Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Three days notice

Only three days left until my three-week vacation starts! I'm really looking forward doing absolutely nothing for so long. It's been a year since my last vacation, which was during the Madonna Confessions Tour, while spending the non-queue-non-show days at my ex-boyfriends house. This time round, I don't really need to do anything, just relax and have some fun. Ony downside to it is I won't see that cute guy at work I wrote about earlier. Oh well, it's not as if I'm making any progress right now, so what's the big difference anyway?

This week I'm basically tying up some loose ends so that I won't leave a complete mess when I leave. Basically this means doing my normal job and making sure the person filling in for me knows his way around in the system. Not that demanding so I'm pretty laidback at work right now.

Tonight Matthijs is coming over for some beers, which should be fun, so I'll be off now. Cheers!

Monday, July 30, 2007


It's that time again... the last couple of months leading up to a new album release by Madonna. It's always a great time of speculations, and this year is no exception. According to DrownedMadonna, the new album will be released on October 29, preceeded by a new single (possibly Candy Shop, but it could be another song). Then Wikipedia has a tentative title: Blackstar, which would be quite catchy. Last week a 17 second clip of Candy Shop leaked out, and I really liked it. Can't wait for the album.

Of course, the premium on a new album is a new tour, and rumour has it the 2008 world tour will start somewhere in May, which is quite a logical possibility, seeing as both Re-Invention and Confessions also started in May.

So, as I said, again it's an exciting time to be a Madonna fan. I wish it were October already!

Sunday, July 29, 2007

The letter

Somehow right now I feel as if fate has somewhat of a vengefull eye on me. The weirdest thing happened this weekend. You know how I'm really back into being so fucking emotional about my ex-boyfriend R., while I'm wishing my ex-boyfriend E. a very unpleasant death? Well, you wouldn't know what happened to me today.

My mother came over for the weekend, just for some shopping and watching movies and stuff, which was alltogether great. Then this afternoon, after the DVDs somewhat ran out (mind you, how can they with over a hundred DVDs in stock), we decided to go watch a video. Since DVD players are the thing to go with, I haven't really watched any of my video's anymore, so naturally they came with loads of dust.

Unfortunately, they came with something else as well. When R. and I were three months together (which was, coincidentially also my birthday), he wrote me this really sweet letter, telling me how much he loved me and how he always wanted the two of us to stay together. The letter in itself is something I can really get emotionally on, both back then and now as well.

Anyway, I've been searching my house for hours a couple of years ago to find it, and I really feared I threw it away accidentially. And there it was, between two video sleeves it just fell out, and I just instantly knew what it was. At first, my mother being there, I was afraid to open it, since I knew what kind of reaction it would trigger, but I was also to excited to not read it, and so I did.

It's just too fantastic. I don't recall ever recieving such a great letter from anyone. The way he described how he felt about me, is just exactly the way I felt about him back then, and basically still the way I feel about him right now. It's really painfull to read frases going on and on about how we should always be together, knowing that it didn't exactly work out that way, but then again, who am I to complain about being loved SO much.

The freaky thing about all this though, is why is this happening now? After years of silence I finally opened up to him, telling him how I feel about him and how much I still love him, and now, somewhat out of the blue, this letter pops up.... Is this some kind of punishment over me for being such a bastard when we ended our relationship, or is it really just a very unlucky coincedence? I'm reading this letter over and over and over again, and I just can't help but wonder I deserve it to feel so fucked up about it right now.

I guess I just really need to get over all this, but things like this aren't exactly helping me, as I'm sitting here crying now, and knowing upfront this will not be a good night sleep ahead of me.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Making progress

Remember how I once said there's this guy at work I kinda fancy? Well, actually I never mentioned it hear before for fear he might read it, but then again, he probably doesn't even know my name so he won't find it. Besides, there are so many people working at my office he could never be sure I'm posting this about him anyway.

But let's cut to the chase. For quite some time I've been sort of staring at him during breaks and me and Ziena have thought on several occasions he did the same. Of course, onde can never be sure, and you can oh so easily think he's looking back, just because you want to.

Anyway, today we were having a break and the company's restaurant pas practically empty, meaning he could go and sit anywhere he would want. Guess what, he sat down right next to us, for no apparant reason. Now, that must say something don't it? Of course, being the shitface I am, I couldn't chat up to him, but at least I smiled a bit at him, and he did smile back, so maybe this was a good start. Bad thing is he's probably free tomorrow, so I'm gonna have to wait on Monday to see him again.

Still, it's a good reason to look forward going to the office (which I do anyways, but still), so I'm just gonna wait and see what happens. Too bad he doesn't smoke. For some reason chatting up to someone seems to go a lot easier on the balcony, where you can start a full blown conversation about the weather, or other small talk like that. Maybe when we get an actual summer here, it's gonna be warm enough for him to go outside as well during lunch break. So here's for praing for summer!

