger arms, but none of it... I guess really big arms wouldn't fit me anyway, since I've got a tattoo there that would probably get horribly misformed, but just a little bigger would be welcome. I took it I could use swimming as a substitute for going to the gym (I'm probably the only gay guy in the world who absolutely loads the gym) but I guess I'm having no such luck. At least it keeps me from not getting really fat (a big risk since I quit smoking 8 weeks ago), so there's one good thing!

Monday, November 05, 2007

Living in a material world

Damn did I get carried away on shopping yesterday or what? I was basically just supposed to go and buy myself a new South Park dvd box (which I didn't), but I ended up spending an enormous amount of money, which, incidentally, was kinda nice!

First of all, while looking for the South Park box, I accidentally bumped into Four Rooms, which is a Madonna movie. As much as I love Madonna to pieces, there's just no honoust way of saying she can act, so this one's strictly because I'm a collector, and will probably never be watched again. Still, for only 3 Euro's there's no complaining, right?

So, once I got started there wasn't any stopping, so off to Esprit I went. I guess Esprit is an international chain, but in case you don't know what it is: it's great. Think of it as a somewhat more European version of The Gap and you'll get the picture. Anyway, I'm a member of the Esprit club since I always spend such outrageous amounts of money there. I haven't decided if this club card is a good or a bad thing yet. It can be used for collecting credits which will earn you vouchers for discounts, but it also encourages to spend even more. Of course, this is exactly what the store people want you to do, and being the sucker that I am, they succeeded. Bought myself a really cool new sweater that I'm wearing proudly as we speak.

To top things off, I went and bought myself a new cell phone. For the past year and a half I was using a Motorola RZR and I'm kinda sick of it, so now I got this really cool Samsung slide phone. Speaking of being decadent haha. Anyway, it came with a new number as well, so if I know you personally and haven't given you the new number before november 24th (that's when my old SIM will become de-activated), drop me a line at my 'old' number!

As I've said before, shopping can really cheer me up, so yesterday has definitely been a very good day! It wasn't even that bad to go back to work today!

Sunday, November 04, 2007

A great date

Last Friday, I had somewhat of a date with this guy I met online. Of course, I was a bit apprehensive about this, cause after all, even though we've been chatting for a while, it still kinda resembles a blind date. In other words: it could have ended up disastrous.

Boy, was I wrong! It wasn't disastrous at all. Actually it was a great evening, and this guy, called R., was really great! We had a great evening, and I'm seeing him again next weekend! This has been my third online arranged date, and the second one that went good (the first being E.). You never really know how it will be actually meeting each other, but as I said, this was great!

The rest of the weekend has been good as well. Yesterday my ex co-worker Corien and I went for coffee, and last night I attented a graduation party, which was nice as well!

Friday, November 02, 2007

Beautiful World Tour 2007

Wow, I don't even know where to start! Take That was just absolutely fantastic last night and rocked Rotterdam like never before. What a night!

We arrived quite early so that we could go and grab a drink and some snacks before the show. Then, when we entered the arena, we got ourselves some pretty nice spots up against the railing. Unfortunately, after about half an hour, a secruraty person came up to us to tell us we weren't allowed to stand there because of fire precautions. Bummer, but fortunately soon we found another spot which was just as good, with no security sending us away.

The special guest performance was, I guess, quite nice, although I'm not a big fan of pre-shows in general. They only played 6 songs however, so it was over pretty soon. I was expecting quite a long wait after the pre-show, but before I knew it the houselights went out and the crowd started to roar.

Starting with a great visual introduction, the guys came onstage, dressed as politicians, singing Reach Out, for their new album Beautiful World. Loved it! Loved it even more when this was followed by It Only Takes A Minute and Patience. Before Patience, Howard Donald, who couldn't do the show because of his accident last week, came on stage to say hi to us, which was nice.

The rest of the show was just wonderful, with personal highlights Relight My Fire, Give Good Feeling, Never Forget and Pray. The stage looked very spectacular, with loads of pyrotechnics, videoscreens, and particular good lightning. Also, the crowd was really into it, so on several occasions the whole arena seemed as if one big sing-a-long.

I'm glad they're back, and hope to see them again on their next tour!

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Could it be magic?

In just a few hours, we'll be getting on our way to see Take That! I can't wait for this show to finally happen. I've been a Take That fan for ages, and of course I never expected them to get back together, so finally getting to see them will be a real blast!

