Friday, March 30, 2007

Counting sheep

Damnit, I can't sleep. Didn't I write earlier this evening I wanted to be all fresh and awake tomorrow? Well, fat chance I suppose... I really really really need to get some sleep now, but I just don't seem to get the hang of it...

Thursday, March 29, 2007

The second coming

Although not completely back to healthy yet, I did go back to the office today, and, surprisingly, got a lot of work done. Tomorrow I will be using my entire day for some financial thing I won't be bothering you with, so today I really wanted to get all other things done, so I can concentrate on that.

This is of course especially important seeing as I don't want to wear myself out. As you may know, I'm going to my ex-boyfriend again tomorrow night, and as you may remember, it's a very very very long train ride from Groningen to Breda, so I want to be not completely wasted when I get there.

I actually find this weekend even more scary than the last one. This may sound odd, but you know, after not seeing each other for 4 months, you can count on having lots of stuff to talk about and lots of catching up to do. This time around, it has only been less than a week since we've seen each other, so I'm really hoping for there not to be any awkward silences. So wish me luck please!

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Ill behaviour

I've been suffering from a terrible cold for a couple of days already, so today I decided to leave work early to try and recover a bit. After all, next Friday, I have to get up and ready to go back to Breda, so I need to start feeling a bit better. So, I spend quite some time sleeping this afternoon, after which I took a walk, because of the fantastic weather.

Now I'm back at home, and I decided to go and do abslutely nothing tonight. Britney Spears' horrendous movie Crossroads is on television tonight, so I just go and watch that and have a bit of a laugh. After that, I think I'll go to bed early, and hope to feel a lot better tomorrow!

I hope all of you have enjoyed the great weather today, and have a good evening!

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

The ex-boyfriend weekend

This past weekend, I went and visited my ex-boyfriend in Breda, where I, as it happened, stayed until Sunday. It was an absolute blast seeing him again, and we had a great time. In fact, such a great time I will be seeing him again this Friday, so I hope we'll have just as great a weekend as we had a couple of days ago.

The funny thing was, I was psyching myself up so much for this weekend, you know, getting really scared and everything, but as it turned out, there was absolutely no need. As soon as I stepped into his car, I knew we were going to have a great time, and we had so much catching up to do that there weren't any awkward silences.

When I arrived, we had some drinks at his house, after which we went clubbing in town. The next morning we watched cartoons on Jetix as we always did, and then went shopping. Of course, shopping with Emiel and me always turns out into having a beer somewhere, and this time was no exception. We then rented the movie Borat on DVD (which is a blast) and then went out clubbing again.

Sunday we woke up quite late, watched some more cartoons, had some tea, and then I went home, looking back upon a fantastic reunion. I can't wait for next Friday!

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Time to say goodbye

Tomorrow will be the last day at work for my lovely office-mate Corien. She's accepted a new job at the Dutch Railways, as a spokesperson for the press. As happy as I am for her, I will miss her very much at the office. We've always had a lot of fun so it will be a difficult job to replace her, although I must say the new girl seems nice.

Tomorrow evening we're having a function and a dinner to say goodbye, with a whole group from work. It's at Kaap Hoorn, which is this trendy kinda lounge restaurant at the water here in Groningen. I'm looking forward to it very much, although it will be weird to have the office for myself the next day.

Today was a fine day at work. Just a couple of meetings and usual stuff, so nothing to really stress upon. Tonight I decided to have a staying in evening, so I'm watching some useless television and generally do nothing. It's not really my thing usually, but tonight I kinda like it. Guess it's a battery-recharge kinda thing.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Whenever/where-ever

Shakira's Oral Fixation show was great! We've had a great time drinking beers and having fun, and I must say, that wamoan can actually drive me into going straight! She's sex in every aspect, and she's definitely not afraid to show it.

However, I was a bit dissapointed in the fact that she didn't give any extra encore because of the fact that she cancelled the original show in Gelredome Holland 5 minutes before showtime. The show was a blast, but you would have expect her to do at least one extra encore, wouldn't you?