Yo ho yo ho a pirate's life for me

I just came back from the cinema, where I watched Pirates of the Carribean 3 (I know, I'm probably one of the last people on earth who saw it). It was quite a nice movie, although a bit long. I guess part 1 and 2 were just as long, but I saw them on DVD at home, where I could smoke whenever I pleased. Being trapped in the theatre for almost three hours without the possibility of a quick smoke is just not that easy for me.

Anyway, the presence of Orlando Bloom made that up completely for me. How can anyone be so handsome I wonder? Really, if I were ever to become a celebrity stalker, it would be on mister Bloom! I'm hoping for a part 4 very much right now, which, judging by the ending of this movie, could very well be a possibility.

So, now that the movie ended a lot later than I expected, it's way past bedtime for me, so goodnight!

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Vote for me (well, sorta)

It looks as if there's gonna be a lot more shows on the upcoming Spice Girls Tour, and now you can vote for a city for them to play on their official website http://www.thespicegirls.com/ . I would so like every reader to pretty please go up there and vote for Amsterdam! You can only vote once, and I've used mine up, so I need other people to vote for me. It's been 9 years since I saw Spice Girls at the Gelredome Stadium in Arnhem. It was my first ever stadium show and I absolutely loved it. I would so much like to see them again, so please vote for me!

Monday, July 23, 2007

Wanna be on top?

One of my gayest vices is being absolutely addicted to America's Next Top Model. We're two seasons behind in Holland, so don't spoil the fun for me by exposing the winner, but I just wanted to post something about it. I love love love this show! It's down to five girls now and after watching the entire series, of course you've got your favourites. I guess to me it's down to Melrose and CariDee now, so I really hope one of them (preferably Melrose) wins!

It's on every Monday (with a re-run on Saturday) in the Netherlands, and I actually cancel other plans to be able to watch it. There's a Dutch version as well, but it sucks, mainly due to the absence of Tyra Banks. I know Tyra is terribly fake, and probably in real life she's a total bitch, but then again, I'm a Madonna fan, so I'm used to that, right?

Anyway, only four more weeks to go before we know who wins the competition. Can't wait!

Better the devil you know

Are these lyrics fitting or what?

Kylie - Better The Devil You Know
Say you won't leave me no more
I'll take you back again
No more excuses no, no
'Cos I've heard them all before
A hundred times or more

I'll forgive and forget
If you say you'll never go
'Cos its true what they say
It's better the devil you know

Our love wasn't perfect I know
I think I know the score
If you say you love me
Oh boyI can't ask for more
I'll come if you should call

I'll be here every day
Waiting for your love to show
Yes it's true what they say
It's better the devil you know

I'll take you back
I'll take you back again
I'll take you back
I'll take you back again

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Catching up

Something happened yesterday. I went to Niels' party, where my ex-boyfriend R. was too. I had sort of expected him to show up, and I must admit I was really looking forward to that. So there I was, and there he was, and basically for the greater part of the evening I was just too afraid to even come near him, but after a pep talk from Charlotte and Anne (thank you both) I went up t him and started chatting. It was actually very nice catching up with him, and after a while I even dared to tell him I still love him. Note that this was most definitely NOT booze accelarated, since I had been talking to Ziena about this for weeks leading up to the party.

Anyway, unfortunately, and quite expected of course, the feeling wasn't mutual. I am, though, happy I finally told him, aqnd I even got a hug before he left. We ended up talking for about an hour, which was nice, even though of course the results weren't as hoped.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Summer evening

Things are really going the right way at the office. It's only Wednesday and basically my work for this week is finished, meaning I finally have time to do some of the things we never really get around to doing because usually we're too busy. It's a nice way to spend the day for a change!

Holland's really hot as I'm writing this, even though it's already 9 in the evening. As you may recall I'm totally not into heat, so I hope this will pass by as soon as possible.

Anyway, I'm going for a beer with a couple of friends in half an hour, so I have to get ready. Cheers!

Monday, July 16, 2007

Shop til you drop

Friday afternoon, right after work, Ziena and I went for a drink on a terrace downtown, and had a great time. We stayed just a tad too long so we ended up being a little tipsy, but that's okay on a Friday night isn't it?