Expect a review here tomorrow!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

99 bottles of beer in my blood

This past weekend I went with my former student club for a weekend up in the woods of Drenthe (this may sound like it's a big deal, but remember, this is Holland, so you could just as well call the woods a park). I took Friday off from work so that I had enough time to pak, and so at about 3 we took the train and the fun began.

The good thing about these camp trip,s is that they basically are all about drinking beer. There are some activities planned, but I can never really be bothered engaging in them. Usually it's better to stay indoors and just drink loads of beer. We had some drinking games which made it all the more fun, especially since I'm not especially good in them, so I had to drink a lot!

After three days like that of course you're totally wasted, so it wasn't exactly as if I came back from my weekend all relaxed and fresh. Never mind though, I'm fine now, and ready to go swimming with Ziena.

In just two days, I'm going to see Take That at Ahoy Rotterdam!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Never forget

I got home today to a nice surprise: my Take That Greatest Hits (Never Forget) album has been delivered. I ordered it about a week ago, since as you know I'm going to their Beautiful World Tour concert at Ahoy Rottredam next week. I already had the old Greatest Hits album, but it was so old it has scratches everywhere and was barely listenable, so I really needed a new one.

Listening to it, I'm looking even more forward to the concert next week (november 1st), cause it means that after liking them for over 10 years, I finally get to see them play live! I've seen many of their performances, both old and new, on video and dvd, but of course it will be a whole new thing actually being part of the show. I've seen Robbie Williams doing a solo show at the same venue many years ago, which was great. Still, even Robbie can't get close to the real magic Take That always kinda showed of.

So, now that I've got both Never Forget and Beautiful World, along with a couple of dvds, I'm properly armed to go and have the best night of the year next week! Expect a full review next Friday!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

World of opportunities

Because I've been looking for a new hobby for a while now, I decided to join a political party, because it can offer a lot of opportunities for volunteer work. I use two of my evenings every week for swimming, but for the rest I'm not really doing anything productive after work, so I thought it would be a good idea to make use of my free time, and built up some sort of network at the same time.

The only problem with this great idea is, that I need to find the right political party to suit my ideas. In Holland, we've got many different parties, with many different ideas. Most of them operate both on a national and a local level, which is exactly what I want. I'm not interest in a party that just tries to get things done locally, although the extend of the volunteering I'm interested in, does concern local matters.

So, as to not make any rash decisions, I decided to go and read all the political programs, in rder to be able to make a well-informed choice. I gotta tell you, it's not that easy. Although the parties differ on many ideas, there are also some things they have in common, and the problem is, it's exactly those issues that would have been helpful to me in making a good choice. Nobody ever said politics were easy, I suppose.

I guess it's best to give it some rest for an evening, so that tomorrow I can make like a chart, citing the good and bad things of each party, and then counting them up and decide which one fits me best. I am kind of excited about this. I like being active, so this would set out a whole new world of opportunities!

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

The former addict in me

Exactly six weeks ago I decidd the cigarette I was smoking, was going to be my last. At that moment, I really wasn't convinced I would pull it off, and I actually kept my cigarettes for a while, in case I would slip back. There's no use having to buy new ones when you still had some, right?

So anyway, that's six weeks ago now, and I haven't taken one single puff since. Smoking is officially behind me now, and even though I've had smoke-free periods before, I'm totally convinced this time it's gonna last! This is not just a presumption, I actually have some reasons.

First of all, I realised the insane amount of money I used to spend on smoking every month. That money can buy me a lot of Madonna tickets, and of course to me that can be a big drive. Furthermore, as of next year, there's a smoking ban in bars and clubs in Holland, so the former addict in me actually decided never to go out anymore. Thinking about it, I realised just how pathetic that sounds. It's pretty insane to think you can't have a good time without cigarettes, so it's good to be smoke-free before the ban actually comes into place.

Then, of course, there are the obvious reasons, like health issues and the fact that smoking actually smells (something you don't realise while smoking yourself). I have to admit health issues weren't my first concern, but it's a good plus.

So, keep your fingers crossed that I will never succumb to the temptation again, and will remain an ex-smoker for the rest of my life!

Respect my authority!


It's official, I've turned into a South Park fan! I just love it!

Monday, October 22, 2007

Oops, she did it again!


I have a confession to make: I LOVE Gimme More, the new Britney Spears song, from her upcoming album Blackout. I know it's very trendy now to despise Britney, because of all the recent scandals, but I don't want to have anything to do with it. How can you not love a woman who's causing scandal on a daily basis? I know we all love the headlines, and imagine how boring the tabloids would be without her? There's only so much Paris Hilton you can take...