Anyway, all in all it was a great -albeit very short- show. I really like Shakira, but I sure know I'm never going to spend any penny on one of her concert tours again.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Oral Fixation Tour

I just got back from Shakira's Oral Fixation Tour at Gelredome Stadium in Arnhem, the Netherlands. I'm too tired to post a review, so I'll do that tomorrow, but for starters, here's the setlist of tonight's show:

01 Estoy Aquí
02 Te Dejo Madrid
03 Don't Bother
04 Illegal
05 Hey You
06 Inevitable
07 Si Te Vas
08 Obtener Un Si
09 La Tortura
10 No
11 Whenever, Wherever
12 La Pared
13 Underneath Your Clothes 5
14 Pies Descalzos, Sueños Blancos
15 Ciega, Sordomuda
16 Ojos Así
17 Hips Don't Lie

Friday, March 16, 2007

Not a lot to do

There wasn't really a lot to do at the office today, so I decided to make a jump start on the weekend at about 1-ish, and went home. After a long shower, I went to Cleopatra for a beer, which was a very nice way to spend my afternoon. It was quite busy, and there were only fun people, so what better way is there to start of one's weekend?

So now I'm back at home with a friend of mine coming over in about half an hour. I can't make it too late though, cause of course I want to be up and ready for Shakira's concert tomorrow!

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Long time no see

For the first time since we broke up, my ex boyfriend and I are going to have a drink together. It's set for March 23 (Friday next week) and I'm really looking forward to it. It'll be great seeing him, no doubt! It may be a bit awkward in times, but then again, we know each other well enough so I suppose there will be no scary silences.

That's not for another week, though. First, next Saturday me and some friends are going to see Shakira's Oral Fixation Tour at the Gelredome stadium in Arnhem. As you may recall the concert was set for february 3 but Shakira cancelled at the very last minute, namelijk 10 minutes before the show was due to start. I was so totally pissed off back then, but now I'm actually quite happy to still be having the concert to look forward to.

So what else is there to tell... Work was as usual. A nice day, not too busy, just busy enough to keep me going all day long. Tonight there's a party and since I don't have a lot to do at the office tomorrow, I guess I'll pop in for a drink. I hope you'll have a great evening as well!

Monday, March 12, 2007

Movie time

After the very busy time at work last week, things have gotten back to normal and we can all be a little more relaxed now. It has been a particular beautiful day in Holland, so right after lunch me and some of my co-workers took a long walk to get some fresh air. Lovely, I didn't even have to wear my coat for the first time this year! The afternoon went just as smoothly as the morning, so before I knew it is was time to go home.

Tonight I'm not doing anything really. Pirates of the Carribean is on television, so I'm watching that. I've got it on DVD already, but you must never miss a chance to gasp at Orlando Bloom, right? Tomorrow at least I'll know I'll be fresh and happy at work.

Yesterday afternoon I went to visit my parents, which was nice. I stayed for dinner and then went back to Groningen, to watch the extremely scary movie The Day After. This movie is a fictionalized version of how an all out nuclear war between the United States and the Sovjet Union could end up, and let me tell you: it gives me the chills! Anyway, a good movie!

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Music and lyrics

Yesterday evening I went to the movies with my co-worker Corien. We watched Music and Lyrics, starring Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore, and let me tell you: it was a blast. In typical Hugh Grant fashion, it was the ultimate feel good movie, with laughs in all the right places. I highly recommend it!

After the movies, we were joined by Leendert and Ingrid and went for a few drinks, after which Leendert and I went clubbing. All in all, a great evening!

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Happy happy happy

For many reasons, I'm very happy at the moment. I don't want to disclose them all, since some of them involve other people (well, namely my ex-boyfriend) but one of the things I'm happy about, is that everything's going really well at work. I've had an extremely busy week but everything worked out pretty well, so now I feel like I truly deserve the weekend.

This afternoon I went shopping and had a couple of beers with my friends. Tonight I'm going to the movies with my co-worker Corien (we're seeing Music And Lyrics, starring Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore) and after that we're going clubbing. I'm sure it will be a great evening!

Tomorrow, I'm going to Leeuwarden to visit my parents, which pretty much rounds up the weekend. I don't mind though, now that everything's going so well for me at work, it's really not that bad to go back to the office on monday.

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Cross my heart

Well, I'm glad to write that Emiel didn't hate me after my message. Actually, he reacted quite nice, and so I'm pretty happy at the moment! After this ridicously hard day at work, it's a good thing, cause I don't think I would be up to anything even remote to problems.