Saturday Ziena woke me up by means of a text message, to ask wether I would like to go shopping, to which of course I replied yes! I bought myself a really cool new sweater and Mika's album Life In Cartoon Motion. I love that album! In between shopping of course we went for a couple of drinks. Then we went out for dinner to this really cool newMexican place, where the food was great and surprisingly very inexpensive. After that, we went to Ziena's house to watch movies. We tried Saw 3 at first, but I got so sick we turned it off. You really have to be a very sick person to come up with that kind of garbage. So we ended up watching Silent Hill, which was quite a nice movie! Did I mention Ziena and I look like a married couple? Haha!

Sunday I went to my parents, where I stayed for dinner, for yet another great day. Getting back to work today was tough, but manageable. Now it's so freaking hot, that Leendert and I decided to go for a drink in the park tonight. Cheers!

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Sitcoms a go-go!

Today I didn't really get a lot of my usual work done, due to all sorts of unexpected meetings and stuff. Never mind though, it's nice doing something else for a while, so I was actually quite happy. At least I don't ever have to worry not having enough to do at the office!

Keeping in line with the rest of this week, I'm planning on spending another quiet evening on my couch. Sitcoms can really grow on you after watching them night after night. I'm currently a big fan of King of Queens, The Nanny, Dharma and Greg and Will and Grace. They're right behind each other on Dutch tv, from dinner time till half past eight, and I kinda like it as a way to start the evning.

Downside of not really doing anything is, that I also don't have a lot to write about, so forgive me not not posting that much. I promise it will all change soon!

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

A shitload of work

Just three more days before I won't be on my own at the office. I have to say I'm really happy to not have this shitload of work to do, and just be able to relax a little more. I'm thinking about taking a few days of next week to have an extended weekend, which sounds like a very good thing to do. My vacation won't start until august, so there's nothing wrong with taking a few additional days off.

I'm doing just fine at work, thank you very much, but still it's a tough job to do all by yourself. Not that I'm complaining big time, cause the good thing is that every night when I come home I know I really deserve to just lay back and relax.

I'm not doing anything tonight, but tomorrow Aletta's coming over for a drink, and Thursday there's Marlous's birthday dash. Nice things to look forward to! Then Friday I'm just going out for drinks and this weekend my Mom comes to visit me (that is, if she gets rid of the cold she's having right now).

All in all, things are going pretty well!

Monday, July 09, 2007

The weekend for a climate in crisis

As I hoped (and expected, to be honoust), Madonna totally stole the show last Saturday at Wembley Stadium London. It was of course Live Earth, and the Queen of Pop was scheduled to be headlining the UK leg of the show. Unfortunately I wasn't able to attend the concert in person, but BBC was broadcasting it live, and fabulous!

She sang four songs: Hey You, Ray Of Light, Las Isla Bonita (with gypsy influences) and show-stopper Hung Up. The crowd went absolutely wild on her. From friends of mine who did attend the event, I've heard that more than three quarters of the audiences were made up out of Madonna fans. You could tell even on television they were going absolutely wild!

After the broadcast, of course we had to go celebrate this legendary performance, so Tannus, Ziena and I went to the Golden Arm for a bit of a dance. All in all, it was a very very very nice evening.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

The grudge

After another extremely busy day at work (my chef will still be on holiday for the next week and a half), Ziena came over tonight to watch a movie. She wasd to pick a movie and I supplied drinks (coke and ice-tea, surprisingly) and movie food. She came over with The Grudge 2, which was pretty cool since we both have seen part one, but not two yet.

It was quite an enjoyable movie with a few scares, but not as good as the first installment. I couldn't really follow the storyline. Of course, the story usually isn't the most important part of a scary movie, but still it's a bit shitty if you don't really understand just why everyone is dying. Still, it was a nice evening.

Tomorrow will probably be yet another busy day, so I'm off to bed.

Nighty night!

Tuesday, July 03, 2007


Things at work just depent really. You may remember I was so worried there was no way I could do it all on my own now that my co-worker is off on holiday. Although I have to admit my days are filled to the max, I'm really happy to say I'm doing it, and I'm doing it just fine. It's time to go home before I know it, which is a good sign of knowing I'm having both a busy day, as knowing I'm getting along just fine.

The one thing I do feel right now, is I'm getting home pretty tired, so it's off to bed for me.


Sunday, July 01, 2007

Saturday night

As we all know, shopping can really cheer a guy up, so that's exactly what I did yesterday. Bought myself a new pair of jeans, new shoes, and a DVD (War Games, a really disturbing movie about a computer malfunction almost leading the world into World War 3).

Of course, Saturday night I needed to show my new assets to the world, so we went out clubbing. We had a great evening, and it wasn't even that late! When I got home I was a bit stupid and send my ex-boyfriend E. a message. Well, perhaps stupid isn't the right word... I meant what I said in the message, but I suppose me and E. shouldn't have any sort of contact whatsoever anymore.

Anyway, a great day, and a great evening!
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