The good thing is, I'm not alone in this matter. Gimme More made it to #3 in the Billboard Hot 100, which is arguably the most important music chart in the world. It's pretty amazing the single got there, considering the only promotion Britney did, was that horrible performance at the MTV Video Music Awards in Las Vegas, about a month ago. It's like starfucker and showbizz blogger Perez Hilton (http://www.perezhilton.com/) wrote: we all love to hate her.

Meanwhile, I was at a club saturday night, and as soon as Gimme More was played, the dance floor was filled, so she's doing something right!

Keep it up Britney, don't ever become a decent girl again!

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Day break

Yesterday has been absolutely wonderful! Around noon I took the train to Utrecht, where I was meeting up with my goodfriend Bo. Of coursem there were some delays, as there always are in the Netherlands, but I'm taking it for granted so it can't bother me that much. What bothered me more was a truckload of teenagers playing each and every one of there cell phone ringtones during the trip. How rude can you be?

Anyway, at about 3 I arrived in Utrecht, so Bo and I went shopping. I bought myself the Kylie ShowGirl HomeComing cd, and the new Madonna: Like an Icon biography, both very cool! Then of course we needed to get something to eat and drink, so we went to this really fancy restuarant/club called Winkel van Sinkel. I'd heard about it, and the rumours were true: it's a really cool place to go to. We stayed for about 4 hours, and then went to grab a burger at McDonalds. After that, there was time for two more beers, before I needed to head to the station and take the train back to Groningen.

Back in Groningen Leendert and I had plands to go clubbing, which was cool as well. It was a bit quiet downtown, but I still had a lot of fun and watched some really cute guys (only looking, no buying hehe). Got back home at about 3.30 so there was some time left for sleeping. Now I'm up and ready to go visit my parents, so again this promises to be a good day!

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Relax (take it easy)

Come to think of it (regarding my last post), there are some exceptions to the rule: cold evenings can be kinda nice, even when you're being just by yourself. After work I ordered Chinese take-away and then took a really long hot shower, which is the best thing to do when you get home all cold and tired. Now I'm actually pretty relaxed and happy, and enjoying my evening in my warm house while it's cold outside. I've got my ice tea, my nice bottle of wine and my crisps to take me through the evening, and of course there's my extensive dvd collection to keep me happy.

I was actually planning on spending several evenings this week this way, but it didn't go according to plan, so I'm quite happy being able to spend at least one night by myself. Chances are Leendert is coming over this evening, which is fine, but it's also fine just being alone. Just one more evening to go before the weekend, for which I've got lots of things planned, so I'm a happy camper!

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Winter blues

Winter has most definitely kicked in and like every year, it always makes me a bit sad. It's not as if we've been experiencing a wonderful summer in Holland this year, but still, it's always a bit depressing to get home in a very cold house, and to see everything getting dark just an hour after you leave the office. And it will only get worse...

This may all sound a bit depressed, but don't get me wrong, I'm not. It's just that I'm always looking forward to the summer, and this year we practically had none, so when the leaves start to fall and you can bet your life there isn't any chance left, it's sad. For the rest, of course fall and winter can be pretty cosy seasons as well, except I don't have a boyfriend so I don't really have anyone to cuddle up to this year. Actually, come to think about it, I don't have a boyfriend during wintertime whichever year. For some strange reason my relatinships seem to end before Christmas, so I've never really had that great thing of making snowmen together or going sleyriding.

Hm, now that I'm writing this, I am starting to feel a bit sorry for myself, so I'd better stop now and drag myself to the pool, to go for my evening of excercise.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

The X-factor

Tonight I'm going out for a drink with my ex-boyfriend W. W. , as you may recall, was my significant other for only three weeks, but still we had a great time, so it's nice to see we can still go out for drinks together. Usually when relationships end (at least in my case), we basically never see each other again, or even hate each other. Of course, that's not the nicest way of breaking up, so it's a good thing there are some exceptions to the rule, with W. being one of them.

In fact, our 'date' together tonight got me thinking: why is it so hard to stay friends with someone you've been in a relationship with? Maybe W. isn't such a good example, since we only date briefly, but let's have a look at one of my three significant relationships: R.

When R. and I broke up, we didn't get along too well for a while. It's a phase I actually understand quite well, you know, it can be difficult to deal with stuff, so sometimes it's just better to fight over it. Then, after a couple of months, especially when you see each other like every day, as R. and I did around that time, there should be some kind of normality, right?