I'm going to take a long shower now, meaning this post will be very short, but I promise -cross my heart and hope to die- I will make a longer post tomorrow!

I don't know why

Of course I knew it was just a stupid shot in the wind. Of course I knew I wouldn't even stand a change. Of course I knew I wouldn't get any response... And still it hurts. I walked home after work actually being pretty scared, for I didn't know how Emiel would respond, but of course I should have known he wouldn't respond at all. I'm not mad at him... I'm just mad at myself for actually thinking I could make it all work out again.

What was I thinking? Why am I being such a goddamned positive guy thinking everything can work out? I should have known, right when I was typing my message, that it wouldn't be any use. Me being me I was so stupid to think I could actually make a difference. Guess again. I should have known. I should stop doing this.... Only thing is... I don't know why...

Monday, March 05, 2007

Irresistable urge

I've done something potentially really stupid yesterday... I send Emiel a message stating I love him so much and how much I miss him. You'd think I'd be over that phase, don't you? Well guess again. Anyway, the stupid part of course is not the fact that it's true, but the fact that I send this message. I know that it's no use at all as far as getting back together is the goal, so why even bother and make a fool out of myself? I don't know. The fact of the matter is, I just had the irresistable urge to let him know how I feel about him, even though I knew it was a bad idea while I was writing it. Still, I send the message, and there's nothing I can do about it anymore.

I've no idea if he recieved it yet, so I'm a bit scared of my computer right now. I don't know if I want a message back. It may be too confronting to actually see it again on the screen that he definitely doesn't want to get back together. Then again, I have nothing to say about it anymore, so if he does write me back, I'm going to have to read it anyhow. I'll let you know how it went.

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Busy weekend

Seems like this is going to be a great weekend! Yesterday, as you know, I bought my Take That tickets, so I was off to a good start. Then Friday evening I went to Dirk's birthday party: a fun evening! Everyone was there so with a couple of beers it was a great way to start of the weekend!

This afternoon I'm going to do a bit of shopping, and then tonight Ziena is coming over for some drinks, after which we'll hit the town! I love Saturday evenings!!

Tomorrow I'm off to my sister's to celebrate her birthday (which was, in fact, yesterday), so I guess that will also be a fun afternoon.

Have a great weekend everyone!

Friday, March 02, 2007

I've got my Take That tickets!

Yay, I'm so thrilled right now! Not only the weekend has started, but also I got my Take That tickets this morning, so now I'm sure I'm going to see my 4 favourite lads! It's going to be a long wait until november 1st, but just knowing I've got the tickets, makes me really happy! The show is at Ahoy in Rotterdam, which is a great indoor arena for concerts! Can't wait!

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Beautiful world

I've just finished watching Coyote Ugly, which is of course never a good thing, since it brings back some memories. Then again, as you could have guessed after my earlier post, I'm in a bit of a melancholic mood tonight, so I guess it's okay.

Thank God it's only a day left until the weekend starts! Tomorrow morning I'll go and try to get myself Take That tickets for their Beautiful World Tour 2007, so wish me luck!

Stress can get to you

Sometimes things really start to get with you when you're stressful, even though they say one should keep himself busy to keep one's mind of things. I had one of those experiences today big time. I was so incredibly busy at work, and everything worked out just the way I planned it to, and I was so eager to call Emiel to tell him about it, like I used to, but I knew I couldn't. I don't think I've ever had one of those experiences before, and I was devastated, just devastated.

You know, I'm doing so well with everything, and really, I do believe I can get through this without all the shit that came along after my breakup with Roel. And then once in a while there comes this moment I just don't know what to do, and I feel completely numb.Usually this only happens when I'm alone at home, in my bed typically, but today... I just went to the bathroom for a while and just sort of cried it all out. I just couldn't take it anymore. I mean, I was so proud of myself and I just had no-one to really share it with, can you imagine how fucked up you feel when you realise a thing like that?

Tomorrow's Friday and I just can imagine all of this getting worse, but I suppose I shouldn't be thinking about it so much, as it may trigger a sentimental feeling I didn't even have before. Is it so stupid to still be feeling this way? I just don't know, and seeing that I can't really help myslf, I don't give a fuck either.
 
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