Tuesday, October 30, 2007
The good thing about these camp trip,s is that they basically are all about drinking beer. There are some activities planned, but I can never really be bothered engaging in them. Usually it's better to stay indoors and just drink loads of beer. We had some drinking games which made it all the more fun, especially since I'm not especially good in them, so I had to drink a lot!
After three days like that of course you're totally wasted, so it wasn't exactly as if I came back from my weekend all relaxed and fresh. Never mind though, I'm fine now, and ready to go swimming with Ziena.
In just two days, I'm going to see Take That at Ahoy Rotterdam!
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Listening to it, I'm looking even more forward to the concert next week (november 1st), cause it means that after liking them for over 10 years, I finally get to see them play live! I've seen many of their performances, both old and new, on video and dvd, but of course it will be a whole new thing actually being part of the show. I've seen Robbie Williams doing a solo show at the same venue many years ago, which was great. Still, even Robbie can't get close to the real magic Take That always kinda showed of.
So, now that I've got both Never Forget and Beautiful World, along with a couple of dvds, I'm properly armed to go and have the best night of the year next week! Expect a full review next Friday!
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
The only problem with this great idea is, that I need to find the right political party to suit my ideas. In Holland, we've got many different parties, with many different ideas. Most of them operate both on a national and a local level, which is exactly what I want. I'm not interest in a party that just tries to get things done locally, although the extend of the volunteering I'm interested in, does concern local matters.
So, as to not make any rash decisions, I decided to go and read all the political programs, in rder to be able to make a well-informed choice. I gotta tell you, it's not that easy. Although the parties differ on many ideas, there are also some things they have in common, and the problem is, it's exactly those issues that would have been helpful to me in making a good choice. Nobody ever said politics were easy, I suppose.
I guess it's best to give it some rest for an evening, so that tomorrow I can make like a chart, citing the good and bad things of each party, and then counting them up and decide which one fits me best. I am kind of excited about this. I like being active, so this would set out a whole new world of opportunities!
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
So anyway, that's six weeks ago now, and I haven't taken one single puff since. Smoking is officially behind me now, and even though I've had smoke-free periods before, I'm totally convinced this time it's gonna last! This is not just a presumption, I actually have some reasons.
First of all, I realised the insane amount of money I used to spend on smoking every month. That money can buy me a lot of Madonna tickets, and of course to me that can be a big drive. Furthermore, as of next year, there's a smoking ban in bars and clubs in Holland, so the former addict in me actually decided never to go out anymore. Thinking about it, I realised just how pathetic that sounds. It's pretty insane to think you can't have a good time without cigarettes, so it's good to be smoke-free before the ban actually comes into place.
Then, of course, there are the obvious reasons, like health issues and the fact that smoking actually smells (something you don't realise while smoking yourself). I have to admit health issues weren't my first concern, but it's a good plus.
So, keep your fingers crossed that I will never succumb to the temptation again, and will remain an ex-smoker for the rest of my life!
Monday, October 22, 2007
The good thing is, I'm not alone in this matter. Gimme More made it to #3 in the Billboard Hot 100, which is arguably the most important music chart in the world. It's pretty amazing the single got there, considering the only promotion Britney did, was that horrible performance at the MTV Video Music Awards in Las Vegas, about a month ago. It's like starfucker and showbizz blogger Perez Hilton (http://www.perezhilton.com/) wrote: we all love to hate her.
Meanwhile, I was at a club saturday night, and as soon as Gimme More was played, the dance floor was filled, so she's doing something right!
Keep it up Britney, don't ever become a decent girl again!
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Anyway, at about 3 I arrived in Utrecht, so Bo and I went shopping. I bought myself the Kylie ShowGirl HomeComing cd, and the new Madonna: Like an Icon biography, both very cool! Then of course we needed to get something to eat and drink, so we went to this really fancy restuarant/club called Winkel van Sinkel. I'd heard about it, and the rumours were true: it's a really cool place to go to. We stayed for about 4 hours, and then went to grab a burger at McDonalds. After that, there was time for two more beers, before I needed to head to the station and take the train back to Groningen.
Back in Groningen Leendert and I had plands to go clubbing, which was cool as well. It was a bit quiet downtown, but I still had a lot of fun and watched some really cute guys (only looking, no buying hehe). Got back home at about 3.30 so there was some time left for sleeping. Now I'm up and ready to go visit my parents, so again this promises to be a good day!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
I was actually planning on spending several evenings this week this way, but it didn't go according to plan, so I'm quite happy being able to spend at least one night by myself. Chances are Leendert is coming over this evening, which is fine, but it's also fine just being alone. Just one more evening to go before the weekend, for which I've got lots of things planned, so I'm a happy camper!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
This may all sound a bit depressed, but don't get me wrong, I'm not. It's just that I'm always looking forward to the summer, and this year we practically had none, so when the leaves start to fall and you can bet your life there isn't any chance left, it's sad. For the rest, of course fall and winter can be pretty cosy seasons as well, except I don't have a boyfriend so I don't really have anyone to cuddle up to this year. Actually, come to think about it, I don't have a boyfriend during wintertime whichever year. For some strange reason my relatinships seem to end before Christmas, so I've never really had that great thing of making snowmen together or going sleyriding.