Wrong! If it weren't for a couple of weeks ago at a party, we still wouldn't have said a word to each other, and the sad thing is: there really is no-one to blame, it just happened. Isn't it weird? Someone who has played such a big role in your life, can just dissapear or even become an enemy. The same thing threatened to hapen with E. but fortunately enough we were, somehow, able to avoid it, so now we communicate quite often. Why is it then, that R. and I can't seem to manage the same thing?

I don't know. Basically, I shouldn't even care, I mean, we are ex-boyfriends and it's been a long time. Still, I'd like to believe I could get along with anyone, so I would really like to get along with him as well.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

More than a month now



So the image above is probably going to be the last picture of me ever with a cigarette, taken over two months ago. I've quit smoking for over a month now, and I couldn't be more proud of myself. I'be watched some people smoking today, and although I can't deny I was just a tad jealous, the greater part of me was just overjoyed to not be any part of that anymore.

Being an ex-smoker really does cheer things up a lot!

Thursday, October 11, 2007

A rotten place

Another shoot-out on a US highs school was in the news today. What struck me this morning, when I heard it on the radio, was that it didn't even shock me anymore. As I was discussing earlier this week (actually about some other news item) with Ziena: we're getting numb when it comes to horrible stuff. There's such an overload of tragic events coming at us through the various media outlets every day, it doesn't bother us anymore.

Two years ago the big tsunami in Asia took place. I remember the first couple of days (it was Christmas), everyone was glued to the television and constantly giving to charity to help the victims. Then, just a couple of days later, the impact started to get less and less, until nobody cared anymore. It didn't mean the tragedy was any less, it just meant we couldn't be bothered to care anymore. With an overload of horrible images, one can only go so far in feeling sympethatic or shocked.

I'm not blaming myself or anyone else for this, but the fact remains it's a bad thing. Loads of people involved with the shoot-out will be suffering from trauma as I'm writing this, and still it's only one of the many headlines I read today. The world has just gotten such a rotten place, we've gotten completely numb.

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Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Just a phase

I seem to be having some diffculties deciding what it is I actually want. You know, I've been thinking about the way I've been dealing with boyfriends, flings, one-night stands, the whole lot. The conclusion I came to, is that when I'm single, I want to be in a relationship, but as soon as something starts to look like a relationship, I back off and get spooked.

This is of course not new to me. After my breakup with R, back in 2003, I've been dealing with the same stuff for a couple of years (mind you!), so it's only logical I'm repeating that behaviour right now, since it's less than a year since E. and I broke up.

Still, you would thing a person would learn from his stupidities, wouldn't you? I actually know perfectly well how I react, and still I don't seem to be able to stop it, and just back off from guys in the first place. Rebound can be fun for just a while, but ultimately it's only a burden once you get to that point where you're actually ready to start over again. I have no idea when that point will happen for me. The last time I didn't even saw it coming, E. was just there and suddenly I knew I was ready for a new relationship. Will it be the same this time round? I don't know.

Fact is at the moment there are several guys I fancy, and of course that's not a good starting point in the first place. Luckily enough I don't seem to stand a chance with either one of them, so there's no risk of getting hurt or hurting someone else. Still, it would be nice to fall madly in love again, and who knows, maybe this is just a phase waiting to end?

Monday, October 08, 2007

Whirlwind weekend

This weekend has been a bit of a whirlwind, with nothing but parties and other fun stuff. Friday after work I went home for a quick bite, after which Ziena came to pick me up to go to a party organised by the office. We had loads of fun and the party was pretty crowded, so it was a very good way to start off the weekend.

Saturday I went shopping for going-away gifts for Renske and bought a couple of DVD's for myself as well in the process. That evening Martijn and Ziena came over to my house, after which we went to Renske's going-away party. She's moving to Milan for two months, and even though that's quite a short while, she decided to throw a party anyway, which is a good thing.

Sunday I went swimming with Leendert and spend the evening on Ziena's couch watching episodes of Will and Grace. I finished watching seasons 3 in just two days, so I bought myself seasons 4 as well, and loving it!

Today it wasn't even so bad to go to work (meaning, I really like my job, I'm just not a good Monday person, so it usually takes me some readjusting from the weekend). At the party Friday I found out there's this really goodlooking guy at the office, and I'm dying to get to know him, which is probably a long shot, but good enough for daydreaming.

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Not spicing it up

Motherfuck! I recieved an email today telling me I've won in the lottery to buy Spice Girls tickets for their show in Cologne on december 20, but no-one wants to go with me. As you may have heard in the news this past week, tickets for their show in London's O2 Arena sold out in a record 28 seconds, with over 10 shows added in the UK capital since then, so obviously this tour is a big deal.

I didn't expect to win, so I wasn't actually expecting the need to make any travel plans or to find a companion. Ticket sales start (and end) tomorrow morning at 10 CET, so there's probably no way of finding someone to go with me.

As you may recall from an earlier post, back in 1998 Spice Girls was my first ever stadium concert (with many more to follow) and I was totally overblown by the coolness of it all. I know it may sound a bit pathetic to actually want to go to a Spice Girls show, but I was really looking forward to it. I was even prepared to go there by myself, but I just found out Eurolines doesn't have any direct connection between Holland and Cologne (how fucked up is that?) so I guess I don't have a choice in not going.

Friday, September 28, 2007

Heaven Nr. 7

I've got a new idol called Guus Meeuwis. No, he's not a substitute for Madonna, cause she will always be at least ten steps ahead of everybody else, but Guus does do a pretty good job. My readers from outside of Holland will most likely have no clue who I'm talking about, which is a shame really, cause he makes great music. At the moment, well actually for the last 5 years, he's been one of Holland's most popular singers. Starting out as a student band singer, he got his first #1 single even before graduating from college. Now, a couple of years later, he's selling out stadiums each year on his tours, and I'm so planning of attending one of his shows next year.

Anyway, the reason I'm plugging him is because he's got a new album out, called Hemel Nr. 7 (Heaven Number 7). I thought it would be nice if people from other countries would get to know him as well, so type his name in Google and listen to some of his songs. It doesn't matter if you don't speak Dutch, cause the songs are good enough without actually needing to understand the lyrics.

Enjoy listening!

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Two weeks of non-smoking


Two weeks of non-smoking for me! I couldn't be more proud of myself!

A good time afterwards

It's a bit of a busy week at work, so I'm glad I've been making plans for every single night of this week, so that I know I'll always have something to look forward to.

Monday evening I went for drinks with Ziena and Rik. We met a couple of guys from the United States and Canada, which was great, cause I always really enjoy meeting people from foreign countries. Of course it was a school night, so I had to watch my time, but I had a great evening anyway.

Yesterday Ziena and I went swimming, which will reprise tonight. Usually we go swimming on Mondays and Wednesdays, but since we used up Monday night for drinks we had to go on Thuesday this week.

Tomorrow there's a concert by Rik's band called The Elisabeth Knowhow, so that's something to look forward to as well. They make kinda Chilli Peppers sorta music, although I guess there will be people thinking I'm crazy now. Anyway, I like them, which is quite surprising considering they're not in the Billboard Hot 100.

Friday night there's a Cleopatra party, so I'm sure that will round up the week just great! Being busy at the office is just fine, as long as you're certain of having a good time afterwards.

Monday, September 24, 2007

Kylie X



The Princess of Pop, Kylie Minogue is about to release her new album, dubbed X and the lead single 2 Hearts. I can't wait for this album to be in my hands, since it's the first new material since Kylie's fight against breast cancer.

As you may remember, I was front row at Kylie's ShowGirl concert in Rotterdam, so I'm extremely eager for this album. Can't wait!

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Way too fast

I'm a bit ashamed of the enormous amounts of money I spend yesterday while shopping with Ziena. Then again, shopping can make me really happy and I only bought necessary stuff, like a new jacket and a new messenger bag. Also, we had lunch in town and went for a glass of wine and some nibbles, which was nice!

Then yesterday night we went out clubbing which was also pretty cool, although I felt tired quite early so I went home for a good night sleep. I suppose that was the good thing to do, since right now I'm not feeling tired at all so I can relax and go have a drink with some friends this afternoon.

And that about sums up the weekend, that went by way too fast...

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Spoil myself day

I'm going to have a bit of a spoil myself day this lovely Saturday. Fisrt off, in a couple of minutes I'm going to get my hair cut, which is something that always makes me very happy. Nothing better than looking fresh and clean cut!

After that, Ziena and I are going shopping and have lunch in town, which is my favorite way of spending a Saturday afternoon. One of our department stores is having a big sale starting today, so of course we need to take advantage of that! I hope there will be somewhat of a scene, with people ripping clothes out of each others hands, like you see on television every once in a while.