Hm, now that I'm writing this, I am starting to feel a bit sorry for myself, so I'd better stop now and drag myself to the pool, to go for my evening of excercise.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
In fact, our 'date' together tonight got me thinking: why is it so hard to stay friends with someone you've been in a relationship with? Maybe W. isn't such a good example, since we only date briefly, but let's have a look at one of my three significant relationships: R.
When R. and I broke up, we didn't get along too well for a while. It's a phase I actually understand quite well, you know, it can be difficult to deal with stuff, so sometimes it's just better to fight over it. Then, after a couple of months, especially when you see each other like every day, as R. and I did around that time, there should be some kind of normality, right?
Wrong! If it weren't for a couple of weeks ago at a party, we still wouldn't have said a word to each other, and the sad thing is: there really is no-one to blame, it just happened. Isn't it weird? Someone who has played such a big role in your life, can just dissapear or even become an enemy. The same thing threatened to hapen with E. but fortunately enough we were, somehow, able to avoid it, so now we communicate quite often. Why is it then, that R. and I can't seem to manage the same thing?
I don't know. Basically, I shouldn't even care, I mean, we are ex-boyfriends and it's been a long time. Still, I'd like to believe I could get along with anyone, so I would really like to get along with him as well.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
So the image above is probably going to be the last picture of me ever with a cigarette, taken over two months ago. I've quit smoking for over a month now, and I couldn't be more proud of myself. I'be watched some people smoking today, and although I can't deny I was just a tad jealous, the greater part of me was just overjoyed to not be any part of that anymore.
Being an ex-smoker really does cheer things up a lot!
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Two years ago the big tsunami in Asia took place. I remember the first couple of days (it was Christmas), everyone was glued to the television and constantly giving to charity to help the victims. Then, just a couple of days later, the impact started to get less and less, until nobody cared anymore. It didn't mean the tragedy was any less, it just meant we couldn't be bothered to care anymore. With an overload of horrible images, one can only go so far in feeling sympethatic or shocked.
I'm not blaming myself or anyone else for this, but the fact remains it's a bad thing. Loads of people involved with the shoot-out will be suffering from trauma as I'm writing this, and still it's only one of the many headlines I read today. The world has just gotten such a rotten place, we've gotten completely numb.
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Wednesday, October 10, 2007
This is of course not new to me. After my breakup with R, back in 2003, I've been dealing with the same stuff for a couple of years (mind you!), so it's only logical I'm repeating that behaviour right now, since it's less than a year since E. and I broke up.
Still, you would thing a person would learn from his stupidities, wouldn't you? I actually know perfectly well how I react, and still I don't seem to be able to stop it, and just back off from guys in the first place. Rebound can be fun for just a while, but ultimately it's only a burden once you get to that point where you're actually ready to start over again. I have no idea when that point will happen for me. The last time I didn't even saw it coming, E. was just there and suddenly I knew I was ready for a new relationship. Will it be the same this time round? I don't know.
Fact is at the moment there are several guys I fancy, and of course that's not a good starting point in the first place. Luckily enough I don't seem to stand a chance with either one of them, so there's no risk of getting hurt or hurting someone else. Still, it would be nice to fall madly in love again, and who knows, maybe this is just a phase waiting to end?
Monday, October 08, 2007
Saturday I went shopping for going-away gifts for Renske and bought a couple of DVD's for myself as well in the process. That evening Martijn and Ziena came over to my house, after which we went to Renske's going-away party. She's moving to Milan for two months, and even though that's quite a short while, she decided to throw a party anyway, which is a good thing.
Sunday I went swimming with Leendert and spend the evening on Ziena's couch watching episodes of Will and Grace. I finished watching seasons 3 in just two days, so I bought myself seasons 4 as well, and loving it!
Today it wasn't even so bad to go to work (meaning, I really like my job, I'm just not a good Monday person, so it usually takes me some readjusting from the weekend). At the party Friday I found out there's this really goodlooking guy at the office, and I'm dying to get to know him, which is probably a long shot, but good enough for daydreaming.
Thursday, October 04, 2007
I didn't expect to win, so I wasn't actually expecting the need to make any travel plans or to find a companion. Ticket sales start (and end) tomorrow morning at 10 CET, so there's probably no way of finding someone to go with me.
As you may recall from an earlier post, back in 1998 Spice Girls was my first ever stadium concert (with many more to follow) and I was totally overblown by the coolness of it all. I know it may sound a bit pathetic to actually want to go to a Spice Girls show, but I was really looking forward to it. I was even prepared to go there by myself, but I just found out Eurolines doesn't have any direct connection between Holland and Cologne (how fucked up is that?) so I guess I don't have a choice in not going.