Tonight I'm going out clubbing, so I can show of my new haircut and clothes to a willing test audience. Sounds like this is going to be a great day!

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Just Theo

I'm pretty excited! This afternoon I got a call from a big television production company, asking me to come to the studio and do a screentest to beacome a contestant on big Dutch tv-show 1 Tegen 100 (1 Against 100).

The idea is that one contestant has to answer questions correctly to stay in the race, while an audience of 100 people can try to outrace this contestant and win the prizes instead. I remember entering to be a contestant some time ago, so when this woman called me I honestly had no idea what she was talking about, but it dawned on me pretty soon, so now I'm quite excited.

Prize money is pretty big on this show, about a 100000 if I remember correctly (I have to admit I don't watch the show very often). Anyway, it's been a couple of years since the last time I was on a tv show, so it's about time. The magic will start next week Saturday, on September 29, so be sure to check back around then (and sooner, of course).

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Cold turkey

I couldn't be more proud of myself: I've been an ex-smoker for 8 days already! Withdrawal sympthons were not nearly as horrendous as I expected them to be, and as I'm writing this, I'm actually not experiencing any withdrawal signs at all. Who would have thought it would be so easy?

Of course, there's a certain danger in thinking it's too easy. It's a lot easier to fall back in the habit when you're under the impression you can quit at any time again. The most important thing to realise for me, at this moment, is that all it takes to going back to being an addict, is just one puff. As an ex-smoker you need to realise you will never lose the urge to start smoking again, so you should never let yourself fall into any temptation.

Good thing is that all restaurants, bars, clubs and cafe's will enforce a smoking ban starting june 2008. The most difficult place not to smoke, to me, is anywhere where you can have a drink with your friends. Although I don't aprove of a government-enforced smoking ban (personally I'd like to be my own judge if I want to smoke or not), I do have to say right now it will probably come in real handy for me.

So, tonight I'm going swimming with Ziena again (we're doing this two nights a week faithfully) so I can feel even more healthy!

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Seasons 3



Because I already saved 20 Euro's on not smoking in the past 4 days, I decided I'm going to spoil myself and buy myself a new Will and Grace DVD box, Seasons 3!

Life's great

4 Days ago, I took my second chance of quitting smoking, and so far, I'm doing very well! I've been out for drinks and dinner, usually the most difficult occasions for a recent ex-smoker, but I handled it pretty well. It's not like I didn't have any problems quitting, but it's not as hard as it was the last time. Besides that, I'm over the critical 72 hours line, so it can only get easier from now on. I've read that after 72 hours, most of the addictive nicotine has exit your body, so that means you will have less withdrawal signs.

Also, as we're talking good news: Ziena got her new job. Of course I didn't expect anything else, but still it's great to have it official. Of course we went to celebrate, with dinner at the Cantina Mexicana, one of my favourite restaurants in Groningen.

Tomorrow my parents are coming over, so that's another nice thing to look forward to. Life's great!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Lifelist, part one

After watching Ellen DeGeneres going on and on about lifelists, I decided to make one for myself. For those of you not in the know: a lifelist is a list with things you want to do and/or achieve in the near future or in your life in general. As this list will probably change over the course of time, I named this topic Part 1, so that I can alter stuff when necessary. Okay, so here we go (in no particular order):

1. Succeed in quitting smoking
2. Getting fatastic relationship with gorgeous guy
3. Actually meet Madonna
4. Eventually move out of Groningen
5. Visiting the United States
6. Go cage-diving with Great White Sharks
7. Learning how to play an instrument
8. Stop worrying about futile things
9. Visit London every year
10.Get on television

Monday, September 10, 2007

Me and Sara


Comeback from hell



Oh my God, did anyone watch last night's MTV Video Music Awards ceremony? As you probably know, Britney Spears was opening act, performing (not how I call it performing, instead of singing) her new single Gimme More.

What could have been a fantastic restart, launching her back into stardom, was actually a pretty pathetic attempt of trying to bring back some of the old magic. Britney looked uninspired and skyrocket high, she danced like... well like nothing I can think of, and she even forgot to lip-synch a couple of times. What was she, and her team, thinking?

It's bad enough her image currently is based only on scandals, but if she could at least have given us a fantastic performance, I really think the public would have forgiven her, but I don't see any chance of that now. I actually feel kind of sorry for her. How has this girl become this complete idiot, throwing her career away like it's nothing?

She better come up with a killer album, otherwise I suspect she won't have any career left...

 
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